Monday, May 30, 2005
actually.. i kinda think this happened.. and it was.. not all that bad.. that it happened..
cuz like..if it didn't happen.. yeah, she'd prolly would've gotten hell from her dad..
and maybe, who knows? worse things could've happened.. i dunno..
i'm not saying i'm glad it happened..
i'm saying that maybe.. it's not all that bad..
and now.. at least i know, that i've been sucking out alot of her money, time and energy..
and if next time.. if we ever do get back together.. i'd noe.. and i won't do tt again..
i'll make sure we don overshoot phone bills, we don loose sleep.
i guess.. u could say this whole things really opened my eyes to the truth and reality, and whats really going on.. i guess i just couldn't see it before, when i was blinded by love..
today, i went jammin.. haha, quite fun.. i tried to jump with the guitar.. at the end of the song, 'in my eyes' hahaha.. and i kena scolding from the uncle again.. =P
he and his "next time, u bring ur own guitar la ah! then u want to jump u go jumb and u break ur guitar, also nvm.i don care. but u break my guitar, i tell u ah, i very painful, u also very heart pain, ur money become my money. then u know alot of ppl want to use this guitar.."
like -_-" c'mon la.. the guitar din hit anything la.. haha.. =P
yeah, then wilsong came over.. and so did basil.. basil and wilson were so fascinated with my air rifle.. hahaha.. =P should see basil.. haha. =P..
yeah.. play play play.. play the whole day la.. now i better go do my work.. i just did a few a math sums.. heh.. shiok, got them all right! muahaha.. i feel smart.....er.. haha..
yeah, then i read her entry..and.. god.. i din noe.. how much i was draining out of her.. i owe her so much.. so much.. i just hope she does real well for her O's..
and yeah, thanks wilson. for ur concern.. and ur mukus.. hahaha.. and yea la yea la.. ur guitar good la.. haha.. =P.. but mine better. =D wahaha.
kk.. i better go back to studying. i'm not gonna go through all of this for nothing.
there's a letter to alicia below....well.. sort of a letter.. more like an entry.. for her.. most probably the last one for her.. for this 6 months.. actually.. more like5 months.. or issit 4? i dunno cuz i mean.. o levels ain't ending at dec wad rite? haha.. yeah.. so yeah.. i guess that entry's gonna be the lst one for her during this period of time. cuz.. i'm not supposed to communicate with her.. so yeah.... and to all her friends.. who.. may be reading.. this..? i dunno.. um.. i'm sorry for hurting alicia..din mean to. hope ya'll forgive me.. or something..i feel terrible....umm..yeah.. umm..
i gtg.. bye..
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