Sunday, May 29, 2005
i missed you so much this morning..
sighh..
how to last 6 months..
i never wanted a break up..
just wondered if it would be better to put it on hold..
but whats done.. is done..
sighh..
this heartache's killing me..
i don feel angry or anything..
i just feel real empty and lonely..
you were everything to me..
u still are..
and i lost everything..
sighh..
good luck tml for ur mt paper..
i hope u'll do well..
even though this has happened..
i still love u..
i can't help it..
i love u..
and i'm sorry for ruining everything..
i'm sorry for my mom, who's so wanting to put us on hold..
i din get time to think it through..
i'm so sorry..
this morning at church, there was the pri 2 kids having thier 1st holy communion,
they had all thier names printed in big..
pasted on the walls..
then i saw one name..
alicia..
sighh.. made me really miss u even more,
staring at that name all the while in church..
i was thinking of all the nice times i've had with u..
ur smile, ur jumpy happy character..
the way we'd stand together and sit together..
sighh..
i'm sorry i made us end tt..
i just, hope this 6 months passes by quick,
and tt we'll do real well for our O's..
and i'll try to start things anew with u..
it may not be the way it used to be..
but really.. right now, all i really need..
is.. you..
but nvm.. i'll wait..
i promised u that i'll wait.. wait this year out for u..
i'm gonna keep that promise..
my first promise to you.
and i'm not gonna break it.
cuz i too, don make empty promises..
or at least i try not to..cuz i don want to..
take care baby. god bless.
all the best tml for ur paper.
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