we speak in different voices
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me and my voices away from me
Saturday, August 09, 2008
i should really finish this song and add all the necessary layers to it. kinda the one song that gets me through everything recently. the one song that puts me through everything also.
i should stop wasting time.
i can't stop, thinking about the stars. my mind's the empty night sky, these stars make it worth the try, to stay here.
i actually blogged at 10:57 AM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
i don't know whats the point in blogging in two blogs. but i guess it's almost fun.
hmm, here i sit in the dark, the 22' lcd screen the only source of light, the song by mae my temporary escape. my eyes rolling fast, down, then quickly back up, as i realise it's not you who made the msn ring.
ah ha haha.. ok dempster's waving made everything funny. hahahahaha..
anyways, yeah, the song's still playing. whee.
HA.. my eyes actually really do roll down then up really fast, the moment i see the orange blinker blinking from the left, and not the right.
i guess maybe i blog here still, at some stupid points in time, because i THINK, nobody reads this. and then it's stupid, as to why i'm even writing this on the net in the first place. if i don't want people to read. haha.
haha ok. watching dempster vlog now.. it's actually honestly pretty entertaining. if i don't know him and how he actually speaks. i'd probably be more comfortable watching the video. haha. ah, he's actually kinda cool in this video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxbJBKL8dnc
yeah anyways. i dunno. haha.
over. CHGK. ... ... ... . .... ... ... ..
i actually blogged at 11:35 PM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, December 22, 2007
maybe i'm asking for too much.. i should be happy with where i am right now. ha. hah. dumb ass. is eye.
i actually blogged at 1:17 AM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
HAHA LOOK IT!
i'm blogging on BLOGGER!
HAHA. AND YOU NOE WHAT~
you can't TAG! HAHA. LOOSER!.
i actually blogged at 1:37 AM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, October 07, 2007
i strongly believe that god is punishing me.
and i feel i deserve it. HAHA. sigh. ok, dear god,
i am sorry for i have sinned. i really am. and thus i pray, dear lord, tomorrow, please give me a better day.
uh..i dunno, i guess if u came here, u would wanna read something.. rite? so uh, u can click here to visit the stupid lan jiao blog.
it's pretty ugly rite now. i dunno how to design the thing just yet.
i actually blogged at 4:43 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, September 24, 2007
maybe i should make the width of my posting thingy wider..
anyways, today we had fun at yumi's birthday party. i'm real lazy to type out everything. but it was fun. =)
tml i'm hoping to meet vani abt the gig in october. cant wait. i hope it doesn't suck, i hope it'll sound great, and i hope when i sing, i'll sound really nice.
i nid to cut my hair again. so it won't puff out so much. i think my drawings are really flat. dunno how to shade properly. i think.. i think too much. how ah. haha. i'm hopin this 1 week will pass fast, i got a job, to give out flyers to taxi drivers at changi airport, for 10 bucks an hour. not bad rite? haha. then i'll be 160 bucks richer by the end of the month. WOOOO.
"..to the secret i give..." haha, omg that is such an old song.
i actually blogged at 11:48 PM
pleaseshootme
i nid to go to school like.. NOW.
HAHA, but i feel like blogging. HURR.
ytd we recorded with the band. like finally. but wilson got a call from cheryl, so he didn't finish his drums, next time then do lo. HAHA, see see wil, it's difficult to keep in perfect timing rite! sucker! mutha sucker. haha ok.
i think i succum to temptations like.. real. easy. man u suck nick. but i can resist some very well. WOO!
and oh, we had therepy session ytd in my house while ben was reminiscing about his rugby days and stuff. they were champions against all the ang mohs, and they were the unknown underdog. HOOOOOOO!
(i love mac cuz it helps me spell. i duno how to spell that word, reminiscing, well now i do lah)
ok, off to school. hopefully tml, i can resist. haha. 1 more week of hols!
i actually blogged at 9:50 AM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, September 22, 2007
ok i think recording is much better now. hee.. like.. sounds pretty good to me. like.. i dunno. i guess this is about as good as my lousy system can churn out.
i'll prolly record a few songs after my band finishes up our originals and it'll be some cheapo album.
and anyways, i don't think it's me.. haha.. so sad. haha dunno lah. maybe..? hurr.. stupid boy, what u thinking?
i actually blogged at 11:13 PM
pleaseshootme
i'm trying to get my old computer to work so i can listen to music in my room without having to plug the speakers into my lappy. u see, my room is not very well arranged.
if i saw a shooting star, i noe what i'd wish.
i actually blogged at 4:31 PM
pleaseshootme
Friday, September 21, 2007
"lie down try to close the eyes, they wouldn't shut; the rushing blood though these lids do not lie,
they paint a picture; it would not fade, close the eyes, you can't run away, close the eyes, face and stay.
write down about the things he sees before he sleeps. ...
tell, and announce he can't be freed, that these wings have reached, the brink of extinction, create new room.. for new creation.
(and he will smile) ...
under light, over darkness, fear will bend and fall to pieces, at the start, of the end, of this; broken."{{ending}}
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pleaseshootme
i'm.. uh...
well, wilson called me to ask me to say thank you to him. so i did. then he told me some very.. uh.. interesting information.
HAHAHAHAHA..
i dunno.. HAHA.. feels weird.
but it was like.. WOAHHHH Mai gawd.
ahahhah.. shit lah.. how.. stupid sia.. still got one more week uh..
like butterflies in your stomach, but only, not in the STOMACH... but in my cheeks, neck, and head.. mainly cheeks.. haha
and oh, my neighbour bought himself a PS3.. and.. i really suck. haha.. i keep dying at ninja gaiden: (wazzat.. uhhh..) sigma..
i think it's sigma. whatever it is.. it's so difficult. haha. but it's damn cool. hurr.. slash slash. blood blood. and the stupid ninja guy can run up walls jump like 3 meters, budden(but then) some stupid low building cannot jump up...
i actually blogged at 1:41 AM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, September 16, 2007
haha i think i was over reacting..
sorry marc. i didn't mean the previous post. haha. not like you knew i wrote it anyways.. hurr
i deleted it cuz i think it's too horrid alr. haha.. anyways,. tml i'm eating sizzler with ben and wilson. shiok arh. haha.
i moan.
i actually blogged at 9:16 PM
pleaseshootme
Friday, September 14, 2007
damn. ii should have waited for the next bus..
nick ur so stupid. hahah...
oh wells. just another day of stupidity for me. haha that means 2 weeks. HAHAHA.. frickin sian mAN..
ok saosin's the best man.
"i will make it out, i will live to tell." hee..
i think fate can't stand my guts. haha....hahahaha.. i think i nid a few more chances to screw up then can liao. haha..
i chatted with some horny girl just now. haha.. the last time i chatted with her was like.. a year ago..? haha cooooool..
i actually blogged at 1:50 AM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
sian. today no chicken chop. haha no time to buy at western food.
anyways.. i nid FATE. ghaaha... laptop no batt.. i jsut wanted to say something like this lah. haha
NO MORE PCOMDI! DESTI IS ALMOST OVER HAHAHA> SONG BO!? SHIOK LAH
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pleaseshootme
Monday, September 10, 2007
WAH LAU... i think she smile at me today lei.. hurrr.. heee.. i dunno.. looked like she got. haha..
i noe while walking with shahul, yumi, demp, and mark to prata shop we saw her, on the long stretch of granite on the feild.. i got smile at her for quite long.. but it was dark.. dunno if she got see. haha..
then i saw her a bus stop while waiting for bus with demp and yumi.. i dunno lei! she gave elvis a huge smile and stuff.. then i dunno.. she got look in my direction and give a subtle smile and head tilt puffed eye gesture.. hurr.. very pretty lei. haha..
i kinda smiled.. i think.. it was pretty pathetic.. sighh.. hahahaha.. all the practice in the mirror on how to smile if a girl smile at you gone to waste.. hahaha.. so silly hor. haha
ok tml if i see her again i'll smile properly. hurr.. i'm not sure if she just had a random fit to smile in my direction, or was i imagining things, or she got smile at me. haha.. it'll be nice if it was the last one.. hurr..
ok i got pcomdi to do.. sigh.. im glad i totally finished up my desti blog.
i actually blogged at 11:22 PM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, September 02, 2007
i haven't been blogging recently.. been extremely busy..
i can't keep up.. i nid to do alot of work.. but all my friends are always free and asking me out to play. haha.. i dunno lei.. i wanna play.. but i nid to say that i cann't play all the way.. i dunno how to say today ask them go home so i can do my work for this whole saturday. sighh.. kinda wasted this saturday.. i hardly did any work..
i'm really tired every fucking day i need rest. and i thnk i should go find a date somewhere. hahaha.. everyone's finding one alr.. hurr.
i actually blogged at 1:19 AM
pleaseshootme
Friday, August 24, 2007
i'm bored. i'm typeing lying down with my arms supporting my head to look at the screen causing an irritating feeling to my shoulders. so i am changing position.
damn i change also end up the same position. ok i sit up.
there much better.
i'm bored. i think i go sleep better uh.
i actually blogged at 2:30 AM
pleaseshootme
Monday, August 20, 2007
i feel like blogging. but i got nothing much good to say. haha.
i actually blogged at 12:00 AM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, August 19, 2007
i always wonder..'am i irritating to prople' i mean like genuinely irritating to the point that like people give me fake smiles. haha. but then i guess i'm being stupid right? cuz if i am then who the hell would wanna hang out with me. haha. so i assume i'm not irritating. but i suppose i've got to be genuinely irritating at times. haha.. i'm just being random.. haha.
today i jammed with rino hariz, fikry, syafiq and myself.. i think the guitars(rino and hariz) nid some practicing. then we're like set to go and rock the stage(or floor) of design space. cuz the sound was rally good just now. i love that jamming room's drum set. very very good. and syafiq's voice is really amzing. like he can honestly really sing i can tell man. woots! best song ever.
i wanna jam halleluja by paramore with my band and ain. cuz i think that song is really nice. haha. oh wells. it's been a while since i blogged and i'm not blogging anything much. so. yeah. haha. dunno. hello!
i actually blogged at 12:26 AM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, August 11, 2007
actually. i genuinely didn't have time to do alot of the stuff i nid to actually do. my grammar sala. but i lazy correct.
ya so actually i have no time. cuz the time that is used is sleeping time whcih gives me no time to do the stuff. but jsut now i got carried away with the hair and the suit then i did my first music video. woots! haha. i ate into my sleep time. sigh. haha but i can't wait to finish it one day! woots! the song's pretty goood. haha wilson finally sed something really good about my recordin quality. haha. he sed that it sounds like normal stuff. not home kinda recording. but the bass too loud. but heck lah. i also noe that part. i tried. but heck. haha. i'm happy. =)
i'm happy even tho my mom nagged(again) about how she thinks i've entered the wrong course. that i'm wasting my life and time and talents away. but i think i'm using it great. =) i believe i got some kind of future in this thing. heee.
i'm in a loving good mood right now. haha. cuz of music and video. =D
and oh sing fest was AWESOME!!! A7X ROCKS> WOOTS. gates is damn pretty . hahaha. and the ang moh girls there were just HOT. wahahahaha.
i actually blogged at 2:27 AM
pleaseshootme
Monday, August 06, 2007
wahh. so crushed can.. sigh.. i dunno.. issit my parents don't see the way i do?
i'm supposed to do a wedding montage for my sis. so i did. i wanted to do something different from the normal squish every photo you have into a video and ms-paint the circle and arrows so that the hundred over people can find the main subject within the time frame.
i wanted to tell more of a story? i gave the pictures to my sis's boyfriend a little blue-ish tint and my sister's pics red-ish tint. then the couple shots were more of a warm colour.. kinda like the two mixed together. haha. but nobody actually notices it.. so sad. waste my time.
then after the disapproval, my mom picked the pictures she wanted and liked to be in the new-ordinary-montage, like..aiya. ok.. but the nice pictures she say not nice.. pfth.. sian lah. i no mood to do alr..
so i'll be off to do the montage again.. no music.. just pictures for u to laugh. haha.. i think it's alright lah. but it was more fun when it was done differently.
and i hate kenny rogers stupid song 'coward of the county'. it sucks! and i have to draw and create a storyboard from the lyrics and animate the damn thing to the damn song. fuck you! haha. damn it. i gave up for today after drawing 12 frames.
i love paramore. i love 'my' bose speakers. i love my house. i love my bed. i love the water i drink. i love the food i eat. i love the phone i use. i love the groud i stand on. i love the air i breathe. i love the fingers i use to type and draw and play guitar drums and wank. i love the brain i have that helps me think the little that i do. i love the eyes that let me see clearly through the specs and contacts that i love. i love the ears that let me listen to paramore. i love the nose that lets me breathe the air that i love. i love the mouth and tongue and teeth that let me eat the food that i love. i love the voice i have that lets me speak. i love the way i speak, it makes friends for me. i love my friends. i love the time passed by between my friends an i, it makes better friends. i love the school i go to. i love the toilets and their ablity to flush. i love the smell of peach. i love bubble tea. i love the pearls. i love money. i love the way my friends talk to me. i love the fact that u didn't skip any line and read all the way up to here. i love the fact that u may have skipped a line or two but are till reading. i love the way my friends laugh. i love the way i eat. i love the sounds in the morning. i love the temperature now. i love the banglas because they keep our country clean when we ourselves don't. i love the government for everything we have. i love the amount of money i have. i love god. i love you. i love me. i love almost everything. if only almost everything would love me back. that'll be nice.
i actually blogged at 12:23 AM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
huh. i just read aidah's blog. haha
what "nick-naomi" thing all SIA.. hahahaha..i'll never be able lah. haha.. siao. but damn shiok if got ah. hooooooooo! hahaha. ok. whatever.. she's not like..i dunno.i wanna date? kind..? haha but it will be damn cool if i did kind. haha.
i can't believe i actually managed tofinish up my stuff from scratch in less than half a day. woots!
in the bus i was thinking.. and i think i'm scarred. not scared. scarred. like scar. but i also think that it's a long time ago. so it doesn't matter. haaaha. it was just a thought.. my nose is VERY itchy. and i'm chatting. but i don't feel like it. sigh..
i wonder. am i like.. going to make it big in this industry? i haven't started work or anything like shahul and all. he's done alot.. i only record music for myself.. i want to take it on a new level. but... dunno how. haha.
oh wells. i wanna see or hear what ronald has to say about by work. =)
today i eat cheesy bbq meltz with cheryl. haha.. the stupid thing veh nice sia. and i was veh thirsty, then i drink my drink almost finish i open i saw a hair inside, then i report, then they give me new cup. SHIOK AH. haha.
and i bought proper contacts. so much clearer now. =D
i actually blogged at 10:42 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, July 23, 2007
today, i put a little torch light behind a fan(those little computer fans) which i stuck a piece of cardboard on the blade with only a small hole in the board. to achive that flashing light thing u get at discos and stuff.
then i shined it in my room, and moshed to some slipknot.
HURR! DAMN SHIOK LAH! LIKE I FELT LIKE I WAS AT A GIG! LIKE OMG SO DAMN NICE CAN! WOOT WOOT THE FRICKING SLO MO SHADOW ON THE WALL WAS ORGASMIC.
yeah after all that head banging and moshing by myself.. i.. uh,. my neck muscles giving way alr.. no more strength. like i'm having loats of trouble keep my head up. haha it feels horribly weirdly nice. haha.
so what i'm doing now is kinda like what cherine does with her neck.. but only i'm exaggerating the posture so i can rest my head on my shoulders, so what it looks like is as if my neck is inverted into my body while the back of my head rests on my shoulders. haha.
i actually blogged at 10:01 PM
pleaseshootme
camp was tiring!
i must admit, i was pretty sad when ain told me she wasn't going to be able to make it to camp cuz of some family gathering. it almost made me don't want to attend the camp altogether cuz i scared i was going to be the only one i know in my group.
and registration totally didn't help. i actually sat alone.
ok not so bad la, hahaha. what i meant by alone was that i was the only year 2 in my group.
like emo man. hahaha.. yeah.. i was bummed out like mad.. but i was very happy that rino froggy war yumi and all were there to sit with me, it really made me happy. although i dun really know to how to express it and show it. but guys really, you guys made me feel very happy during the camp.
most of the time i was kinda sad and lonely. HAHA OMG. lIKE.. can u BELIEVE i'm saying this. hahahahaha. but yeah. haha. cuz like in my group the pid guys got clique, the girls.. are always a clique, and i'm the only year 2. bawls. haha. but my freshie shaun was there lah, the pid guys were nice, but u can't beat having a fellow year 2 mate.
i think i was pretty bad, cuz i'm always disappearing from my group and hanging out with war yumi rino or what. hahaaa.. but it feels so much nicer. i think i was just letting the emoness get the better of me.
thinking back.i think i could've done it differently..much better.like just pretend i was a year 1? i think that would;ve totally helped! but doesn't matter, it was fun, still.
but as the camp went on, it got better lah. like DUH.. haaaha. yeah ok. it did. so yah i'm happy. hur. audio room is the next best thing after they took down the studios.. destination unknown! haa. yeah we were all hooked.
anyways for the first day, my group had 5 people, while the rest were going at like 10 or more, and we got SECOND PLACE DAHH! HA HA. i think that was way cool. hehehehe. but it felt akward being the only guy in the group.
i think i've got emo moments...i kinda realised. haha. but then again, i think..
like, you emo emo emo.. wah so sad. then ok alr u think back like so stupid why the hell u emo for what rite. haha. so now i come to a conclusion. when i emoing, it's very stupid. haha. i tell myself very stupid.. haha.
i just watched die hard 4! veery nice! so much better than fucking money stealer potter lousy director movie yeah.haha. the girl was hot. =D the asian chick and the daughter in die hard was hot. woot. i watched with my bro. =)
the "i" on my key pad is a little spoilt.. its kindafa in a depressed position.
hoooo.haha. the i is kind of in a depressed position. haa! ok nvm. dunnno if u get it. hahahaha.
doesn't matter. i think the i's ok anyways.
i like my friends alot. even if it means spending 20bucks at underwater world with murky waters. hahaha..i think i'm very kiam siap. but i think it's not bad. cuz can save money
tlking about saving money, i officially spent 100 bucks on singfest alr. like. omg. wow. and i just realised that i dunno if she bought the correct tix for me lei.. but i think should be correct lah. as long as t's the day where a7x plays. then it's good.
weee i blog so mutch. mutch mutch much. i think mutch sounds nice. sounds ALIKE, but slightly different, cuz it sounds nicer.
i'm very tired. just now, i had a nap. then i woke up with an erection, and it was weird. don ask why.
