Saturday, June 23, 2007
is jamming such a chore? i think it has become one recently.. at least to everyone else in the band..
like, in the past, all one needed to say was i FEEL like jamming.. don even have to like arrang or anything, then it became we arrange the jamming which i would say i actually better.. and now, it's like, eh this sat jam? "not free not free not free" so difficult meh.. like i've given up asking.. no point asking.. confirm one cannot here the other cannot there.. fucking irritating as hell. i think it is like at leas 4 or 5 times in a row week after week everyone just has no interest in jamming anymore..
whats the point in a band when we don jam, meet up, see each other or even talk man.. so fucking stupid..
i wanna do ao many things with this band, i wanna cut an album, i wanna make music vids i wanna do gigs and get recognised as a pretty good band in sg. but i'v lost my drive, inspiration and the energy to motivate myself to do alot of these things.. cuz it's just too tiring to get eveyone's ass up into the room and play right.. it's alright if we don play right, but at least look like u've tried.. it's not as shiok and fun if the music's not right.
i've wasted my holiday away. kinda. and theres no more gig. i don't blame anyone for that, cuz ben got into an accident.. in a way, i'm happy there's no gig, but of course not because he kena accident la pls.. i rather him no accident and we no gig. cuz right now, i don think we'll make it for a gig, cuz we can't even make it for one jam session. what more a gig with people watching.
i'm tired.
i actually blogged at 11:17 PM
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