OK. nvm. hahahaha. uh. TML GOT CLASS AT 9AM> LIKE WTF> annoying. i thin i better sleep. sigh.
good night! today was a nice day. i forgot to say. hahaha.
woke up then we had mass dance and it was very fun! i had a nice partner. =D u noe sometimes u get crappy girl partners, this one was not bad. haha. it was fun. but i think i looked horrible, i was wearing cap, and.. i dunno.after the dance i look in the mirror, it was hideous. hahaha. maybe she's blogging about how she danced with this weird guy. hahaha
BUT I DON'T CARE. hahahaahhahaha, cuz it was fun. yah and chicky dance! weee! i like!
then there was destination unknown dance! beatbox and singing and what not. shiok. ok yah
then eat. then go home then sleep, then wake up with erection, then go mass then come home then go out watch movie, then come back then blog about this. then sleep.
then smile. =)
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, July 19, 2007
haha, i'm somehow not very satisfied with my audio stuff. i think i could've spent a little more time tweaking the final assignment man. damnn..
oh wells.. i just hope i get at least an a. hee hee.. for the sake of my group too.
i nid to shit bye bye!
i think yumi's group tarzan audio thing actually quite nice.
cuz i think the noise and the background stuff more even than mine. mine abit unrefined. like the starting very loud then after the xplosions start.. it's like not as loud and clear.. haha oh well i really nid to shit by bye
i actually blogged at 10:55 PM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
nick needs a priority check! like totally.. man. i just realised how far i am behin in terms of my priorities and values and all that important stuff..
like today.. was just thinking through.and i realised. i'm a very big asshole! zomg. yes. i am. i made plans to go to aidah's model pimple thing, and i totally ditched it to see harry potter. you could say it's shahul's fault because he didn't want to watch at a later time slot, but then again.. i agreed. so yeah. i really am an asshole huh, and because of me, war din go then carmen din go, and demp din go and everyone who was supposed to go, din go. if i were aidah i'd be pissed mann. haha. shiiit.. wow. i din noe i could be such a dumb ass. poot.
my values suck
i'm sorry aidah.
and another is that i keep delaying the completion of my sister's montage.
my priorites suck.
no don't worry people. i am not emo. i'm not emoing, i am completely sober or whatever it should be called. haha . i'm just quite angry at myself for actually being such an ass. woot. like anyone would worry anyways. HAHA. ok nvm
oh on a lighter note, this morning was really stupid. i sent a wrong sms. haha. i should change cheryl liow's name in my phone or change cheryl wilson cheryl's name..
i hope i get a distinction for my audio.
and i still cannot get over the fact that i was sucha jerkk! haha.. i think i would.. maybe. i THINK, i would feel better if she scolded me or something. hahaha.. like u noe.. then the world seems right. now it's just weird.. hahaha.. maybe i'm just exaggerating a lot.. but no matter how small(i'm not sure just how large or tiny this matter is, it could be huge for all i know, but i'm hoping not), the action of ditching plans made first is very bad.
so nick, next time. please remember and don't ever do this again. =)
and i lost 50 bucks.. sigh..
i actually blogged at 11:57 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, July 16, 2007
damn it. i missed it.. hahaha. i din get to see war and carmen getting all high and 'mighty'. haha.. damn!
sigh..i think i did a good thing.. hahaha. my dad just made me realised that sending someone home is a job indeed. hahaha. cuz like what iv something really happened to the fella.. u'll feel guilty man! haha.. ok but if the fella fell down the stairs or something (choy touch wood) thats not my problem alr lah..hurr.. nobody ask u to wear such difficult-to-walk-in-shoes. haah..
ok.. i didn't get high.. i din drink enough.. damn. sigh. i really wanna know what i'm like when i'm high.. but i got a feeling i'll be very loud lei. hhaha.. next time. i'll stay over at whoever's place... and i'll see what i['m like when i'm high. haaarrha..
tml must go my sui lao kou's baptism.. i dunno if should be complaining or not.. but must wake up lei!.. sian.. i mean of course must wake up.. but must wake up early.. sigh. i'm tired.
i think mat's house is really cool. haha..can say bad words. =P ooh and yeah. i ate alot of beef. it was damn good mind you.=D i wanna do it again! some day. haha i dunno.. next time i'll drink more... right now i needa sleep!.
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pleaseshootme
Saturday, July 14, 2007
i'm bored.. and gary is sleeping..with very loud breathing(something to do with tiny nostrils or something).. and i came to off the lappy cuz the mac's glowing light thing from the latch is very irritating.
i wonder if people get bored from hanging out with me. haha..
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, July 12, 2007
i can't sleep. i tried since 11.. now it's 12.. and i'm wide awake. sigh. i'll try again soon..
there are also many things in my stupid head.. always forever bothering me.. sigh. haha..
i felt bad today.. we left ain sitting in the canteen alone. haha.. but i dunno. after i left the table .. it seemed rather difficult to go back lei.. i think same went for everyone else who left the table. haha.. cuz her face kinda black.. so scary; hahaha. maybe it was a good thing we all zhao uh. haha..
but no. that's not what's bothering me.. haha.. it just came across my mind just now..
i want money. i want to buy new pants/jeans/whatever. i smell perfume.. haha.
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
transformers is the best movie EVER.
graphics are outta this world babyyyyyyyy!!
hahaha.. bumblebee almost made me cry. hahaha. i love the movie man.
and megan fox is so pretty. kond ur eyes got problem! hahaha
i wanna be a transformer! heeheehooo..
i actually blogged at 11:40 PM
pleaseshootme
NAOMI SPELL BACKWARDS EQUALS "i moan" haahaahaahaahaa!
i think wilson or somebody told me that before. but i forgot. and today i just found out or remember. or whatever. haha. i found it very funny..
and i think the recording's doing well now! heeee.. maybe one or two more days.. it'll be farggin goooowwdd baayybehhh.. i'll be singapore's top music producer and just one of america's music producer. heee. i hope there's tix for tml's transformers! pls god. i've been good!.
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Monday, July 09, 2007
i nid to exercise.. i'm growin flabby!!!
and i htink my drum recording has improved.. haa.. when i'm don'e with the song.. then i'll put it up. but i think it's good. =D
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
6.5 billion ppl in the world. if everyone pay 1 dollar to some kind of world poor association fund or something, there will be 6.5 billion dollars to donate to the poor every day..and then that will mean that by the end of one year, 2,372.5 billion dollars would have been used to help out the poor in the world..
by the end of 10 years, 23, 725 billion dollars would've helped out the dying people in africa and all..
(imagine at the ed of 10 years, 23,725 billion dollars were mine. HAHA... )
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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
eeeee, i look horrible!!! but i think we performed well. so i don care. haaha.
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today was a very boring day. but very funny also. haaha. laughed like crazy today.. rino is dman funny. haaahahaaurhaha.
but i feel bad lei.. pang seh my wife..sorry uh.. i think today is also pang seh day.. stupid shahul early morning pang seh me alr. haha.
i look damn ugly in the picture with my band and ain can.. yuckssss.. my hair and specs cannot make it sia. bleah..
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
today's performance was great! i think it was great. hurr.. i didn't sing outta tune! altho i played a little out of the norm rhythm, lost focus lah uh..
i'm just glad today's performance was great! =D haaha// nothing else to say..
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PARAMORE ROCKS AND HAYLEY IS SO HOT.
haaaaaahaha.. i feel like some stupid fool who's nuts over some singer. but she really damn pretty and DAMN good singer.. singer especially. haaha. hello. she very good at singing. hahaa. go see youtube live paramore acoustic vids! ZOMG.
"ear sex" as some guy put it on one of the comments. and i agree. =D
hayley williams who is same age as me, hello, i love you.
see the video to see the proper face. haaha. aiyah, i'm not mad lah.. hahaha.. i think it's got to do with the stupid fact that she same age.. it's kinda irritating, cuz why can't i look that good and sing that good. pfth, no fair.. i'll find a chinese girl looking just like that. hoho.
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
During digi photo,
bryan sent me off to take photos at the botanical garderns cuz my concepts were crap. i recently looked back at them. and i kinda liked this shot. tho it's most probably piece of dirt to him. haaha. i think it's pretty alright for now... but one day it'll be crap to me tho. =P
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TODAY WAS SO HOT.
and i don't understand the stupid buses. when it's cold freezing raining, the buses have the aircon refrigerating the buses. and when it's hot as hell like today, the bus is like a friggin microwave.
HOT. like HELL.. i'm listening to the Academy is.. yeah thats the band name, including the dots. so stylo huh. their most recent album damn nice. =)
nothing much today.. it's alright. but it could've been a little cooler.. ongqi's comming over later to practice for the mini gig at the des AGM.
not pretty girls today. =( veh long haven see the naomi alr. so sian. haahaha.. himalaya's shahul calls it.
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yeah, just random i saw this photo in my com.. this was at the anberlin copeland gig. and that girl was fat and ugly and pushing her way through with warm poky arms and disgusting breasts and a really tall attitude. I'M TALLER SO STOP PUSHING U FU..k. haa. no i'm not angry but at that time i was just annoyed. if u wanna get through, just ask. JUST ASK. don't press ur boobs onto ppl (especially if ur not so fantastic in the looks department) and squeeze ur poorly shaven arms into the tiny gaps between the human's infront of u.
oh and. yeah.. this was the night my beautiful specs got lost and most probably, definitely crushed by the raging bulls in the mosh pit. i was one of them..my specs were bullshit.
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finally sch starts! it's alright.. but i think ppl change lei!
everyone seems to have new clothes, including me, and i think they (ok, some) look better too. haha i think aidah is getting prettier..(i think cuz of heavier make up) shahul's and yumi's face less chubby alr, cheryllooks like she slim down.. i think she got, but she say she put on weight, so i'd say look like.. or maybe it's the pants.. haha. but aiyer, slim down lah uh.. got who else uh? ....it's weird to say this, but ain's neh neh grow bigger... -_-".. yeah ok.. even if i didn't notice it, she'll brag abt it anyways so yeah.. bigger.. and uh.. i got a new shirt. and i tore my contacts so i buy again some day. warren.. look the same lah.. ok luh, new hair cut..
and the lift was like super crowded.
audio was alright.. pretty fun. sotong was kinda emoing a little? or maybe just veh(singlish term for 'very') tired..
after audio we had the long table sitting at the canteen! so long where the other person at the other end of the table, is out of communication. (need to walk over or shout to talk)
while waiting for yi jie's meeting to end.. i sat down with ain.. and talked.. for very long. haa.. i think it was long. it felt damn long. and i saw my sec sch malay friends walk by the canteen giving me stupid faces like O.o .. haha.. so stupid.
your lipstick his collar don't bother angel, i know exactly what goes on. ~dadadadadadadada dadadadadadada dadadadadadada....
today i saw two pretty girl! oh wait no.. ok threee!
ok if u count the ones that i know.. then it's kinda i dunno more than threee.. maybe i dunno 5 or 6 or something liddat.. haha
i saw threee pretty girl lei!
and my hair sucks. how spolier.
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
i nid a light at the end of the tunnel. something like this one, lets me know it's safe to walk, lets me know it's safe to cross, lets me know, lets me know, i need a light, that lets me know.
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is jamming such a chore? i think it has become one recently.. at least to everyone else in the band..
like, in the past, all one needed to say was i FEEL like jamming.. don even have to like arrang or anything, then it became we arrange the jamming which i would say i actually better.. and now, it's like, eh this sat jam? "not free not free not free" so difficult meh.. like i've given up asking.. no point asking.. confirm one cannot here the other cannot there.. fucking irritating as hell. i think it is like at leas 4 or 5 times in a row week after week everyone just has no interest in jamming anymore..
whats the point in a band when we don jam, meet up, see each other or even talk man.. so fucking stupid.. i wanna do ao many things with this band, i wanna cut an album, i wanna make music vids i wanna do gigs and get recognised as a pretty good band in sg. but i'v lost my drive, inspiration and the energy to motivate myself to do alot of these things.. cuz it's just too tiring to get eveyone's ass up into the room and play right.. it's alright if we don play right, but at least look like u've tried.. it's not as shiok and fun if the music's not right.
i've wasted my holiday away. kinda. and theres no more gig. i don't blame anyone for that, cuz ben got into an accident.. in a way, i'm happy there's no gig, but of course not because he kena accident la pls.. i rather him no accident and we no gig. cuz right now, i don think we'll make it for a gig, cuz we can't even make it for one jam session. what more a gig with people watching.
i'm tired.
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
bloodie good time. today. =D
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
me? i've been pretty good.
i went to a smashing concert by anberlin. it was really good maann! except for the fact that i lost my specs.. again.. at a concert. haa. i nvr learn my lesson - never wear specs to a mosh pit.
it was pretty fun going home half blind.. i actually felt pretty cool. haha.. although i probably didn't look pretty cool. must've looked quite blur. HAA..
and then we go back to CDI. see dee eye sucks.!! woot. i'm hungry and i got presentation tml. i really hate to always say out work isn't nice, but i can't help it! i know it's not ncie when i keep sayin lousy things about our work but.. i think if we did a nice piece of crap i'd keep saying i like it. haha.. too bad uh, we din put enough planning and effort into it. tml sure kena kan one..
i feel like putting up a new pictuer here.. although i still like my flower pot. =D
i kinda miss the feeling of having someone. haaaa, too bad i can't seem to find a particular someone. so, til then! i will keep oogling all i can over whoever's hot. wahaha..
i wanna JAM. it's been so lonnggg.. i really hope we get the gig slot.. and that we can pull it off. pls god. i pray. =)
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
MY BRO BOUGHT ME TICKET TO ANBERLIN/COPELAND CONCERT!!! i feel very happy. haha. 60 bucks mann.. 3rd june..
and today i had back cramps in the library. haha and i spent 120 bucks on a metal dist pedal. =D
i can't wait to finish all my prjects.
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Friday, May 18, 2007
sum sum...
1.cdi meeting. 2.ccn day walk around. 3.help mat's fren record. 4.burnt my knees. 5.get really pissed off. 6.wrote another song.
highlight of my day? burnt my knees. haha. leadership knows why.
i think i'm becoming kinda irritating at times to the people around me... hopefully, not too irritating. but most definitely, i've been feeling very irritated recently. i dunno why i let myself get so annoyed. i'm not usually like this. i used to be the guy who'd tell others not to get irritated, and that getting irritated is a choice to be made.. so yeah, maybe i shall choose not to be irritated. but i really can't help it sometimes. i think.. that.. i nid less variety, and more quality.. i would suppose that, i prefer less of the good stuff, rather than alot of mediocre stuff.. recently, things have been getting real really mediocre, and i can't stand it. (i think i'm spelling it wrong anyhooo)
i want it all to be over soon, and done prperly. and after that, i hope that elle would have been able to practice enough to pull it off well. and i just want my quality to be there. just this once. i don't want the extra noise..
seems like every may, i'm very uncomfortable..
i've got so much on my hands..i wanna break. you could call me pampered..and say that what i have on my hands are nothing compared to what you've gone through? but haha. i still feel sheeeeet maann. and oh btw, 'you' is not reffering to anyone in paricular.. it's just.. 'you' as in general. i always speak like that, but nobody gets it..
i think i should just be some news reader, or dj, or some other form of a voice actor.. haha.. thats IF i can't make it anywhere. which, i don't think i'll face that.
not trying to be hao lian(boastful) or anything, but i really do think i can do alot of things..i just feel happier tell myself stuff like this..
but unfortunately, singing high isn't one of them. and i hate not being happy. i used to be happy always.. where the hell did this vagina come from!? (pms)
i hate it when everyone's busy.. busy as me.
buuuuutttttt, every new day, is a new chance to turn up the volume and crank up a smile. =) tml'll be a better day.
today wasn't too bad lah.. just for number 5, where i got really pissed off. the rest were'nt too bad..haha.
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Thursday, May 17, 2007
i miss hanging out...not just da pham. haha, but i haven't really hung out with my best friends lately.. it's always jamming, then bye. go do out own things.. everyone's so busy. it's been a while since ben, bona, wilson ong and i just gone out do do stupid things. and a verly long time since i've like.. just.. wasted time away with choooooo.. like walking around, following pretty girl. HAHA.. school ends so late all the time.. and the assignments non stop.. gone were the days where we all would just go, "eh i feel like jamming lei.. ya ya.. fuck work lah! go home then do! or tml go sch copy! hahahahaha!!" haha..really fun lah.. now everything is so serious.. i'm actully happy that it's very serious now, cuz like i know we're heading some where and with a goal in mind(as a band). but i'm afraid we get too serious and loose focus on the ultimate thing as to why we wanna play music - cuz we love it. I really just wanna have a good time playing music. And yeah i noe that playing well as a band makes that possible.. i just hope we don't get too caught up in proffessional. but STILL, i wanna be proffessional. haha. hard to say, but i guess some will get what i mean.
i hope elleness will practice the songs well enough to play it without the mp3. this way confirm when we jam, no problem.i'll be revising the song's tml..
i think i rant alot. HAHA. i think it's nice to have someone where u can just talk talk talk about anything and everything, without that person giving u weird faces or gestures that indicate your talking crap and that they can't be bothered.. i think it's tiring to talk to such people. haa.. i can't be myself.. i dunno.. i think i cant stand people who try to run away from who they are..
i mean, if you're not it. you're not it. if you're it, your it. i dunno if sometimes i cross into that category of people i can't stand; which sometimes i think i do.. but i just hope that it hasn't happened often enough for me to end up being somebody else. cuz if you ask me, the simplest people, are the nicest ones.
and what i mean by simple is not how simple their life is. so, what,like then those people with broken family, girlfriend break up, the grand mother always scold and they no money people (complicated life), cannot be nice people meh?
if you ask me, these are kind of like.. the really nice ones. although occasionally, some others use it as an excuse to do ridiculous things.
but i mean that like, the simple character people.(pardon my horrible phrasing. i can't really do engllsh right now. can't be bothered, and i'm not good at it to start with.) they dress who they are, they talk and do who they are, and they're just.. there, and no where else. So if i'm hanging out with them, i KNOW i'm hanging out with them, and not some other guy, and then i have to try to BE that kind of guy and ahh i dunno lah..
if u read up to here, i kow tow to you. haha. not cuz i's long. but because.. what i'm writing is so damn bloodie confusing. i don even really understand what i'm typing, but i understand what i WANT to type. HAHA..
anyways, basically, i miss hanging out with my friends.. sometimes i find that i'm quite a loner. HAHA. okok..
i think i shall leave that for another day.. or maybe i shud just sun bian write lah.. since it's so darn difficult for me to gather the energy to log in and blog..
yah.. loner. HAHA.. yeahh.. like.. i was thinking that u noe when u think of someone, then there is this other someone you'd think of.. eg, when i think of warren, the other someone is cheryl. then fiona, yumi. ain, aidah etc... i thnk of me.. haha i dunno who lei.. wilson lah. yah lah.. but.. i was kinda imagining just in design sch la..hahaha. i noe it's not like important or what but..it's getting very irritating when my parents keep silently forcing me to eat at home everytime by comming to school early to pick me up..
i also think that i think too much. hahaha. but i like it. i think that thnking is very good. because it stimulates the brain and helps me see many different options and outcomes and approaches and all that fcked up crap. haha.. i mean like, sometimes, i get quite annoyed when people just don't want to think... ok anyways. back to me and my mr lonely. haha.
no lah i noe i'm not lonely. and i'm going to regret typing this. hahaha. please don't come up to me and say things like "oh i'm here. i'm your friend" hahahahahahaha.. i noe i got friends lah. i very happy. cuz i got DAMN nice friends in design! and irreplacable good ol best friends from my sec sch.. i don't have alot.but i'd say quality over quantity, ANYDAY. so noooo, i'm not emoing. haha. if you ever wanted to noe what goes on in my brain, ya this is what goes on. hahahaha. can die rite. maybe thats why my head so big. hahah...
well. actually theres alot alot more. but i dun want to say only.. cuz. somethings are better left unsaid, but known. =) (so yeah.. they're good things)
you know which days i miss the most(in design)?
1st: the original pham-in-the-studio days. 2nd: leadership module days..
i never felt stupid(like actually stupid), although i act stupid alot, during those days..
the best part about the studio days were.. u dun nid to plan to meet up. u just GO there. and ee who's there. and there is ALWAYS, like always.. someone from da pham there, or going there.. now.. it's so seperated. =( want to hang out also so difficult..
and oh one last time i want to say. i may say some things about dempster, but honestly, i think he's a very nice guy. i think you can talk to him about anything, and he'll try to make you feel good. he may not succeed, but i guess he tries. i'm just kinda sad for him cuz i feel that he tries very hard to impress or tickle(make ppl laugh), to the extent that it sounds weird or he does weird things.. like sometimes, when he does something totally from his heart, it's actually pretty funny and not weird at all.. i just hope that one day he'll see that that's all he needs; himself.
wahlau.. i think i keep talking about the same thing sia..anyways, i think da pham is getting kinda big. we really REALLY shud just hang out as DA pham for a day or two. that'll be nice...
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Sunday, May 06, 2007
haha. i just heared my class's here without you recording.. it gave me... "warm fuzzies" HAHAHA. whatever that means.. but yah.. it made me smile. and feel happy. hahaha. gosh i feel gay. i want to watch spiderman3! and i recorded two new songs. but i only upload one. cuz the other i want to write finish before i upload.
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Friday, May 04, 2007
it's been a long time since the whole pham has hung out together. like.. the whole block 1 pham.. kinda miss it. haha..
i wanna watch spidey man3! and i think end of this month i got a gig.. well hopefully.. haha. i think i got musouc somewhere in my brain.. everytime i swing my head i can feel this thing moving.. hahaha.. it's quite painful.. and i can't sing!! irritating. yesterday i was so angry lah. i can't reach all of my own songs.. grah. i really hope this phlegm shit goes awy soon.
and oh
studio e italiano, motto difficile!! no?
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Sunday, April 22, 2007
VADERS SIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWW!! WOOOOOOAAAAOOOOOWWWW! VADERS, SIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW!!! WWOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAOOOOWWWWW! VADERS, HAH HAH HAH, WAH SI LIN LAU BEI!!
hahaha. best cheer everrr. and i spent like 70 over sms just now.. wah.. send alr.. reply wallet pain. haha. i oni reply afew ah.. i very tired now. today i spell so many things wrong. haha. so funny. and yesterday cannot walk straight tml still got rehearsal. fucking performance thing. haha. i hope it'll be good. i realised that i could've just played the solo the same way as the mp3 from the start. it's so much easier actually. haha..
i shud have taken pictures at the camp. so stupid lah.. no visual memory. i'm sucha dumbass. hahaha.. yeah.. fargit. fargetit.fuckatit.forgetit. next time i will.
now thinking back. i really loved the camp. =)
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
WAH WAH. soo shack after camp. i can't beilieve i did the things i did during camp. haha. i would've never imagine myselfp cheering(almost by myself) with a group, leading them. maybe i din do much of a job chuz they were still pretty quiet, but i think each one of them was just waiting for the guy next to them to shout, then they'll shout.
but heck..
anyways, i DRAGON BOATED. haha.. we got FIRST! =D hehehehe.. so cool. although i kinda sucked. haha.
and and, i think i'm very touched now. haha. i just spent almost 60 to 70 smses over my freshies.. and i got very nice replies. HAHA. lucky i did it over sms ah.. i think if i talked to them liddat at the camp.. and they reply to me the same things ah.. i sure tear.. haha. nevertheless, i'm pretty happy and fuzzy now. haha.so gay can. anyways, yah.. i'm pretty happy i joined the camp. i got rid alot of my fears. in public speaking. haha. i gtg go spend time with my dad now. haha buh byeee.
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
wahh.. i bought jeans today and two other penny shirts.. i wanted to buy this pretty nice stripe longsleeve.. but.. it's kinda big. the size was small, it was alright.. but i think i would be happier paying 50 bucks if it were slightly smaller. the jeans was 80 bucks man.. woooff..
i bought this funny pair of jeans at penny also. haha. it's.. like. elastic. wth.. it's alright lah.. damn damn tight. haha. weird. but just buy for fun first. haha. i felt like spending abit today.. i've been cramping up myself trying to spend for so long. and sheckter guitar damn nice to play.
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Friday, April 13, 2007
actually.. i used to think it was so common to learn and jam common popular songs.. but now i just thought about it.. it's actually like a trend to try and be OUT of the norm and go find unheard of songs to go learn and play.. actually, we shouldn't really care whether the song is popular onnot.. if the song is nice, just learn it. don care if it's in the radio or what. if the band is nice, and some ah beng also like it just cuz of that one song, i shud b happy he's actually listening to that one song besides his techno crap. it's THAT song that made him wanna move away from techno. it must be a good song and a good band. so no reason to label that band or song. haha. i've been a bitch with the underground shit last time. i'm glad i've moved away totally. i'm very much free with whoever wantsta know all the songs i have. sharing is better than having. =)
today i had a funny convo with ain aidah shafiq and.. dempster. haha. where do i park.. wth.. hahahaha.
i have a headache, i spinned on the chair too long. bleah, and plus ain's perfume.. buay tahan alr. haa~
i'm going to cut hair tml..
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Thursday, April 12, 2007
i am soooo tired. i wonder u noe, whats so great, about having a girlfriend or a boyfriend..at this age. i mean yeah, can touch touch kiss.. all.. shiok lah. ha~. can talk share problems fill your empty heart and all that booze, but, can we live without it..? i dunno.. i know sometimes i feel empty.. but i only feel empty for so long, til i find something to do.(sing, guitar, drums, computer, friends, shit, fart, whine about my hair and my fore head..) to me, i think if i do get one now.. i think i will feel good about it, only when i'm with her or talking to her.. then all the missing you crap would come about when we're apart.. now wouldn't that suck. HAHA. i dunno.. but i've always been thinking.. and i think, probably, right now, i don really care or give a hooot. haha.. but it sure would be nice for that moment in time to have one, and not care about anything else.. but that moment only lasts so long.. i think i can wait.
right now, music is my girlfriend. she doesn't get angry with me, i can touch her anyway i want, and she never fails to touch me. (HAHA) we spend long hours alone in the bus and in my bed before i sleep. sometimes i like to record our intimate sessions together on the computer, and let others experience what i feel about her. she's so beautiful.. her screams are music to my ears. haha.
ok, yeah, i'm just absolutely bored and i am sick of animating shit on the com. i wanna do a gig soon man. hopefully in may. may may may maybe we'll do a gig.
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
stupid stomach ache heal only when i left pizza hut. i din eat cake!! grrr. only played with it. haha. ain v scary..brown to red sia. hahaha. i farted in the bus so shiok lah. like.. the long awaited fart.. but no smell. haha. i think maybe really was gastric pain lah.
i realised i am a very lucky guy, got alot of things. so fortunate rite.. but then, comes a price lah, i got bad curly hair(anyhow curl one. don curl together) i got small eyes and bad eyesight, i got very blunt features when i don smile.(look very....dumb) and alot of other bad shit..
but, i also got, ok lah.. i would say i'm QUITE, talented. HAHA. yeah ok, music and art and all.. not bad lah.. not there yet, but not bad. i got good home, family and very good friends. haven really made much enemies, and i think i got a pretty nice smile.. HAHAHA.. at least it looks much better than my facial explosion of no expression.. i got food on my table, i got money, i can see, i can talk, i can hear, i can smell, i can read and write, i can tell jokes(well, sometimes), i can laugh, i can cry?(i think.. it's been a whle tho..) i can do alot of things and i HAVE alot of things.. OR i CAN have a lot of things..
i've always wondered what i would be like if i turned back time, and made friends with some other guy..instead of the one i actually made friends with.. like how much different would my life then be...
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
today is absolutely hilarious.. ben looks damn funny in the guitar pictures.. hahahahaaa.. hahahaha.
only lasts 7 days. laugh while it lasts.. haha. sorry ben. =P
i hope we pass..
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Monday, April 09, 2007
WAH. just ate so much pork just now.. my next shit session is so not halal. hahaha. my bro going army tml, so today we went to eat his fav pork ribs tony romas. blughh.. damn full
and recently i've been fighting. sucks man.. i noe they say friends always fight, haha, i think this is like one of the first few times really angry sia.. i still kinda pissed actually.. i hate it. haha. but i'm happy i didn't scold back. AT ALL. but really fucked up lah, anyhow scold me, nabei..
sometimes i wonder if it was possible to avoid being so darn emotional. i noe i lead a pretty nice life lah.. and some people have it kinda screwed up. but when it all comes down to it, i really believe we can choose to accept and move on, or just dwell in the fact that "i'm the minority, nobody gives a fuck a bout me" crap.(no offence)
seriously.. i hate it when people start say, 'nobody listen to me' 'i'm the minority'. it's irritating as hell worse than bad breath that smells like ass. if you know u have a problem with expressing your views, and that people tend not to take you seriously, and that it ALWAYS happens.. is it EVERYONE's fault? maybe it's the way u say things, so if u wanna make a point, MAKE it. make sure they noe ur making a point and not some random shit.. really..
ok then now, after saying this, we go, "OK LAH. my fault lah my fault la. always my fucking fault" ahhh, the usual, so many people love doing this. this is MORE anoying than the previous. it's actually kind of saying, "it's your fault, but ok i'll take the blame. (look at meeee, i'm taking the blamee!!!)" and it really hurts.
but you know whaaattt.. i don care. haha.. cuz friendship always lasts longer than it's fights. and, some are very much worth fighting over....yeah..haha. ok. enuf. WAH SEI. i talk alot. haha. just for the record, i'm ok. haha. i argued with my fren the other day. not currently. okok alr. but i think still abit akward in a very subtle way.. but heck.
i hate sch. i'm so busy right now. but i amazingly feel much better after ranting. haha. i'm amazed if u actually read up to here. heh. good for you. u read my shit. hahahaha. smelly right? yeah i noe.
today i slurp alot lah.. talking with sotong mark and warren can last almost forever lah. hahahahaha.. side track like MAD. damn funny. my cheeks still abit pain sia. haha.. huh sotong huh, drink tea. heh.
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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
WEEEEEEEEEEEE..
i'm very happy about my results. =D i can't believe i got distiction for p1. haaa~ i guess my quiet time alone in the studio masking taping my box teevees paid off. haha. wahwah.. shiok lah..
but i kinda feels sad for shirlyn's class ppl.. so strict yea the marking.. =(
today din really get much done for the original song.. sigh. but we had a good laugh hearing each other try to reach face down. i'm the biggest looser.. cannot even take part in the competition. it's like wanting to take part in a running competition without legs. yup thats me when it comes to singing high notes. no legs.
i'm gonna fart, shit and shower. bye bye.
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i think i'm reaching higher notes.. maybe. but i can hold an E pretty much better now.. i can still remember the time i had to shout like an ass just to swipe E's asshair..
ONE DAY. ONE FUCKING DAY. i'll sing JUST like saosin. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.. yah. if that day comes, i'll kiss a guy. like totally. i'd sooo kiss a fat ugly guy if i could suddenly reach that high D.. i'd kiss bam magera's dad.. i'd kiss his uncle. i'd kiss that man down the road. i'd kiss that aunty in the bus. i'd kiss the irritating bangla. i'd kiss the annoying uncle who won't give me extra chilli. i'd kiss ur smelly unwashed broken toenail toe.. i'll pluck 10 nose hairs. if i could sing just like anthony green. like.... WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
ok. yah.. my life long dream is seriously to b able to sing that high and nice. i don care if i sound like a fag. it's damn nice.
it's late.. i feel lazy i don feel like showering. GRAH!. damn. so dirty lah.. no i will shower.
they should have like.. a pill.. that instantly cleans u.. and u don nid to shoer and u'll smell nice. i'd pay good money fo that.. maybe 2 bucks a pill. saves so much time. just think, u can wake up, change, and while walking to the bus stop.. eat the pill! SHOWER ON THE GO. or best still, just before ur gonna mit ur friends, eat the pill. smell damn good lah.. can even "sjower" while ur eating, shitting, jamming, jumping, fucking, sight seeing, running bitnig ur toenails and poking ur friend's armpits. or best, cleaning ur spectacles. SHOWERRR..
tml nid to wake up early.. damn. haha and another person noes abt my caterpillar. haha.. it can win the worm race lah.
i go shower. bye bye to whoever read this dumb dumb thing. the pill's a good idea rite? i'm listening to saosin rite noe.. fucking bastards.. sing so high.. i wanna pluck his balls out. put a toothpick in his dick hole.. hahaha. stupid ass can sing so nice...
ONE DAY.. i'll reach it.. and some other loser will wanna pluck my balls and stick a toothpick up my dick hole... haha. some day.. some day..
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Monday, April 02, 2007
woooo! i just farted . hehehe. mmmmm mmmm. smells like. fart.
hah, went to changi hosp.. the place looks damn scary lah. haha. there i was kkinda acting brave, haha.. tho i was kinda scared.. but acting the part helps to be less scared. haha. but i know i'm scared lah.. i won't deny. haaa....~..
ANYWAYS.. i'm not gonna freak myself out by typing shit here. just before i sleep. tml is jamming for the rehearsal.. i hope it doesn't go too badly.. i hope it won't be boring.. i mean. we only have like.. 2songs or something to jam.. maybe 1 hour shud be sufficient.. what if 2 hrs too much.. maybe i can cancel the other hour if too boring ah.. haha.
i'm happy with my solo. proud of it. i'm definitely improving on the guitar. heh.
i realised, that our actions towards people are heavy affected by the person we are reacting to. like.. TOTALLY dependent on who we're reacting to. yeah.. just a thought.
and another note is just to say a unheard-unread-unkown sorry to all the people i've talked bad about behind backs. haha. i've come to realise i'm pretty horrid. but although it provided hours of fun. HAHA. but yeah.. sorry lah.. i din mean. haha.. oh btw, i'm just ranting, cuz i've been doing some thinking about my life.
i cut my hair, and i forgot to return my number card to the uncle... eeps. i feel bad. haha. i'm very sleepy. my mouth feels smelly.. *hlleeeeeepe*.. if u noe what i mean. haha.
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Saturday, March 31, 2007
i swear i'm one hell of a lazy ass.
babi pantat. HAHA. sounds nice.
i'm not blogging properly. thats cuz..
i am babi pantat! ahaha.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i feel like such a sissy today. HAHA. ok.
and oh.. i really hate my hair.. stupid syrum thing doesnt work. haha.i'm lazy.
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
maybe i'll die one more time.. just one more... but this time i'm going to plan my suicide..
(haha, i'm speaking metaphorically. i don plan on actually dying.)
and i think my band has finally taken some movement. =)
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Monday, March 12, 2007
today was kinda irritating.. stupid girl asks me to have lunch with her her friends at 12.30. and.. well. that just ends there. i kena busted sia. knnbccb. spoil my whole day. it's been a long time since i've actually felt down and hurt. haha. funny. i don't even like saying i'm hurt.. but i think i am.. haha.. feels so weird saying that. i mean i shouldn't be..rarrrr.. yea ohhkayy.. i liked you(1), then i didn't(2), then maybe i almost did again(3).. so WHATTT.. so very farrggiinn sensitive for whuuddd... haha, but y'seeee, now i'm veeery sure i'm nailing my hands on the second desicion..
and at least i know that i'm staying away. keeps me happier. =)
and i'm sorry for being very irritating today. haha. i think was kinda annoying to cheryl warren and carmen today. haha.. i din really realise til i was alone(again) in the bus.. and i reflect on my day.. i made alot of ultra stupid lame comments.. just for the sake of making them. hahaha. my gawd. (i don even use that spelling) and i wasn't v comfortable bein asked to acc carmen to her uncle house or something, sry lah.. but i just wanted to go home lah.. pai seh.
i wonder what would happen if i lost the cap to my bottle of emotions.. haha.. i think i'd look very very uglliieee!! haha okok i'm keeping the cap close to me tied 10 times around my wrist with supersonic alarm system..
wahhhhhhhhh.. blog so sad one ah..nvm la.. if what cheryl says is true then ppl also cannot read. haha. so whatver lah. next time i see how to fix the stupid problem.
i wann jam, and scream. til my abdominal muscles hurts again.
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Monday, March 05, 2007
wah.. stupid project one.. dunno what am i actually supposed to do. so i'm just going to do a whole bunch of individual development things. i completed three logo types... and two posters. i'm gonna do name card and some more logo and poster development. maybe some lousy sketching and ideation just for the sake of it, so i look lke i'm a very hard working student.
i have come to accept that i can't always have compliments. so i'll short change myself and just assume that others have already complimented me the way i compliment myself after my hard work. haha. i may sound like it, but i'm not that thick skin, i just nid the encouragement to keep on at it..hahaha. to me recording is the most difficult thing i've tried to accomplish.. i'm probably, ALMOST.. almost there. but not quite.. so i've got alot of self studying to do, on the professional recordings of others. damn. haha
ok.. btr sleep and find some motivation for tml.. i hope i find it early. if not i'm dead.
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
wah. jamming 4 hours totally no joke man. haha. zai studios not bad ah. everything was new there. the smell also new. haha. i saw ikea table there. i think its very friendly there.. i screamed alot today and now my throat pain! hahaha. but quite shiok.
i'm so tired from jamming 4 hours.. it was like never ending man. haha.i think next time.. 2 hrs max. and ben! sing DAMN HIGH can... stupid idiot! now i'm like the only one stuck on the lower octaves. grrr.. but ok la.. i make song.. but i think we nid to work alot on our coordination.. i find it quite awful..not together.. very luan.. sighh..
i kinda like this template.
i can't believe i missed going to the dip show and missed my heros episode 17! damn it.. and i'm not saving money.. grah. i nid to save alr.
i'm off to rest abit.
call me, call me again.
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woo ok i change template. this one can see everything.
thank u very much. i'm sleepy and tml jamming 4 hours. =D
call me, call me again..
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
on a lighter note, i'm feeling much much better now. haha. some sleep, smile and some hayley williams does the trick babaeeehhh.. haha. hayley's the singer from paramore. i learnt their song today. it's damn shiok to sing. although i'm an octave lower. ain's gonna sing it with me! =D divahhh..
i collected more than enough.. of course more is better. but it's already alot. haha i'm happy. =) i could be happier.. haha. but i'm happy.
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how'm i feelin? i think i kinda feel kinda.. depressed, and my chin just twitched! haha. maybe next time i should just not say anything rude huh. i made someone kinda angry. how i know ppl get offended so easily siaaa.. anyways, my hands smells of turnip cuz i help my mom cut them for the kueh pai tee.
ok, fine, i'll see if i can just quit using not-nice words.then everyone'll be happy. shit/piss/fuck/ass/knn/ccb/ and what have you.
today was a really boring chinese new years eve. i could've done it better. maybe tml i'll make a difference. right now the smell of turnip's turning my emotional headache, into a physical one.
someone please, open and blind me.
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Friday, February 16, 2007
feels good to help ppl out actually. hahaha i did quite alot of work yesterday. =P but i wasn't tired.. so weird. anyways. i want to sleep. =D
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Monday, February 12, 2007
went out with wilson, basil and ben for basil bday today. tho his bday was fridy. but heck. most fun was in the cyber cafe. HAHA. i'm such a friggin nerd . but i OWNED man. hehehe. invincible piece of crap. yup. then team work with basil on the battle field. was goood.
yesterday i only managed to touch up my first para and tired like shit. i going to chiong 4 paragraph, one conclusion, and cover page tml, bfore school. super super last minute. i'm hungry and my hair is dropping. i dun wanna grow bald please. i'm ugly enuf. haha.
gimme the strength to finish my work without feeling distracted. i really cannot do work that i got no interest in. i hate cds.
my farts were really smelly just now. heh. covo's on the phone's not so pleasant lei.. when it lasts so long..
i'm lonely.. but maybe not lonely enuf. empty but not empty enuf..haha.. but at least i'm certainly NOT depressed and not depressed enuf to wail about it. hahaha. i'm living a good life thank u very much.
"i hear the silence ringing through my ears, as i pen my hopeless story, to the world araound me"
i'll call this song, in the closet. or maybe, from my closet, or what lah.. as long got closet in the title can alr. i think it's a nice song.. comming up. soon. but DAMN STUPID leadership, waste my time, i cannot record or write in peace cuz i nvr do my assignment. haha ok lah, more like DAMN STUPID me... who dunno how to manage time.
sheesh i type alot of crap. HAHA, if u read until here, i have successfully wasted a small portion of ur time in which u COULD have done something more productive rather than read what my brain is churning out.
i just rubbed my eyes and adjusted my specs.. well, i din do a good job, i'm going to re adjust.. and i feel really stupid because it's damn uncomfortable but i want to finish this sentence before i re adjust.
ok, much better. it's 1.25 am in the morning, and i don't wish to loose any more hair. (i believe sleeping early helps reduce hair loss)
even if it doesn't sleeping early definitely helps me. in alot of ways.
and it just occured to me.. i kinda dislike girls who over use "fuck". haha. i know i use it.. quite a fair bit. but.. i noe i try not to. but when people use it, for the sake of using it for whatsoever reason they have.. i think it just sucks.. and it's very uncomfortable to hear.. edward (vulgar boy who scored A1 for eng o's) says 'fuck' the best. it sounds SO right comming from his filthy english mouth. and my school only had one guy who got an a1.
yeah. so, i want to sleep early. see how i don't get absolutely out of point? i'll do well in my essay.
i hope u realise i was bein sacarstic. hahaha.
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Sunday, February 11, 2007
ohhh i'm so lazeee. yes i am and leadership sucks like my shit when i eat coconut/kangkong/sambal/milk/spaghetti/chickenrice/eggplant/lizard egg/cow hair.
i wanna step on someone's toes thank u very much yes i do. i was running into the wall just now. boy i had some fun there. haha just try, put a blanket over ur head, then close ur eyes for extra blindess, then run to on end, and then to the other end of the room. u'd be suprised as to how long or short ur room actually is. (my kee hurts)
THE HUSH SOUND ROCKS MY SMELLAE SOCKS MAN.
all we nid is a little bit of momentum to break down these walls, that we built around ourselves. all we nid is a little bit of inertia break down and tell
oh i so nid momentum.
under understand me, understand me well, i stopped writing the lyrics of the song at this point "break down and tell" my bladder lost it i nid to pee.
"i go play with my hair" what on earth man.. HAHA, i wonder what would i do with my hair if i had the same length. i think i might try alot of nonsense.
ok maybe alot of the ideas running through my head now i probably MIGHT not do.. but i seriously would try to iron-rebond a small portion of it to see if'll work. haha.
ok i think i better go finish up my damn assignment. ohhh, Benjamin martin was a good and moral leader beacause he was charasmatic and din kiss any girls til the end of the movie unlike those new movies.
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
lets just say it was raining, and it was fun. haha. backstreet boys rock my socks. i'm letting my hoodie dry, and i nid to sleep, so good night and bye bye.
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
sian. i wanna gig.
i noe nobody reads this blog. cuz it's DEAD! just like my band life.. so dead.. so dead.. so much for getting down to originals and recordings after bona's o levels.. so dead.. so much for all the hopes. wait wait lor, wiat til next year we find time again. later ben sure got rugby season and stuff again, then our band die again, i wanna gig. even if it were to be with a punk rock poser band, as long as they play alrigight, i'd take the offer if there were any.
i'm always pretending in my room that i'm having a gig, introducing myself and my band to 'the crowd(in my head)' getting high and sweaty playing guitar singing and head banging, jumping, twisting, stomping like a mad elephant, i never had sex, but i bet, hosting a hardcore action blood pumping gig to a great crowd, would feel better than fucking hayley williams.
so, i never did a gig, i never had sex, but between the two, i'd pick the gig without a doubt.
why on earth am i suddenly blogging? about this? cuz i buay ta han already. cuz all it takes to do a gig, (or to just to JAM), is for each member to dedicate one little time slot in their big friggin week to practice for a measely one or two hours every week and by the end of a month, we can spend just one day, for a gig. but how is it that we always cannot find that time? i dunno. but i'd gladly give up an hour or so of my saturay afternoon to have a jam session. and give up my last day of the week to have a great time fucking up the air waves in a bar.
ok, other than this, my december holiday's are going great. i'm going thailand tml. i hope there's no tsunami...
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Monday, November 13, 2006
Just a little encouragement can make one's day. it's all we really need.
funny how it never fails to pull down a great day, when we pick and choose all the faults, and flaws, and filter out the good we 'see'.
I realise the feeling of discouragement, and I hate it, in doing so, I'll learn to pull a smile on Other's face, in hope that Other, would pull the same to mine.
yeah.. i've become a many-month-blogger. haha. i'm going to sleep.
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Monday, July 24, 2006
i don't see your reasons why u don't want to let me jam. i bet if i was just going out to hang for 2 hours can. but jamming for an hour is like a big nono..
RETARDED.
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
HAHA. ok. i re read my super plong last post. and realised it sucked to be there. wahaha.. will put a better post to leave and rot here. rather than that stupid previous one..
mm hmm. ok. so life's good. poly's great. really great. =D one month there and the friends i've made are like.. cool! it's like.. as if it's been more than a month. technically speaking. it's been four months there cuz the work we did was equivilent to four months of work in the old system. wsee, we're super efficient k! haha. i amde a musical chatek one meter tall. and it was damn good lah. everyone was using it. to play their diff songs. tho i kinda hated all the hip hop songs going on. they enjoyed it lah. so heck lah.
and NOBODY likes the songs i listen to! fuck. haha. basket. how can u say amber pacific is boring.. =( hahaha.. maybe lah.. when ur all into popular stuff, these genres can;t be appreciated..
anyways, that aside, poly has like.. hot girls. one duper hot girl in particular. like.. reallly. hahahaha.. it's jsut really fun to look at her ard sch. hahaha. to me i think she's the hottest girl in design..
BUT, i'm in love with hayley williams. =D she's 17 and she sings. and she's pretty. hot. not pretty hot. but pretty. HOT. hahahaha. she got red hair. and nice face. i found ehr jsut a few days ago. wahaha.. (she's like.. this band singer btw.. big time stuff.. so like.. duh, i dunt doe her and stuff.. i jsut noe she's hot. and i liek to see the vids of her band.)
good indie music is DAMN nice. bad indie music is DAMN shit.
i'm growing quite tired of punk.....sadly.. haha..
wow. long entry. ok. but at least i managed to talk about pretty girls and their pretty music.. so, two new bands i found.
Paramore (Hayley Williams sings here!)
The Hush Sound (just real nice indie.)
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
it's a funny thing when u fall in love.. everything falls into place rather nicely.. bad things happen, but somehow we manage to turn them around, and make them into something seemingly better.. everythings good.
it's shitty then when your hit with something else, and u noe it will jeapordize this love.. this thoughts race and slowly eat up ur heart.. before you know it.. u fall out. the real fucked up feeling is, being the first to know.. and not knowing the right words to say to ur beloved.
but anyways.. i'll jsut keep expecting the worse.. so nothing would seem that bad.
i'll say i'm every bit deserving the cold.. so it's ok.
anyways! today school was like.. totally confusing.. dun understand half of what the lecturer is trying to tell us what to do when we go home. it's damn confusing...my stupid course isn't slack at all.. everyday i got presentation on new things. the deadlines are so near and it's dman shit lah.. tml morning need to go art museum to go research the exhibits because school ends at 6, and the museum closes at 7. presentation is on thursday. then friday got another and so fourth.. dunno what the hell else is needed lah..
as for the other subject.. piang.. need to go learn arts history and all that crap. why the hell do i wanna know anything about frank stella.. i hate is masterpieces! give me fucking headaches..(oh i decided.. i'm jsut gonna say my usal vulgarities here, so piss off if u don like em. hahaha. =P) i've no idea what on earth is he trying to get at with his damned sculptures..
i dunno if i can tah han two bands and my poly right now.. i'm thinking i've got to totally slow down on the music scene right now.. and get settled with my poly stuff.. i can't afford to fall back .. i hate falling back..and oh. i sculpted a head blinde folded. =D hehe.. looks pretty good to me. wahaha.
anyways. i better go sleep alr lah. tml going museum at 10..
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Monday, May 01, 2006
I tried to be perfect, But nothing was worth it, I don’t believe it makes me real. I thought it’d be easy, But no one believes me, I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if they would it show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty, My thoughts are so tempting, I don’t know how it got so bad. Sometimes it’s so crazy, that nothing can save me, But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if they would it show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect, It just wasn't worth it, Nothing could ever be so wrong. It’s hard to believe me, It never gets easy, I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
it takes a longer while than i thought, for me, to fix me.. and i'm sorry. but it was nothing that i could forsee, if it was, i wouldn't have made u love me.
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I tried to be perfect, But nothing was worth it, I don’t believe it makes me real. I thought it’d be easy, But no one believes me, I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if they would it show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty, My thoughts are so tempting, I don’t know how it got so bad. Sometimes it’s so crazy, that nothing can save me, But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if they would it show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own.
(On my own!)
I tried to be perfect, It just wasn't worth it, Nothing could ever be so wrong. It’s hard to believe me, It never gets easy, I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul, I’d say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I’m better off on my own.
it takes a longer while than i thought, for me, to fix me.. and i'm sorry. but it was nothing that i could forsee, if i was, i wouldn't have made u love me.
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
din really have time to blog about easterr.. but hahaha.. it was really the best lah.. hehehehe.
never had an easter sunday that good before. =D hee. just feels damn shiok after all that lent and all. and then.. an easter suprise, and alll.. wheee! hehehe.
but stupid orientation got to spoil my teusday! booooooo!!! i mena if orientation ended like.. 230 or 330 or what.. it'd be so much better! but.. noo.. 830am to 8pm. wth lah. basket. so long. sighh.. oh well!
easter was still damn good. =) inside man is a dman good moviee! can multitask. wahahaha.. sorta.. movie there are nice to watch tooo.. heh.
can't wait for orientation camp to end after it starts tml. i really really hope friday it will end early lah..
dun really noe what to say lah. but some thoughts can really make one rather happy. hehehehe.
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
happy easter all! i survived 5 hours of church.
but my easter won't be complete... til.. you warm my heart..
"...If I could take your pain away I would scream for you And I'd bleed for you So you’ll never feel this way again When you’re in my arms, again I would scream for you I will bleed for you Put the weight on my shoulders And the pain in my heart Tie the knots in my stomach, let it tear me apart So I could be everything you need..." -Hidden In Plain View - Bleed For You
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Friday, April 14, 2006
church of st mary's angels(or however the long name of the church goes) is like...
makes my face go.. -_-" with the " really oozing to come out.. hahaha.. piang.. they sing sing sing sing sing sing.. or rather CHANT CHANT... different lines with the same tune over for like.. forever lah.. i couldn't wait for the last candle to be put out lah! walau.. ooh.. and at a time like that.. when u spot a girl in an ij uniform from afar.. it's a sight for a sore mind.. hahahaha! =P regardless of who the fell is.. cuz they all look the same from afar..(considering an acceptable body mass) followed through who that girl was sitting with. haha.. familliar faces they were! haha.. one was hard to spot actually.. a little too short.. =P and i tot the guy with dyed hair was some ah pek lah.... i look longer abit.. i don think he was apek. hahahaha..
easter's tml night! sorta..? yah and then i can watch all the dvd's my dad bought! wahahaha! and then i can go meet dory the fish.. and then when my mom leaves to india i cna go hang out at night.. cycle and all.. dun care. haha. but damn shit stupid orientation just HAD to plan a damn camp! poofs.. assholes.. hahahaha..
oh. i dind imagine this blog to be so long.. all i actually had in mind was, "st mary's of the angels church is damn sian" hahahaha.. oh wells! it's good to rant.. and waste some of my time.. cuz seriously .. this holy week.. i've been so damn bored lah.. it was really good to find the pokey needle on wednesday! =D but darn..i seemed to have dropped it.. almost right after i found it.. haha. oh wells! hehehehe.
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Monday, April 10, 2006
WAH. super long mass today at the oven church novena din seem super long at all! hehehe. i din sleep! for like the whole 2 hours lah! hhahaha..
maybe cuz i was busy .. uhh.. feeling envious of the forearm of the girl sitting beside me.. like walau! haha.. she's alot shorter lah.. but piang.. i was like.. eee.. cuz the fore arm(the bunch of muscles for the wrist and fingers) were like super lah! got all the toned lines and all.. and she was just.. putting her hands together..? piang.. haha.. then i was like.. checking my own arm out.. and.. like.. the lines were so faint.. hardly any popping out veins.. piang.. feel so weak next to the tiny girl.. hahahaha.. so stupid lah.. i was wondering if she was a maid.. cuz where got girl the arm so damn developed one..? unless everyday scrub toilet or what lah.. basket. haha..
top it off.. i had a glance at the calf as she left.. PIANG.. damn fit lah.. puts me to shame man.. hahahaha..
for ur info.. i was not checking her out.. i was just.. feeling.. weird.. at the fact that her forearm so fit. haha.. the veins were pretty gross tho.. too much lah. haha..
NEXT WEEK.. is.. easterr sundayy.. and stuff. stupid orientation also next week. BOO. haha. least it's not a camp. gonna make full use of my one free week before school starts. i actually can't wait to start school. haha wanna know what is poly like..
i'm hearing sum41 again! i've left them in the song box for so long.. how evil of me.. haha i still love them! =D hehehe.. damn fkers.. his singing so weird.. like not high not low, like not singing.. i dunno.ahhahaha.. but dman nice lei.. haha. i used to love them like mad last time lah.. i got all their songs. =D bought all the album. stupid ambrose stole my chuck album! grr.. hahahaha. but no hard feelings lah.. dunno why also. haha..
eh u noe i think it's damn good to forgive and forget.
HAH u see, i pay attention durin mass ok!
the priest was talking some storey:
there was this man who claimed he had visions of god in heaven and he could speak with god. and so, this man went to talk to the preist about it. Well, the priest being a nice man, showed an intrest in this man's claim, and played along, or rather he was hoping to believe this man. and so, the priest told the man,
"ok.... so if what u sya is true.. then.. when u go home and sleep tonight, remember to ask god, what is my biggest sin that i've ever commited. and when god tells u this, come back to me tml and tell me my biggest sin."
the man went home and true enough he claimed to have see jesus and asked him about the father's biggest sin. the man then went to church the next day, and told the father.
"father, i saw god again in my dream last night!"
and the father replied,
"oh did u? and did u remember to ask god what was the greatest sin i've commited?"
"yes", said the man..
"so, tell me what did god tell u? what was my biggest sin?" asked the priest..
and the man said. "i dunno? because god told me.. that he has already forgotten"
hehehe. u get the story? well the sermon was about, forgive and forget. =D
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
i love mae.. mae is so nice. mae sounds so soothing, i just love mae. i can fall asleep with mae. i've fallen asleep with mae before. i can just float away in wonderland listening to mae.. i'm so in love with mae..
anywas! i can't last through a rugby match that lasts so damn super long lha haha but it was dman shiok, sittin gunder the pouring rain wearing a raincoat. haha. the feeling is like.. shiok lah. ur under the rain, but ur dry. haha. i dunno. it jsut makes me feel dman shiok.. feels like..ur protected and sheilded.. it's just a wonderful feeling.. haha..
hahaha..
read below to find out who is mae.. =D
i'm in love with the Multi-sensory Aesthetic Experience. the band, MAE! =D hahahaha.
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-so i'm guilty, so won't you sentence me, to a lifetime with you, a solitary cell for two, and i'm holding on to these moments, i long to share with you,
i don wanna go, i don wanna go, hold me close against the flow, cuz i'll get cold, in these nights that go by, without you by my side...-
hahaha.. stupid if u were cracking ur mind. hahaha.
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Friday, April 07, 2006
haha.. u think u know what to say.. hahaha..but i think my mind is really way to sleepy ah.. haahaha.. my pathetic attempt! =P hehehehe.. oh wells! least i got something outtafit. =D i got.. umm.. a pleasant sound out of it.. hahaha.
my damn attic sucks without the aircon..=(.. cuz i'm tryin gto save electricity.. so i'm not turning on the aircon..till..when i'm in total dire need of it. haha.=P
stupid barber. always cut my hair so dman short.. i jsut wanted it trimmed.. so i dun need to worry aobut it PUFFING up.. haha. wel.. yeah. it won't now.. but i look so retarded.. haha..hehehe. at least now it adds to my reatard acts.. or half bodied strokes.. haha
one day one day! i will be able to record songs. so well.. that people will ask me 'EH! what studio u go to ah?" and i will tell them NIM RECORDS. and if they ask where? i'll jsut tell them my house add. hehehehe.. jsut one day.. i know can one.. confirm possible.. i just need more time..
...one day.. haha.. i hope it's possible.. otherwise i like waste alot of money ah? jahaha. =P
oh wells.. next week is holy week. and.. well..=( no fun for me next week.. but but but but.. easter's after that! =D hehehe..
i wanna go buy wireless keyboard.. so i don need to walk here and there to record my drums. haha.i wonder if today i got time..
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
hahaha.. it was a good time taking a short 2 min.. "nap" at mos burger.. the air con kinda sucked..and it was either me who stank up my left shoulder part of the shirt.. or.. not.. hahahahaha. =P but it was really nice pretending to nap.. hahahaha. =D
and i feel quite bad...and now.. stupid.. haha... so i think next time i should excuse myself. cuz it's not all the time that it's before 7.. so yes. next time i will think about myself before others. and i will. so i will, let it go on til 7pm strike my clock. =D i'm a dissappointment to myself. it's a sentence.. and apparently so happens so, happens to be a quote from a song. my midpoint! haha.
i'm writing something on chubbinessss! omg.. guess what it is? deegeedeegeedangdang, scritchy scratchy scratch scratch, circle circle line line, boinggggggg...**
and don tell me 'fine'
hahaha..
tada!
it's all in good times. =)
chubby chubby.. chubby is NOT fat btw.. hahahaha..
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
find a topic!
welll the day was good fun anyways! =) yeah..on the desperete hunt for a icecream shop! hahahaha.. the nut rodent thing creature was very.... cute.. as some people would keep insisting! hahahaha. =P quiet quiet.. stay quiet stay near, they can't hear... my hopes are so high.
hahaha.. my ear's quite hot.. the ahndphone does no good to ur hear.. omg.. HEATER! hahaha.. the heat can even travel through the phone! hehehehehe..
i'm cold again...
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Monday, April 03, 2006
i found my chain! =D hehehehehe. so shiok lah tell u. haha..
i was jsut like.. randomly searching my drawers hoping to find something interesting. haha. yeha.. something interesting alright! my long lost crucifix! =D hehehehe..
damned purevolume lowering my song quality.
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Friday, March 31, 2006
sian sia.. these few days.. like.. really nothing to do ahh.. yest went bowling and all. fun lah.. haha.. but it dies out so quick ah. so irritting.. hahaha.. i think our new song sounds rather nie and soothing .. haha. =P i won bowling yet all the way! wahaha. shiok i tell uu.. haha..a lil motivation sure helps alot. stupid billard people cheat my money! they din tell me there was guest charge! dumb shit lah! and i hate billard.. it's such a boring game! and teh damn table is so big! so hard to play! hahahaha. we were playing for almost 20 mins and like.. our points.. never exceeded ONE POINT. damn looser lah. haha. damn annoying. ended up jsut rolling the balls into the holes hahahaha..
children are quite annoying..in this case.. my nieces.. haha.. sometimes i feel like slapping them. haha. but obviously i won't lah! i'm not evil! (like how some ppl would call me! PFTH) but really lah.. when u tell them not to touch certain things cuz those things are very fragile and stuff.. and they find it funny when u get irritated at them.. and all the more they wanna do that.. wah lau. so irritating! haha.. i kinda wanted to like.. hit them.. haha. but never lah.. but finally, somehow i managed to get them out of my attic and downstairs where i got some sleep on the couch. =D so damn shiok.. cuz if they were gonna disturb me, their mom 'll be there to tell them off! wahahaha. i'm damn clever rite. haha. =P
i wish lent was over.. =( when does it end ah? when's EASTERR!? wheres the easter bunny!? =( i've got to go do standing and kneeling today again.. do sacrifices pay off? haha.. i hope they dooo.. cuz i'm counting on my papa on top to guide me on how to grow this banana tree..
hahaha. and i'm not talking nonsense there.. hahaha.. it's either u get it. or u don't... or u have to think harder to get it.. but clever ppl should get it lah. haha =P
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Thursday, March 30, 2006
Am I at the point of no improvement? What of the death I still dwell in? I try to excel, but I feel no movement. Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
[Chorus:] Never underestimate my Jesus. You're telling me that there's no hope. I'm telling you your wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus When the world around you crumbles He will be strong, He will be strong
I throw up my hands "Oh, the impossibilities" Frustrated and tired Where do I go from here? Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
[Chorus]
I think I can't, I think I can't But I think you can, I think you can I think I can't, I think I can't But I think you can, I think you can Gather my insufficiencies and place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
it was an empty cinema..
it was an empty heart filled.
i found a heater!
hahahahaha..
poot poot..
and wow.. i never knew that digging up flaws in others would be so ugly.. =( oh wells!
guide me through, my papa on top.
and i realised i'm really lazy to blog nowadays.. asinlike.. BLOG.. haha. i'm always giving vauge shit.. and.. it's prolly not even worth reading.. haha
sarah jessica parker looks old.. the guy looked way younger than her. but she sounds like a little girl.. hahaha.
i saw an old man's ass today.. it was all huge, white and wrinkly. it was gross. haha.. the old woman's tattoo on the top of the boobs wasn't very much better.. hahaha.. WHY.. WHY! show these.. hahahaha.. they should put it like..
M18 (elderly sexual scenes and body parts, viewer discrimination is strongly advised)
or somthing.. hahaha..
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
i've got TWO christmass'
=D
hahahaha.
uh huh..
and i found out i'm pretty weak. =( haha.
i just woke up today. 1230. hehehe. damn good sleep. damn good.
and i swear my atic com is damn shiok. just like christmas. hahaha.
this is poetically pathetic, boys and girls, by the best emo band out there. =D hehehehe.
Thinking of the words to say, I'd like to think that this was fate. Reference to a song you love, Spell confusion with a "K" Like a star without its strings, I'm hanging here on these two wings. For that smile and those eyes I'm falling
If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic? When there's nothing more pathetic to be said
You bring me out, show me light, I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside. You carry truth, you make me smile. If it were you and me tonight, I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you, For you...
If you ever had the chance, Would you make your life seem right? Or would you only hold it back, The good times, the hard, and the bad. Whatever you say is alright, Just as long as there's no doubt. Could you look me in the eye And say hopes died
If time could stop, how could I make this more poetic? When there's nothing more pathetic to be said
You bring me out, show me light, I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside. You carry truth, you make me smile. If it were you and me tonight, I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you.
Our wish, Each time, Keeps me returning to you, Night after night Lift me up as high as the clouds that warm the sky, For you and I
You bring me out, show me light, I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside. You carry truth, you make me smile, If it were you and me tonight, I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you
You bring me out, show me light, I'm sorry if I hide, I'm too afraid to look inside You carry truth, you make me smile If it were you and me tonight, I would tame the stars and save the brightest one for you, For you...
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Saturday, March 25, 2006
dododododooo.. where are youuu
oh hohoho. i got internet up and runnin gin this com in the attic! hehehe. shiok! i bought the wireless adapter, just plug it in ht eusb port and TADA! internet! hehehe. i stealing neighbours connection! and it is NOT evil ok! i mena, their doinf internet broadband unlimited and all.. wireless and stuff.. and my house also got it's own internet. jsut don have wireless. ao my dad pays for the normal internet here, and the neighbour pays for his unlimited internet, so, even i flike 5 ppl use his wireless he still pay the same whether it is jus thim using or not. so i'm jsut expanding his dollar! and making him a very very kinda man without him knowing! hehehe.
but the connection speed here is damn slow lah.. 1-18mps only.. worst ever was 1mbs.. best ever was 18mbps.. damn slow. hahaha.. heck lah. got internet can alr eh? heh
my attic is becoming self sufficient! com, internet, music stiff, carpet, aircon, COZYY. =D
ohhhh where are youuuu..
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
hmmm.. it wasn't as boring as i thought.. going to the clinic for medical checkup.. =D hehehehehe.
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Monday, March 20, 2006
HEY! hello! BOOYA!
i can honestly tell myself i'm improving in terms of recording! WAHAHAHA. i'm so friggin happy! go hear my busy song! it's so damn busy man.. i keep running out of breath. haha.. but wah. i'm quite in love with my drum sound.. it's not the best, most fantastic lah.. but.. to me.. it's the best i can scrounge out so far! haha.. lalala...
one day my studio will really ahve a name man.. hehehe..
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
oh great. i'm finally not forbidden to enter my own blog! haha.. stupid.. blogger...
yeah.. ok.. so sian..
another week..
nvm. haha.. and u noe! rufio! it's been ages since i've listened to them! hehehe.. just played them this morning. so nice! haha.. fond memories of me good old days where nothing mattered.. jsut jam jam jam jam jam! hehe.. guitar drums. punk rock mosh. wahhh.. shiok.. head band.. everything.. don care about the next day or whats gonna come.. yeah.. those were the shiokest days man.. just living life by the days.,. not thinking whether tml was a tuesday or a wednesday.. just carefreee...
RU FII OHHHHHHHHHH!!!
dadadadadadada
i'm changing the song to that! hehehe.
i can play the guitar for itt! wast as hard as i thought last time.. haha. =P
anywaysss here's RUFIO! =D
If I was to walk till time saw no end, If I was to climb till the air was too thin, I could not find a picture fit the frame, As perfect as you. As perfect as you.
You showed me life and lived nothing less. Yet you're so above me. I'll take my time your memory is bliss. The angel above me.
When I look at the stars they shine of your eyes. The sky it burns bright with your presence tonight, Yet you're so above me and I cannot fly. To the angel above me I long to be with. With.
Angel above me.
To look at the mountains vast and great, Is one step below in seeing your face. To look at the stars for they lead the way. To the angel above.
If I were to walk till time saw no end, If I were to climb till the air was too thin, I could not find a picture fit the frame, As perfect as you. As perfect as you.
You showed me life and lived nothing less, Yet you're so above me. I'll take my time your memory is bliss. The angel above me.
When I look at the stars they shine of your eyes. The sky it burns bright with your presence tonight. Yet you're so above me and I cannot fly. To the angel above me I long to be with. With.
Angel above me.
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Friday, March 17, 2006
i dunno.. i've been really bored recently.. i did a new recording!
the drums sound better.. but not good still lah.. annoying.. haha.. still figuring out HOWWW.. on earth to record it nicely! grr..
oh wells!
today jammin with ronald..
tml got thing on. =D
yep.. so maybe this week end things'll shape up. hahaha.
i wanna quick buy my laptop!! i go ask my dadd when he gets back from wherever he's flown to.. haha..macbookprooo
and oH! i bought a guitar rack! yay! haha. looks damn nice! int he room and all.. wahaha.. it's got one empty space.. hehehe.. maybe i should buy and acoustic to fill up that empty lot in the rack.. hahaha.. man.. i think i'm getting damn f-ing greedy lah.. oh wells.. haha.. i see the samick acoustic for only like 130.. and it's.. damn.. tempting.. hahahahaha..crap..
ahhh! maybe i should go ask bona for my guitar back.. but.. so bad.. i said i'd give it to him.. =(.. hahahaha.. nah lah. i won't be so band./ haha.. but that guitar was damn ncie.. hahaha.. one day lah.. maybe i take back.. hehehehe. shit lah.. i'm gorrible..
oops.. typo.. eh, but gorrible sounds quite nice! haha.. MY word! hehe.. ur a gorrible person. yep.. gore-ible.mmmhmm.. ok.. it's a word now. hehehe.
later got stations... i'm going.. it's good for the soull... =D hahaha..
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i wanna make music ppl will enjoy.. i dunno how.. i just wanna. hahaha.. so i'll be up in my attic a lil more often.. trying to compose something or rearrange already made songs.. if only my singing could be a little nicer! hahaha. darn. =P
wheeeee.. haha.. hmm.. should i be a repair man? haha.. =D i had a nice evening/night yest.. the pie was.. a little.. too filling tho. hahaha.. no eggs please... haha.. =)
=D
"i'll wait for the day where you'll take my hand, and i'll wait for the nights that'll follow by"
i like that last line from a song. hahaha.. guess which song! hahahaha.
it's on the the left channel speaker.
but for SOME people.. speaker put wrong side.. it's on the right channel speaker.. hahaha..
note, by right, the speaker with the volume knob, is usually the right speaker.. haha.
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Monday, March 13, 2006
and noo.. 5 hours is damn long lah. u stupid. hahaha..
ok. i decided to leave this blog on a happier note. haha. =P i'm doing another version of loosing my way. wahaha. i hope it sounds better.. haha
and my singing is crap now! stupid dust from the studio.. spoilt my voice! grrr.. have to wait til it heals then can sing the E again.. annoying mann..
ok! i dunno.. i feel rather blank today.. haha.. i hope i won't 5 hours later.
and i keep spelling hours with an e at the back. hourse... so annoying have to keep going backwards to delete it..
horrible pimple in the middle of my nose.. haha. my bro keeps calling me rudolf. idiot. haha.
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
hmmmm... yest jamming wasn't so shiok.. except for when we jammed unholy.. hahaha. that song was quite shiok.. but.. right after jamming. i dunno. there was jsut somthing buggering me.. and i couldn't seem to figure it out.. was jsut completely dazed and stuff yest after jamming..
hah., u noe what? prayers help. like totally. ABSOLUTELY. i think they help 100%.
cuz i couldn't really sleep cuz i din noe what was bothering.
so some prayer lah ah. haha.. and yeah.. fourth decade, i like.. realised something.. and yep.. i dunno.. maybe that was the problem.. i dunno? but it seemed the most sensible answer.. mm hmm. and this morning.. i guess it was the problem..
haha.. who knowsss mann.. maybe deep down inside my heart, i wanted to eat instead of jam! but my mind went to jam..if mym mom din tell me to eat at home i'm sure i would've eat then jam. =P
i owe dinner.
haha. today's the wedding! (not my swedding u dumb bells, my frens sister's wed) dinner dinenr. haha. at sentosa!! wheee!! how cool man. getting married at sentosa! haha.
byebyee.. sorry.(uh huh.. u noe who u are..=) )
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Friday, March 10, 2006
i was just looking at my "studio" and thought to myself..
one big crazy retard owning these.. hahahaha.. i think i'm quite spoilt to a certain extent. cuz if u ask me.. i won't exactly be more than willing to lend out any one instrument! hahaha i'm sucha baby huh. =P well.. who cares. haha.
but my damn acoustic gutiar sting snapped! grrrrrrrr... what song was i playing while it snapped...? i forgot. uhhhhh.. oh yeah.. stupid green day song.. good riddance.. idiotic. snap my strings! grrr... dun care. tml i'm ognna buy new set. i can't stand it! i must have my acoustic!! hahahaha..
tug tug.
yay!
=D
hehehehehehehe..
ok! gonna go TP tml, asl the guy if an ibook would be sufficient or would the powerbook be better. and i swear. mys tupid hair is damn irrattin when the fan is blowing it on to my nose..
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WAHHHH... hahaha. did 20 mins of jogging.. on the spot.. in my room.. last 3 mins were jogged to the beat of an amber pacific song. GOD. that was fast! hahaha. my calf's hurt like shit now! crap.. hahaha can't walk properly.. but i hope i lsot some belly fats. hehehe. i'm ognna do that again, when my calfs are alright. heh.
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me. This night is wild, so calm and dull, these hearts they race, from self control. Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine, we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted; just lay entwined here, undiscovered. Safe in here, from all the stupid questions. "hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb. Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear... so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember, I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late and this walk that we shared together. The streets were wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it, and I let you in. And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it. And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it, and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
haha stand kneel stand kneel! i kept dozing off each time i kneeled! hahaha. ohhh man. during th mass i also kept sleeping. hahaha. oh wells.. i know i TRIED really hard to stay awake. haha. well i'm really sorry my 'papa ontop'! haha.
wheeeeeee! i wonder when can i get my laptop! haha.so i can quickly put all my songs in it! and and and.. use it! whahaha! shiok shiok! i love a laptop, shiok shiok.
yest was fun! haha. i'ma gonna buy two vocal/instrument mics some day soon. cuz i can't stand my stupid synamic ones.. but hell man! the large diaphragm condenser mic's like 120 per piece! sigh.. but if i'm gonna buy one day. it's still gonna be that kinda price. haha. i'll so sim lim buy. surely cheaper! haha.. and then i'll need to get extra mic stands. wahh! haha. but cool man.. i'm gonna get the emu dock too! and my fren's comming over from aus on 8th of march, and he's bringing is com, lending it to me to use to record. and yeah! so cool i'm gonna have a major improvement on my recording com! hehehe.
lalalala.. one day one day. u'll hear of NIMACOUSITC RECODING STUDIOS. hehehehe. =D
i can't wait to get my mics! haha. and the dock! and the com! wheeeeeeeee!!
i wanna rearrange my attic also.. so ben! next time u come, help me carry the piano around! haha.
and you know what!? i can sing higher! lalalalalal! WAHOOOOOO! hahaha. cuz last night, 11pm, i was singing and E note! which means i wasn't BURSTING to get it! i could get it softly! hehehe. yeah, tho the tones suck right now. but i think next week it'll be nice! haha. hohoho, i'm gonna sing sing and sing everyday empty apartment and midnight highways and good riddance! and i'll have my range increased! haH!
see u around ppl. whoever u are. haha.
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Friday, March 03, 2006
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooT
DEEGEEDEEGEEDANGDANG!
haha.
moving images in temasek for me. =D heh.
i hope it's a good and interesting course.. hahahaha.
man i woke up early today. haha. lalalaala..
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
haha. i'm so weak!! hahaha..
jogged around the block this morning with ben and basil.. wAH.. i dunno.. i was damn scared i'd die from some heart a ttack or what lah. haha. cuz u noe they always say, if u feel a pain in ur left chest you should stop otherwise u get heart attack.. so like.. WTH.. haha. i got lah.. the pain in the chest. haha. damn scared. hahaha. keep praying while running. ahha. so stupid!
yeah. but anyways.. was damn tired lah.. u know it was like.. since the LAST P.E lesson that i've runned? haha. yep. totally unfit. hahaha.
ben was like.. "wah lau.. so fast?" then as basil and i stayed int he house to rest. he went to sprint up and downt the bloodie slope 4 times lah. idiot. haha... fit. haha.
yep. now so broing.. wilson dun wanna jam alr.. dooodoooo...
ben's taking a shower.. and i'm blogging.. cuz i so dunno what to do. hahaha..
TML is the POSTING day! thing.. haha.. finally. after i find out where i'm posted to, i can go get my laptop! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee. haha. no more 'bro hogging the com" situations. haha. laptop's all mine! MINE MINE! haha.. haha.
yes, short term fun.. contents this boring feeling for a while. haha.
what to do. what to do.. what to dooooo...
i dunno..
haha..
i feel like sleeping. hahahaha. wTH..
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
When Winter falls next year, I'll be holding on To anything held down As for being patient with fate and all, it's getting old. And my mind is slowly changing I'm calling all my oldest friends, saying "sorry for this mess we're in," and I'm waiting, waiting... For the Sun to come and melt this snow, wash away the pain, and give me back control, control.
An angel got his wings, and we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine. We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Should we still set his plate? Should we still save his chair? Should we still buy him gifts? And if we don't, did we not care? It makes you think about the life you've led, shit you've done, the things you've said. And it's grounding, grounding.
I've been feeling three feet tall this month, hardly indestructible. But the snow melts, and the rhythm still goes on.
An angel got his wings, and we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine. We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Friends stay side by side, in life and death you've always stole my heart, you'll always mean so much to me, it's hard to believe this
These nights in vans, these nights in bars, don't mean a thing with empty hearts, with empty hearts.
An angel got his wings, and we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine. We'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime.
Friends stay side by side, in life and death you've always stole my heart, you've always meant so much to me, it's hard to believe So much to me, it's hard to believe So much to me, it's hard to believe this.
i swear this is just sutcha lovely song. =D makes you.. feel.. light..
don't acoustic songs jsut sound so honest..? like.. very.. warming ahh... haha.. honest lah!. haha. it's not weird that i say they sound honest! haha.
man i wish i could sing like that..in a lifetime..
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pleaseshootme
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i woke up really really early this morning. =) wahaha..
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pleaseshootme
Monday, February 27, 2006
whee! i bought a bass today! haha. 250 for the guitar, the amp and a few other stupid shit lah. haha not bad. the guitar looks cool. hahaha.
and i think i figured out my acoustic recording problems out alr. i think i can record them pretty well. hehehe. now only preoblem is my singing.. ARGH!
and.. yeah.t he drums are still one hellava big problem.
omg.. ate sapoh fun.. clay pot rice.. jsut now.. now damn full.. DAMNN FULL.. gosh.. spoiling all my crunches.. argh. i think tml i better start all over. argh. wasted. haha.
i think tml i'll be a tuition teacher. heh. =D for jsut one lousy topic. haha. one lousy method. thats all. haha.
oh wells!. i dun seem to be in muhc mood for blogging alot now. jsut wanna go back upstairs and keep recording..
"..(weird intro).....could i say.. i miss you........."
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, February 26, 2006
I never dreamt it'd be this way I've lost any chance for me to say To say that I miss you, say that I love you Will someone please tell me I'm okay
I wasn't prepared for what's to come A life made of memories gone so young And now I'm regretting all I've done But in your heart know that I'm with you all along
Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight
I never thought that this could go And take me away from all I know And leave me to think I'm on my own But your love will take me, you were the one......
Who sat through nightsYou held me tight And made sure I'm okay And I thank you for the love you gave to me
Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight...
Tonight...
Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright And if I should fall, I know you're waiting And if I should call, I know you're there If ever you cry just know I'm in your heart tonight... I'm in your heart tonight.
=) yep nice chorus. it's always amber. =D
entry below..
hello hello.. entry below. haha.
i actually blogged at 1:54 PM
pleaseshootme
HAHA. hey stupid. i told u not worry what i've said in that post!. hahahaha
i also dunno what i meant.. i forgot what i was thinking. haha..=P
serious!
ok!
yest was fun.! =D yep.. little brats stole my pink pick..(i do not love pink. it's jsut that i had one, and they stole it) and they wouldn't stop annoying me! walau! at first they looked so cute and nice, aww.. sitting infront of u.. watching u play guitar. starring at u. awwwwwwwwwwwwwww......
YEAH RITE!. til the start going.."AHH my turn! my turn!" *strum strums trum. bang bang bang* oh god. kids.. they won't stop. haha.. stole my pick stole the guitar. haha..
oh wells.. there was stil the big on left. =D
AND EIH... if u realise. that post was like.. i dunno.. but long before.. the little brats! haha.. dunno what u worrying for man! sunday sunday..
=)
haha. i'm going for mass AGAIN..
and yest preist.. was.. kinda.. like.. hahahaha.. i dunno.. the way he spoke.. was... so.. kinda.. boring.. haha. =P no offence, but yeah.. i think thye should train the priests in speech and drama classes, so they can speak better. without thoe cheena-cum-american-fake-accent.. i think it's horrid. haha. no HORRID lah.. but.. not as entertaining as the first time u hear it.
imagoingchangeformassnow.
byebye!
-i saw ear wax in my right earphone yest..ew.. =S.. hehehehe..-
bye bye!
=D
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pleaseshootme
Saturday, February 25, 2006
is this feeling two ways?
haha. i dunno. why issit like this man!!
issit good or bad. i dunno. whats going on.
all i noe is i'm gonna be ocnfusing u!
hehehehe.
i'm jsut talking bull lah, dun worry.
amber pacific rocks i tell you. imaagonnaleavethehousesoon.
finally got the mic changed!. but wth.. ithik i got a feeling i changed to wrong mic.. wtf.. nvm.. it's ok now. haha. now i need to buy some compressor stuff.. walau.. the expenses never stop! annoying. why issit so damn difficult to jsut record stupid drums! grrr.. annoying!!
guitar and vocals are so easy to recor dlah. plug and record. simple.
drums.. walau.. mics, mixer, cable, mixing, volume levels, equalizer adjustments.. compressing.. leveling.. TUNING(the most damn friggin difficult thing), and i think the room also plays a part. and that sucks.! grrr
oh wells.. intime to come, i think i would be down with all the equipment needed. heh.. maybe march or april.. may.. i dunno.. sigh. long way to go. haha. RESULTS TIS FRIDAY!. yay!
haha. i can't wait to see if i got into the poly. heh.. but i think i should be able to lah.
please continue visiting my purvolume page. thank you people. support my band! thos we're a vocal and bass short. but support!. heh..
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haha. well. swimming today at the jurong complex thing was damn shiok lah!. haha.. lazy to go about the whole event. but all i know is that all the efforts into crunches. is wasted away witht the stupid pizza hut and stuff..! grrr. haha
oh and tried going for some CYF thing in the evening. =S hahaha.. um..i udnno. it was pretty interesting lah, to learn about thethings they talking aobut and stuff.i actually learnt something new! haha.. temptations and stuff.. it wasn't boring lah!. i just.. din really.. umm.. fancy.. the activities! haha =P i would've kinda rather jsut sat in the aircon room and get comfortable. haha. instead of doing squats! stupid! hahaha.. =P some people with skirts managed to cheat their way out lah! hahaha. =P jkjk (but it was just.. 1/4 squats.. how revealing can it possibly get? hahahaha. =P. )
and i dunno why!.. damn.. u noe, how i wih it wasn't 1.55am right now, so then i could call u. and like.. make up for the lost talk. and sort things out.. stupid timing. stupi dstupid stupid. hahaha.. maybe i'll call u tml.. i dunno why.. but sometimes.. i think my heart can sink as fast it can float and fly. i hope i dun do that to u. but i think i do.. and i'm terribly sorry for that..
if u ever ever think, that there's something u did wrong, jsut know, that it's everything else u did RIGHT. that will keep me here..praying for this..
hahaha. OK!. anyways.. i think sometimes, i wish my mouth would act before my brain.
can i remember the 7 sacraments??
haha. i can try! (letsee if i paid good attention)
penance, annointing of the sick, M(something! i forgot!! argh)
OHkAY. so my memory isn't too fantastic lah. but i'm sure i paid attention! eapecially to that felicia girl.. cuz she speak.. everytime like.. zao sia one. (squeak) hahaha. damn funny..
haha. the black grass like, abalone.. thing.. infront.. aslo kinda funny. hahaha.
ok. i'm feeling kinda better now. hehehehe..
not jsut cuz of the squeaking and the abalone lah. haha. there's something that started the smiling during this blog entry..
well, cuz ben asked me.."relax, and think of something"
so i thought of something. i thought of this : " =D " and ALL else than comes with it.. =) and it kinda warms the cold heart. and even though i still felt the same way from the start of the entry, can feel the sunken heart, slowly rising.. i guess tho it's still all punctured and stuff, by right should stil be sunken, it's kinda like.. pulled up.. =)
"you could be the one, to save me from me"
it doesn't have to be in closest, dovey, kinda way. but in just the simplest, most casual way.. but i suppose, it's only possible through one fella. to save me from me.
"a dust in the diaplated room i lay, looking out at all that you're today, more than what u were before, i swear you look like you could soar, and my tiny heart would beg of you, to fly above me, set me free, and lift me up so i cna see, the skies, feel this breeze, lay with you under this starlit moon light sky"
yup. thats a bridge from my older song about the impossbile possiblities. that inspired the other songs.. one day, all these songs will be recorded perfectly, and burned into a cd, and sent to your doorstep, acosutic, drums, overdrives, screams, and sings. love, hate, and dreams.
they may prolly sound all the same.. in terms of the style and tune. but.. i think the lyrics.. go a different direction all together.
i jsut hope the last song.. will be a happy one. don't we all?
wish for a happy ending to everything happening. =)
i'll wish, i'll hope, and i'll pray.. =D .......
for that perfect happy ending.
WOW! ok!. long entry. full of things not many people would be interested to read! not like it matters if the world couldn't care less about what i'm writing.
i just need half of mine..and half of yours..(oh yes. u noe what i mean..)
=)
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, February 23, 2006
You don't care about impossible Something I wish I could learn from you Write me down is the best idea you've had Watch the fire fly cause I struck the match tonight
When you held me tight for this moment in time Pull these words off from my lips Keep them safe, just remember that we wrote...
There's a hope There's a light And I see it in your eyes And I hope you can see it in mine (There's a secret held inside) There's a chance and a time That the sky could fall tonight And I will be here at your side
Watch as the ground turns as dark as the shadows cast on them and I disappear How are you perfect when I'm just wasting time Just a ghost inside and I'm waiting for the fall
When you held me tight with a sense in your eyes When I'm with you things are right I'll keep you safe, just remember that we wrote...
There's a hope There's a light And I see it in your eyes And I hope you can see it in mine (And everything could fall tonight) There's a chance And a time That the sky could fall tonight And I will be here at your side
Stars are never out of reach for you just dream Hold out your hand and touch the sky Just dream Tonight
There's a hope There's a light And I see it in your eyes And I hope you can see it in mine (And everything could fall tonight) There's a chance And a time That the sky could fall tonight And I will be here at your side If the sky should fall tonight I will be here at your side If you fall tonight I'm here
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
hehehe.. okok.. nothing!. wahahaha..
first time i'm like.. having a daily mood swing. haha..
being happy is all the i wanna be. hehehe..
so yep. this is good.
hello
bye bye
hello
bye bye
hello
bye bye..
amber pacific rocks!
i love amber!
not a girl amber,
amber pacific!
i'm not selling them out
but i jsut love em,
for the very fact that their songs are so damn nice,
ans the singer sings beautifully weirdly amazingly nice.
haha. and their all damn fit. so i wanna be fit too. haha..
i'm writing blog entries likehtis for now,
cuz it's fun.
whever you go, i will be waiting, whenever you call i'll be there, whatever it takes i'll make your darkest days so bright, i'm in your heart tonight..
=D
they rock!
rock rock. i'm a rock? heh. so are you.
get it?
haha. ok.
good.
cuz i read. hahahaha
bouncing ninja turtles go!
the sky should be black and starry!, but damn light pollution, making it dark blue and less, starry.. booo!!
the moon is nice.
moonlit sky.
one day i'll record all my songs perfectly, and burnem into a cd,
and u all will buy one copy from me. for 5 bucks! hehehe
bye bye!
hello!
bye bye!
hello!
bye bye!
ben is damn strong.
gasper is fuking strong, you should've seen the rugby match.
totally amzing how some people jsut don have to look fit and fast,
to BE FIT and FASTTT!!
ready set go!. imma gonna tackle this little lump of lard! omg, top speed alr? wth?? where's he? wtf? behind me alr? fkkkk!!!
"oooooooooooooooo! touch down!!"
hehehe.. thats what gasper was like and thats prolly what the oppnent was thinking..
respect to the lil man! (maybe not so little.. but he does look tiny amongst the rest.. hahaha)
rock rock.. i'm a rock? so are u! =)
bye bye!
hello!
byebye!
i actually blogged at 11:05 PM
pleaseshootme
i'm not sure of what i've said. i'm not sure of what i think. yeah, i'm lost again, i guess i can't make up my mind on these things on my own. so help me out here, i'd love to work this out together.
i can't make this on my own, cuz i will fall, and through it all, i would have lost everything that i could've owned.. i'm not one to make it all, happen right, put on a fight, and test against fate, but i jsut hope i'm not to late.
so help me out here, cuz i'd love to work this out, work this out, together.
thats not exactly a song btw. hahaha.. it's just some stuff that came out.. and i jsut felt like.. rhyming alittlebe here and there.. well.. it could be a song.. jsut need some chords. and presto. hehe..
ok, it's late. i jsut ate prata with basil.. i guess i'm gonna sleep now. =)
-we live this life, to be happy. and stay happy in the after life. we're made to find happiness.. i pray we all do that.
haha, i jsut feel so..'write-able' right now. hahaha. =P
and i feel so dumb. haha..
gnite..
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pleaseshootme
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
so yep. there's a new song. in the morning. at purevolume.
got some weird intro.. hahaha.. oh wells..
=D
yeah, today ben and i redid our new band song.. woooo!. ahha. i think we're getting better at it. so maybe the drums 'll come in shortly after. and u can't hear it in the making. so . heh.
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pleaseshootme
Monday, February 20, 2006
doodoodoodoo...
happy or sad? haha. happy. =)
dododododododo..
happy or sad? heh.. happy. =D
dooodoooodooooooooooooooo,
happy or sad? HAPPY!. hahahaha. xD
why? hahaha. i also dunno why.. so hell. doesn't matter right> happy is happy and thats, that. heh
oh yeah.. haha. this morning did a song too. haha.. it weird how i sound totally different singing low and high.. like.. different!. haha..
"...and i thank you for, the love, you gave to me, whereever you go, i will be waiting, whenever u call, i will be there, whatever it takes, i'll make your darkest days so bright, i'm in your heart, tonight...." -Gone So Young
A.P is still the 'shiok-est' abnd out there man!. hahaha..
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, February 19, 2006
haha. yes.. i am lost! wahahaha.. dunno where to begin, but i know where to end. now i stand here on this junction, looking at a thousand and one routes, i jsut need that ONE route, to reach my destination.. well. haha.. it's gonna take a thousand tries before i hit ONE. oh well.. haha.. i noe it's gonna take me a long long long long time! haha prolly while i'm on my way back to the junction from my 534th try, i'll meet a fairy, and she'll light up the right road, and i'll run right through it. and reach. the end of it.. =D
hahahaha.. so funny.. how it became some weird story. hahaha. about roads and a fairy. hahaha
i got theses rubber things for the specs. so my specs won't drop. heh. now i can HEAD BANG! yeah! and i dun have to like.. out of the blur point my head upwards to keep my falling specs from facing it's inevideble fate of hitting th floor. but NOW, i've got rubber-C-shaped-thingablogs! to change the fate of my specs, and save my lense!
omg, i sounds o frickn retarded! heh. but it's fun to get a small laugh at urself once in awhile..
"and if the sun will set tonight, hold our secrets up to the sky, as our shadows grow there's nothing left to hide, and if you ever doubt, you will know that i still wonder, how many times i've compared the stars to eyes" -ripped from 'Here We Stand'
they're such an excellent band i tell u.... to me,they've got no dead tracks. =) haha.
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
ok, com hang yest.. lazy to redo yest. i'll jsut start today, for yesterday. heh
i think vday is cool. wahaha. yeap. it was. haha.. got an extra portion on my meal.. pfth! spoilt my work out! hahaha. jk. and doing stupid and giving stupid things is fun, and watching stupid things is fun too. "too doo doo too dooo.. deoowww deoo bowww reaaooww.. chee chorr..ewooaaHH" (with a black suit and voice changing machine!) hahahaha.. NVM! -burp-
i ate a MARS BAR today. haha, tho it was all squashed and all.. haha, it still tasted good! heh.. icky, slimy and sticky.. but good. wahaha.
my voice aint good enuf to enter the local scene, as what i heard lah. haha. so i believe it lah. haha, i wanna see if bona can join us again. hehheheh.. .. ahahaha. i hearing my older recording. really crap man.. and it's quite recent lah. actually.. sighh..
i hope i get to do moving images at TP. it's like film sound and video at NP.. but alil more detailed. i get to learn sound recording, micing techniques too. =D
dooodoooodooooodoooooooo.. i feel like sleeping early today.. heh. good night!
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pleaseshootme
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
deegee deegee dang dang.
i swear it's damn ncie to say it! haha..
"so gather the pain, and i hear this shalloe sea, well, let the rain fish away this scene"
i dunno. i find that line qutie ncie. haha.. it's one of the lines wilson and i heard when we reversed my song.
i'm full of fish. wahaha. =)
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pleaseshootme
Monday, February 13, 2006
so. i suppose life isn't really exactly much of a fairly tale..
no princes' no princess'..
a place hard to find happy endings.
but there were happy moments inbetween.
but..
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, February 12, 2006
WHEE. so yeah ok my prelims was like 34 pts.
but.... heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.(with a dumb diminishing sound)
o level ah, heh, 14 pts ah! shiok sia. wahahaha..
ok lah, i noe some other ppl score like what, 11 lah, 9 lah, 7 lah.. dunno what... but ah, all very smart one lah.. so nvm. 14 pts shiok alr. also get 800 buck from my dad. heh
and ah! i played my song backwards, and it makes sense! as in..t he pronunciation and all.. omg.. so fucking scary lah! i was with wilson and we were experimenting reversing playback.. and.. omg.. i mean of course it's nothing lah.. but uh.. the name natasha.... played reversed.. is like.. um... "a shatan".. u geddit? fucking scary sia..
anyways.. my song played reversed, the lyrics.. DAMN NICE.. the nice part i like. is..
it actually went, PRETTY clearly! most of the stuff.
i'll get the reversed lyrics here next time. it's upstairs and i'm damn lazy.
and pokemon is WAY satanic.
u noe the song? "pokemon! gotta catch 'em all gotta catch 'em all!" .. it's goes backwards
"i love satan i love satan." i experimented with wilson just now. WOAH.. FARKING scary..
sorry, i suddenly feel the extinsive need to use vulagrities because i feel there is no there word that can describe the level of intensity of the emotion.
and heh.. we came up with this..
but i think maybe it's not so safe to say it too many times lah..
wow. ok, so i bought a samson 5kit drum mic set at $370, then 5 mic cables that amounted to $100, then a Yamaha 12 track mixer to mix the drum mics together for $250. ( yamaha sells a yamaha 10 track for like what. $380, and i got my 12 track at sim lim for $250, i swear, buying yamaha items from yamaha is such a rip off).. i'm really dissapointed with myself cuz i can't seem to record a nice good clean, crisp, solid strong drum sound with all the equipment i got! grr.. u can go hear the faliure at my purevolume page. it's the cover "i can tell".. it sounds acceptable.. but its not fantastic. i want a fantastic sound. so yeah.. i'll keep working and tuning my drums till they sound like big bang buck of drums man.
tml's the resluts! woohoo! i'm so friggin excited! no relation to me being confident that i'm gonna do well whatsoever. i'm jsut excted to see what i've scored for such a majorly important exam. so yeah..
i can now finally sing a not higher.. so now i can crack up a D and scratch an E.. my E sounds totally awful tho.. my D sounds.. a little.. painful.. but it's ok lah. sometimes..
i'm such a sissy. so there, cuz "i'm not stupid 2" is a very annoying show. it's DAMN good. but annoying. go watch it with ur frends and all. u'll noe why. if they're the sort to tease ya abt tearing.. wahaha.
i did NOT cry.. just teared alot. and some sniffling.. *shmucks*
oh well..
my hair is getting a little annoying.. cuz i cannot find any particular style to fix it. so yeah.. so sad.. to think of cutting it.. but i dunno.. shud i? haha. maybe.. i dunno .. whatever.. think about it some other time lah..
bye bye. all the best to '89 ppl. i hope i get 20 below.
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Oh man. was gonna sleep. but then was listening to my recording.. and then something hit me..
"eh nick... mAYbe... u should do some kind of sound engineering course..."
so i got up, and checked the internet, and it led me to Film, Sound And Video diploma at Ngee Ann.. so now i'm like.. really hyped up into going there! i mean like.. it's everything i wanna do!
SOUND: i learnt o deal with recording and sound enginerring and stuff. can be come producer and also in the mean time produce my own songs better..
FILM AND VIDEO: it's all about design and shit man.. haha, i dunno. i'm not THAT good at drawing but... at least i know i've got SOMETHING going on there.. hahaha.. and also, with this knowledge that i'll gain if i join here, i can make music videos fro my band and stuff,. be some asswipe director when i grow up.. wahaha..
but damn.. it's like. only applicable to JPSAE. so like.. whent he results are out. i'm so gonna have to get ready GOOD recordings, and drawings, and all my slips f achievements and stuff.. i hope i get in man.. argh.. i hope they'll be impressed with my recordings. cuz i'm gonna work real hard on them now!! no more time left! (maybe they might be more impressed to know that i did it all by myself. heee.... oh but. of course i must make it good and clear and wonderful first)
i'm getting hungry. i'm gonna sleep before i start munching and growing extra fats.. kekeke..
i dun undertand WHY salesmen have to use the calculator to tell u.. " ohh. this one ah. i can give u.. $95.." (he types '95' on the calculator and shows it to you AFTER telling you the product was $95)
really stupid.. really.. and it's like an insult to me! cus.. it's like he's telling me.. i can't HEAR the price so much so that i have to SEE it on the calculator..
dumb ass..
oh wells. i'm turnin in. =)
nite..
check out my purevolume. new screamo recording. wahaha.
i actually blogged at 1:54 AM
pleaseshootme
Oh man. was gonna sleep. but then was listening to my recording.. and then something hit me..
"eh nick... mAYbe... u should do some kind of sound engineering course..."
so i got up, and checked the internet, and it led me to Film, Sound And Video diploma at Ngee Ann.. so now i'm like.. really hyped up into going there! i mean like.. it's everything i wanna do!
SOUND: i learnt o deal with recording and sound enginerring and stuff. can be come producer and also in the mean time produce my own songs better..
FILM AND VIDEO: it's all about design and shit man.. haha, i dunno. i'm not THAT good at drawing but... at least i know i've got SOMETHING going on there.. hahaha.. and also, with this knowledge that i'll gain if i join here, i can make music videos fro my band and stuff,. be some asswipe director when i grow up.. wahaha..
but damn.. it's like. only applicable to JPSAE. so like.. whent he results are out. i'm so gonna have to get ready GOOD recordings, and drawings, and all my slips f achievements and stuff.. i hope i get in man.. argh.. i hope they'll be impressed with my recordings. cuz i'm gonna work real hard on them now!! no more time left! (maybe they might be more impressed to know that i did it all by myself. heee.... oh but. of course i must make it good and clear and wonderful first)
i'm getting hungry. i'm gonna sleep before i start munching and growing extra fats.. kekeke..
i dun undertand WHY salesmen have to use the calculator to tell u.. " ohh. this one ah. i can give u.. 95$.."
really stupid.. really.. and it's like an insult to US! cus.. it's like he's telling me.. i can't HEAR the price so much so that i have to SEE it on the calculator..
dumb ass..
oh wells. i'm turnin in. =)
nite..
check out my purevolume. new screamo recording. wahaha.
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pleaseshootme
Friday, January 27, 2006
HEY hey HEY.. new song at purevolume. go see. .. hear.. whatever.
oh but the last part's a little wierd tho.. but heck. i'll fix it next time la. haha
results comming soon!.. dunno if it's on the 6th, 19th or 15th.. got so many ppl say so many diff dates. oh well. whichever it is.. it's SOON! wahaha.
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, January 22, 2006
wah! ate kang kong and deer meat, frog leg, and some other crap la today. haha. shiok man.,.
aND, i bet! the kang kong won't get digested! they always don't! always see them swimming in my toilet bowl one! hahaha.. stubborn buggers
haha, i think i don go for the stupid interview at nyop already. haha. i feel bad tho.. signing up, then don go.. cuz, after goin to temasek poly, it's damn shiok la.. got jamming cca all.. haha. (the girls there also like.. look better ah.. BUT thats NOT the reason!) most of my frends are thinking of goin there too. haha
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Nanyang says i'm not good enuf. -bawls... OH well... i'll try harder next time! but hell, i think i wanna try it out at temasek. that school got jamming CCA! omg. how friggin cool. haha. n if wilson goes too. it'll be DAMN friggin cool. and if ben ends up there too. WAYYY friggin cool! hahaha. one band, in the same school. same friends. wahaha.
yeah.. 3 big IF's...
OH kay, i shall practise hard on drawing.. do the dunno what 2 vanishing point thing. damn. i shud've taken AEP in sec school. it'll be such an advantage here.
i found out that it wasn't throat cancer that stopped a7x's screamo. it was that, matt shadows burst his vlood vessel in his throat. so now his voice is kinda nazzled and.. he can't scream. huh. what a pity huh. their old songs just won't sond as ... 'RAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!'' anymore..
i feel like shitting man. been fartin.. haha. bye. gonna go take mah crap now.
silent farts are the one that stink. loud farts dun stick, so they're 'FUN' farts. FORCED farts, stink as hell. cuz u force out the gas in ur stomach. stinks as hell.
watch out for the forceful, silent killer. *smirks*
going TP tml! see whatsit like. oh going to SP too. kkkk.. bye! toilet bowl's waitin'!
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Monday, January 16, 2006
Yep yep.i can easily say without a doubt. girls have a tendency to be alot more rough and violent than guys. yeah.. just to tie some one's hair.. wth. hahahaha.
and i'm kinda getting lazy to record man.. cuz everytime got small mistake here and there. thent he com so slow. lag like mad. then to redo the parts is so tiring. i'm sitting on a horribly uncomfortable stool. thot he aircon's nice and cool. but heck. my back aches. haha. so my recording days will come back .. some other time la. haha.. i'm damn sian. cannot play properly.
sigh. i wanna have a gig.. but. we dun have a bassist. and. my singing's kinda crap.. sighh.. wonder how man.. haha.
oh wells.. i wanna go out. someday. do something fun man. haha.. i'm so bored. wanna gig..
screamo! a7x!.. fuck la. if only i can sing high. then shiok. i can only "reach" a middle 'd' note. how pathetic man. and sing a low e. thats all. sighh. how pathetic..
i'll spout random nonsense from now on. cuz i'm bored. wahaha.
u can control the note of ur fart, by tightening ur butt cheeks. =D it's an art.
heh.
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Loosing My Way
-(verse 1)- You don't seem to have the slightest clue, that the one i hold on to, is you you ask me when, you ask me who, but i'm just too weak to say to you,
but please don't walk away, but please, i need you to stay, stay and wait, stay and hold on to me, for the day will come, when..
-(chorus)- I'll say everything that's been holding me back, let it out, throw it all off my back, i need you to know that someday i'll be strong, strong enough, someday, it won't be so tough, so will you hold on to me too.
-(verse 2)- my hands are shaking, my body's so cold, my heart is yearning, this feeling's old, but still burning, a love so bright. so bright these dark skies, it would light,
for your smile's so warming, i melt away, with every breath you take, my knees start to shake, and these sleepless nights, and haunting dreams, your picture's clearer, voice gets louder,
so please, don't walk away, so please before i loose my way, stay and wait, stay and hold on to me, stay and wait, i'm holding on to you.
and..
(chorus)
-(bridge)- Don't walk away don't walk away, don't walk away, before i loose my way i need you to stay, don't walk away, don't walk away, before i loose my way.
(chorus)
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Shhhhhhhh.....
dun ask.. it's just a feeling..
anyways... i guess i am wierd.. but hell.. being wierd...is......"coolios". wahahahahaha.
If you only knew the pain The pain I keep inside The pain that makes me "me" Then without it who am I In a room with broken walls I lay in scene and dreams I want you to see
I'm cold and white I'm holding on I'll try to breathe for you I'm crying out I'm singing loud You could be all I need
And I'm losing my will Just to hold you in I'm giving up the hope That you could have been the one To save me from me And now our lips will meet and i'll taste their defeat I'll give in this once
I'm cold and white I'm holding on I'll try to breath for you I'm crying outI'm singing loud You could be all I need
Still I know I'll carry on Guide me through the life I lost To find these faults in me To find these faults in me
I'm cold and white I'm holding on I'll try to breath for you I'm crying out I'm singing loud You could be all I need
I'm cold and white I'm holding on I'll try to breath for you I'm crying out I'm singing loud You could be all I need
To save me from me
-yeah, thats right, yo could be all i need, to save me from me.
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pleaseshootme
Monday, January 02, 2006
happy new year ppl. wahaha, all u jc ppl, have fun in sch tml ya? haha..
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, December 29, 2005
ok. anyone reading this. regardless of ur religion.
can u Please just read this line out.
"dear god, please help nicholas's friend"
yeah, u can repeat that as manytimes as u want. just for the love of a poor guy, say that line at least once. thank you.
and uh.. those more faithful to god or something, and if u really cannot find anything better to do, u could say some prayers and just offer it to 'nicholas's friend'.
nono, i'm kinda done with fishing. i'm more on freezing.
woo! went to caimbridge today! darn, i wanted to buy the caimbridge hoodie, but it was just way too ex la.. and i din get the badge either. *BOINK* stupid me... like it'll be so darn cool tohave the sweater that says "caimbridge university" eh?? or a really really cool metal badge that goes ''caimbridge university". like wah! shiok la. summore cuz it's like the place where my papers are getting marked. and now i'm listening to my sister's friend's song.. damn jealous. cuz damn nice. u noe she sang for the show, "chicken rice war", but nono, the song is nothing like the show, the song's very, soothing, and piano-wee..
OK, nvm, uh.. london is freezing, the coldest it went down to just now was 0 degrees. and now my sister's ang moh bf's making bak kuh teh. hahaha. he's damn funny la, he's learning singlish. haha.. i think, other than the freezing weather, london is FUCKING beautiful! the lush fields, BEEEEEG blue clear sky, and the ever oh so old buildings, it's fucking nice.. likt hell! the door's could be older than singapore! haha.
and oh, i went to this 'jack the ripper tour' and guess what? YES. it was FREEZING. and yeah, it was damn interesting! jack always cuts his women(prostitutes) on the neck, left to right. then, slices from the groin up to the chest, and leaves the intestines over her right sholder. and then, takes half the kidney.and one of them, he stabed her vagina.. like wth for? oh wells.. yeah.. i think the story's damn cool la. cuz like until now, no one really noes hu jack the ripper is... heh..
.........fine, i kinda miss singapore tho..
"noe wah aIEe meAn?"
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
OK oK.. i'm updating. haha. there's nothing to do now in my sister's apartment. so i've decided to update my blog. haha..
ok, london, is, bloodie friggin cold! my hands, my fingers, my feet are always freezing. haha. and OH, there's like this store thats closing down in oxford street, it's a clearance sale! up to 70% off everything! wahaha. i wanna go buy something. like.. a pair of umbro soccer boots are like 8 pounds la. in sing dollars is like.. 24 bucks! cheap huh? addidas sweaters are about 24 pounds. which is, almost 80 bucks. ok, dunno if that is very much cheaper or what. but heck. haha.
ok, i dunno what more to write. i'll get back ehre in some time are what.
and oh, i got the best friends! =)
thanks ben, wilson, basil, for everythin. specially the pedal! =D whee! haha.
and fishing is damn fucking fun. haha. or at least i find it damn fun., so fun to catch the tiny buggers and slaughter them heh.. that day we caught like 50 fish! wahaha. fishermen eh?
i'm gonna go check out the music stuff here in london, and big ben's in london. wahaha.,big ben's the big clock in london. haha.
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Friday, October 21, 2005
okokok, anyone who does sub science.. pls tell me u got zinc nitrate as solution T and ur gradient for ur stupid curve is around 11.... hahaha
and oH, please go check out my abnd's purevolume page! i recorded a new song.. well it's a old song.. but it's a new recording. with REAL drums. haha. not the fake shit computer ones.. haha. and i think it's a lot cleaner.. the solo is really clear i'd say. =D
the singing.. still not that shiok la.. but heck la.. if any one din think the previous's were not too bad, this shouldn't be that painful.. haha. =P
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pleaseshootme
Friday, October 14, 2005
well, today was grad nite.. it was quite lousy tho.. hahaha.. grassroot club.. and the booklets were shit! omg.. A4 paper, folded itno half, print with normal black and white phocopystyle, then stapler in the middle to become booklet.. walAU.. how cheap skate can they get man.. my mom's home made prayer booklets look so much better la!
but oh well, it was nice la.. hanging out with my frends and all..
oh oh oh!! before we went there, ben and wilson were at my house, and damn shiok man, we jam 'the ground folds' and record.. wheeee!! go purevolume page and hear!i think the drums sound almost of professional quality.. heh.. guitar tone and vocal tone maybe not yet.. but hey, it was just a run through man.. first time we played that song together summore leii.. haha.. i sang the verses, ben sang the higher parts(chorus). my voice quite soft..
i can't wait for o's to end, then we'll do real damn shiok recordings mann.. heh..
oh yeah, i moved my set to my room.. so damn shiok i tell ya.. hahaha.. and the ironic thing is.. the room looks BIGGER! hahaha..
i'm not really gonna miss school la, cuz my frends aren't attatched to the school, as i leave, they leave too.. but i'm not leaving them, nor the other way round. so hu cares.? haha.
"Though endings are never ever happy It's the happy moments along the way That in the end Make it...ok..." - Five For Fighting - Nobody
thats a real nice line i'd like to quote. =D
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Friday, September 30, 2005
well.. my prelims was shitty.. got 34 points. sighh tho i din fail anything besides amath.. my l1r5 sucked balls man.. oh at least i finally passed poa and humans.. poa i got b4.. humans jsut a c6. sighh..
and the stupid geog paper la! the last question (c) so small! how i know it was printed there? i totally missed out 6 marks man.. but i still passed la. sighh..
jsut passed my ss too.. cuz of my stupid soure base. dunno how the fk to answer that.. i got a lousy 9/25 for that la! grr.. lucky my essay pulled me up..
uhh.. the rest were basically real shitty la.
failed clb..
oh wells.. tml gonna jam with my bro and his fren. haha. qutie shiok la, gonna play saosin all.. the guy sing damn good man. =D
sighh.. nothing much happening..
gotta buck up and do something about my work man..
i'm gonna try and keep my results from my parents as long as possible.. heh..
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pleaseshootme
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
haha.ok so here's an old song, but newly recorded with better facilities. =D soon, i'm gonna be some music producaa manN! hahaha.. yes yes yes, the two guitars and not-as-awful-singing-as-last-time, all done by me. =D i accept full credit thank u thank u. =D hahaha.. and critisism is also welcome thank you. haha.
so. soon, i guess when our o's are done, my LNS is gonna do some home recording shitt man. heh. ben's comming over tml. so maybe we'll do some acoustic songs. with my new recording program, CUBASE! muahahaha..
i like the reverb on the vocals. haha. and now i can hear my 's's and 't's and other shit that were previously muffled off by poor recorders. haha
the rhythm guitar's abit messed up, i couldn't find a nice, clean, but distorted kinda sound from the list of plug-in effects.. but, heck la, u get the jist of the song. =D haha..
the lead, um.. got some mistakes. haha. sorry. but, hell la, done in 30 mins, give or take a few mins.. cuz of my tuition.. had to leave.. so yeah.. did a fast job. haha. not bad eh? =P
i like the solo to some extent. haha.. (some social studies there.) haha..
tml is a maths, and the end of prelims. whooO!! but.. well.. i'm gonna fuck up my prelims anywas.. so .. sigh. die la.. and.. o's is comming.. bleah..
and today's amaths was horrid.. dunno what the fuck i'm doing. (oh yeah, if ur wondering why i'm 'suddenly' swearing.. haha.. cuz i've decided.. i'm jsut gonna say what i'd really say in real life, here.) the stupid paper so fucking hard.. oh but, at least the majority found it the same way as i did. jsut the few minority who study too much..
my face is infected. how gross.. i hope this stupid infection thing heals.. maybe i should write a song on infection. haha. i think it'll be quite cool. cuz infection is quite a vague topic. haha..
(screamo's) fuck the infection, running through the vessels of my face, detiorating the cells of thy human race. the infactuation between parasite and man, leads to the darkest sight. a barren land..
(don't ask..) i'm kidna stupid right now.. stupid most of the time.. jsut MORE stupid now..should go rest my stupid face soon..
byee...(who ever is reading this..)
-ps, if you could be so kind, as to tag my board, with ur name, and say some nonsense or what, critisize at ur will, or compliment, or just some random bullshit also can. thanks. =)
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pleaseshootme
Saturday, September 10, 2005
haha.. i'm feeling alot better. =P
singing got alot of problems. haha.. sorry.. =P um.. u can off the "music" by pressing the stop button on ur navigation bar. haha..
oh wells i don't think i'll be beack up here anytime soon.
prelims tml bye. =)
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, September 01, 2005
ok. so te performance was pretty good. sept for the fact that ava sucked big time. poor bona couldn't hear himself. neither could i nor ben. mics were too soft and TOO LOUD. but still we couldn't hear the loud one. cuz speakers were jsut not faceing us. guitar's din amnage to reach the end. but all in all.. most ppl said it was good.
but i can't stand it. when those others, said the vocals were horrible and way too loud. well ok la. too loud, (blame the ava) cuz seriously, bona can't really sing that loud..
and i realy dislike people who act.(not actors and actresses. i love them-good ones-.. i dislike people who try to be somebody else..) it really gets on my nerves.
i mean.. ok. u wanna say something. say something more constructive instead of jsut saying. "vocals were shit" "bona sucks" or "if nikhil were to sing on the mic, the mic too loud also people SURE like one!"
ok. seriously. that statement really pissed me off big time. -ok, i know nikhil's serious one of the fucking best punk/hardcore/rock fucking good singer i've seen and heard of this age and in singapore. you can say he can be saosin's new singer or what la..
but if the mic was THAT loud, on bona. nikhil would've burst everyone's bloodie ear drums if the mic was turned up that loud. and don come tell me he can control move away from the mic all cuz he's damn good. i tell u. he will sing even louder. cuz on the stage, vocals are totally INAUDIBLE.
.ok so.. yeah.. i sound kinda angry? haha.. not really.. just damn annoyed..i dunno why.. i'm usually not so easily swayed by these stuff.. but.. i guess when so many people jsut kept judging so quickly(especially my bro. he din even hEAR the recording, just the story, he said ' cuz bona..like shit'...) fuckkk man i tell u. then after he hear our recoding during the rehearsal, he was like.. 'eh.. sound like the real guy sia' . then of course won't take back his words. he never can swallow pride in a nice fashion. dunno what shit all la.. i'm not saying our recording was that fantastic. it was just definitely alot better than today. it's not like we could control the mics.
sighh.. ..i feel like shit..and damn annoyed.. cuz of: -today's poor performance -my poa -a math -tuition -e math -science -humanities -prelims -my dad's car door -o levels -my dad -my bro -mr. wong's stupid class photo project( i can't stand it. the way he wants me to dot he best i can for a class photo thing, and all.. but he gves me shit materials. -half-past-six-zapped-in-less-than-5-mins. at least basil gives me soft copies of the class pic to work on.) -my dad and mom's voices-when they nag- -my bro's silly act -sacarsm against my band in school -ppl saying bona's singing sucks(because the mic was too loud. {mic and bona is not one thing together. choose which one u wanna blame before u do})
maybe i'm being kinda petty and stuff.. and really picky or what.. but.. i'm really not lke this.. it's jsut that.. these stuff..r eally are getting on my nerves.. sighh..
all i wanna do..is just to:
-go library, and study from morning to night, with wilson and or basil or vice versa whatever. dun ahve also nvm. i jsut wanna hang there, it's nice over there. -lsiten to music all day -practice my poa in peace, -practice my math science and all in peace -basically not having to worry about anything else like how to close the car door. -play my guitar -write songs about my life -talk to the secret -make new friends -talk, laugh, play -do well in my prelims and o's -not get nagged at(cuz i noe wat i needa do. don ahve to keep reminding me. t jsut gets on my nerves a hell lot. one day if ur not careful i'm gonna fuck it right in ur face) -get 13 points or below -get into graphic design at a poly. -enjoy my teen life
if only it were so easy as to say it..
sometimes.. being alone isn't so bad.. thats why.. i like walking home by myself.. with my mp3 plugged into my ears.. as i drift off..while walking home.. jsut.. dreaming my life away as i walk.. taking a looka t the beatiful sky and greenery.. i sometimes jsut feel like sitting somewhere under the tree and doze off..
if only life could be so carefree..
this is prolly one of the longest posts in a long time..
i guess.. it end to write alot when i'm not feeling too good.. haha...
i tuned up the drums at the studio, they rock now. heh.. (bhb.. i noe) we jammed like wahh,. shiok la.. if only we had mroe mics. but shiok! heh.. jammidy jammidy jam! can't wait for teachers day man!
ahh.. cannot go lib tml.. got some family dinner thing. haha..
hmm.. i beeter go continue my accounts revision. i really ahte it now man.. i'm so god damn blur at it now.. can't understand what the hell is going on when they ask a question la. i'm like.."uhh... so.. debit? or credit? hmm.... i think... it is................................" and yeah.. there goes my marks, down the drain...
oh wells.. i love jamming.. i lvoed jamming today. wheee! shiok man! haha.. i feel good! uh huh uh huh so good! dada so good! dadadadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. i don really noe tt song goes la.. but it's something liddat .. i think haha
we did NOT jam tt song. haha.. we jammeddd.. THIS SONG! the one tt is playing now! yes yes! this one! "don't hate me' by Ru-Fi-OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
gageedeegageedaaadaaadaaaa... wheee.. later got smallville! haha.. see yaa.. i gonna do my poa.(groans)
bye.
(pls tag if u read this...)
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pleaseshootme
Monday, August 08, 2005
haha. ok fine. i'm updating everything. =D muahaha.. i'm getting the hang of making blog skins noww. hahaha.
it looks very simillar to LNS blog.. cuz.. i made it too. haha.. heck la. at least ya'll will noe the creator of the skin ya? heh.. =P
kk.. the previous and today's jamming was damn shiok la! omg. today, got so many ppl watching us jam. the feeling shiok man! i can't wait for the auditions, and the teachers day.
i can't wait to finish up my o levels, do gigs with my band, make new fren, go poly, do graphic design, go to the beach, play acoustic guitars, have fun, buy new guitar, learn more stuff, spend money, watch movie, omg .. so fun la.. haha.. damn studies.
DAMNED POA. i don understand a shit la.. i never wanna be an accountant.. i wanna be some photo designer or what la.. design shit and all.. damn fun. haha..
i can't believe the guys outside our jamming studio today knew my name.. like how the hell?? haha but so cool. hahaha.. they KNOW my NAME.. omg.. haha.. coooll.. =P
LNS rocks. see ya'll ard.
i bought a mudvayne shirt today. =D
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
haha, went for the good charlotte concert on tuesday! muahahahaha.. shiok man i tell u.. moshing is by far the most fun-n-est sport i've ever done! haha
yeah.. but there were like.. some guys in the mosh pit.. so rough.. some ass was elbowing ppl la.. i got elbowed in the face.. and my specs broke.. hmph.. could see the rest of the concert la.. but heck,.. moshed jumped head banged all the way man.. haha.. i've got a neck ache now..
and to those tiny midget butches at the concert.. u guys suck man.. haha..
and to theat stupid malay guy who keeps saying 'eh, please la.. can u please don;'t push!? please don push ok?" yeah, to tt guy.. u suck too! fag.. haha..
oh wells.. it was great.. i smelled crap after that man.. so sweaty.. haha.. wilson and me practically stank up my dad's car.. hahaha.. but it was fun la.. so damn fun.. after my o's i'll be going to whatever other rock concert there is with a mosh pit.. and i'm bringing a hard spectacle casing, and wearing my old specs.. haha..
jamming tml! =D
Last Night's Sincerity
rocks.. haha..
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pleaseshootme
Sunday, July 03, 2005
haha.. my neck and head hurts.. i've been head bainging alot lately..
for all u peeps who don noe what's head bainging, it's not banging ur head against something.. it's like.. u knwo when u hear music? and it makes ur head move.. yeah.. head banging.. is.. rocking ur head bloodie vigourously to the beat.. muahaha.ya'll should try sia.. haha..
yeah.. so wilson and me have been banging alot lately.. hahaha., yeah.. tt sound fkn sick.. banging.. haha.. =P.. oh god.. pls.. i'm not gay.. hahaha.. ...we've been banging in the bus.. and almost everywhere we go! hahaha.. HEAD banging pls.. not.. BANG, banging.. nvm.. yeah.. haha.. i think the plp in the bus must think we're bloodie retarded.. i swear.. haha.. two idiots singing(out of tune) and rocking their heads.. hahaha.. =P
and i designed a logo for our band name.. =D.. 'Last Night's Sincerity' i think i'll do up a proper webby for it.. after my o's.. i feel like printing the logo on the black shirt all sia.. haha..
and ado intoduced me to this really nice band! i seriously never saw it comming.. haha.. it just din occur to me that she'd be interested in these kinda music.. haha.. yeah.. i think i got kinda excited to know that not all girls think my kinda music genre is crappy noisy stuff.. haha.. =P
and.. ppl.. please tag mor hor.. haha.. cuz it gives me something to do on the com when ya'll tag.. haha..can read ur posts.. and.. um.. mr/ms ';)' sorry.. i can't remember who u are.. but i know.. i remember someone who put that face on the tag board before.. but can't remember.. haha..
oh YAH... bloodie k.n.n.b.c.b jing ye.. HE SABO ME!!!!!!! my was doin perfectly fine with the haircut check in school! the teacher din catch me and my long fringe.. but nooooo.. STUPID jing ye HAD to go shout "EH, WHY U NEVER CHECK NICHOLAS CHIAA's HAIR??" walauu.. i swear.. my heart just sank... ughhhh.. but.. there was a lil bit of comfort tho..cuz when he sabo me.. alot of my class mates like.. back me up.. haha.. i don care how lame or stupid their excuses were to try and save my hair.. but.. ahha.. they're nice ppl =) unlike one of them.. grrrr..
oh wells.. i hope i get to go out on the 12th of july.. can go mosh! head bang! at the good charlotte concert! hahaha. =P yes.. i know i'm not exactly a fan of them.. but where else can u go mosh and go crazy... in singapore..? haha.. i personally odn really like the bad.. sept for the fact that the guitarist.. looks damn cool.. the skinny one.. i dunno his name.. but he looks damn cool.. haha. i think his name's billy.. basically, the guitarist who's not the brother of the singer.. haha.. =P
and.. um.. tiffany.. how'm i gonna give u the guitar? the Drawing.. OF a guitar.. haha.. not.. guitar-guitar.. nvm.. yeah .. how? haha..
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pleaseshootme
Friday, June 24, 2005
ok. i'm so not retyping that whole thing.. ugh.. blogger.. u suck..
i typed one bloodie LONG LONG LONG entry bout my whole WEEK! ugh.. and it don manage to post it.. so annoying!!
nvm.. i shall jsut say..
thank u nicky and..alicia.. for sending me that sms before my concert.. wishing me good luck.. well..thanks to nicky for sending the sms, and alicia for wishing me.. .. something like that.. anyways,, thanks.. cuz.. i was really bummed out about alot of things before the concert.. but.. that sms.. *grins.. haha.. made my day.. in a way. haha. =P
thanks gillian, prema and sAMANTHA(don ask why i spelt it that way) for commin to my concert. and gill and prema for eating the bread.. hahahaha.. -_-"
batman is cool. so don think he's not cuz he's got no super powers. he's the most hardworking and coolest superhero. period. HA hA. =P
i hope this entry gets posted.. -_-"
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pleaseshootme
Friday, June 17, 2005
ok.. i swear.. it's so much easier to write songs on how much i love her.. than to write some lousy song about stupid things or how much i din like her.. haha..
i think this song's quite nice.. i like the plucking haha..i love it. =P
i like the last part too.. damn shiok to sing.. haha. =P
i think the name 'last night's sincerity' sounds quite cool for a band name.. haha./ =P
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pleaseshootme
Thursday, June 02, 2005
and yes.. i guess if YOU hoped our little world exists.. and I hoped it exists... i'm pretty sure that.. it DOES exist! ;)
and i'm all sunburned..stupid sentosa.. ugh.. stupid band and stupid balloon hat festival.. -_-"
waste my time and energy... ugh..
hmm.. i think i should be jamming tml.. heh.. =P
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pleaseshootme
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
it's funny how my mood changes in accordance to hers.. hahahaha.. =P
and yeah.. last night was praying.. haha omg.. i was praying..=P and i started drifting off to...um.. heh.. happy times..like.. bus159, bishan mrt..city hall.. california.. ;).. haha.. kept me smiling.. i think i drifted off to there like.. for, half an hour.. and.. yeah.. had to apologize to god..for drifting off like that during the rosary.. haha.. =P.. but.. yeah, i found so muh better to let go of all my pain.. and let the happy memories.. fill me up.. =)
kk.. going to eat dinner now.. haha.. =P
i actually blogged at 6:46 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, May 30, 2005
actually.. i kinda think this happened.. and it was.. not all that bad.. that it happened.. cuz like..if it didn't happen.. yeah, she'd prolly would've gotten hell from her dad.. and maybe, who knows? worse things could've happened.. i dunno.. i'm not saying i'm glad it happened.. i'm saying that maybe.. it's not all that bad.. and now.. at least i know, that i've been sucking out alot of her money, time and energy.. and if next time.. if we ever do get back together.. i'd noe.. and i won't do tt again.. i'll make sure we don overshoot phone bills, we don loose sleep. i guess.. u could say this whole things really opened my eyes to the truth and reality, and whats really going on.. i guess i just couldn't see it before, when i was blinded by love..
today, i went jammin.. haha, quite fun.. i tried to jump with the guitar.. at the end of the song, 'in my eyes' hahaha.. and i kena scolding from the uncle again.. =P
he and his "next time, u bring ur own guitar la ah! then u want to jump u go jumb and u break ur guitar, also nvm.i don care. but u break my guitar, i tell u ah, i very painful, u also very heart pain, ur money become my money. then u know alot of ppl want to use this guitar.."
like -_-" c'mon la.. the guitar din hit anything la.. haha.. =P
yeah, then wilsong came over.. and so did basil.. basil and wilson were so fascinated with my air rifle.. hahaha.. =P should see basil.. haha. =P..
yeah.. play play play.. play the whole day la.. now i better go do my work.. i just did a few a math sums.. heh.. shiok, got them all right! muahaha.. i feel smart.....er.. haha..
yeah, then i read her entry..and.. god.. i din noe.. how much i was draining out of her.. i owe her so much.. so much.. i just hope she does real well for her O's..
and yeah, thanks wilson. for ur concern.. and ur mukus.. hahaha.. and yea la yea la.. ur guitar good la.. haha.. =P.. but mine better. =D wahaha.
kk.. i better go back to studying. i'm not gonna go through all of this for nothing.
there's a letter to alicia below....well.. sort of a letter.. more like an entry.. for her.. most probably the last one for her.. for this 6 months.. actually.. more like5 months.. or issit 4? i dunno cuz i mean.. o levels ain't ending at dec wad rite? haha.. yeah.. so yeah.. i guess that entry's gonna be the lst one for her during this period of time. cuz.. i'm not supposed to communicate with her.. so yeah.... and to all her friends.. who.. may be reading.. this..? i dunno.. um.. i'm sorry for hurting alicia..din mean to. hope ya'll forgive me.. or something..i feel terrible....umm..yeah.. umm.. i gtg.. bye..
i actually blogged at 8:21 PM
pleaseshootme
To: Alicia
yeah..ok, i guess maybe it was a mistake.. in a way.. but i just wanna say, i didn't mean to bleed u dry.. i'm sorry.. i tried asking u if i was too costly.. too time and energy consuming.. i asked u to rest, sleep.. but u never told me.. how much i've been draining out of you.. u should've told me. i would've listned.. but i'm not blaming u for anything. it's nobody's fault.. i guess it's just the way things are.. but anyhow, it's over.
i'm sorry for all the trouble i've caused, all the pain i've inflicted upon u and ur family. but yeah.. i guess maybe god did have his plans.. to open our eyes a little wider.. sigh.. it was really painful to see the truth.. to face it..
i'm sorry that this had to happen now.. with such horrible timing, i just hope that.. u'll do well.. i'm sorry alicia.. i really am..
i dunno if i could.. or if i would want to include myself in the picture, with u and ur mom and all.. after the o's.. after all that has hapened.. i don think i'm very wanted in there..
i'll just have to wait and see.. cuz..i'm not exactly ready to give it all up.
but for now.. i'm letting it go.. i hope u will too.. i don wanna cause u any further pain, further distraction, further heartaches, headaches.. i don wanna make u cry anymore.. cuz it pains me too.. to know that ur in so much pain.. cuz of me.. so please baby.. let us go.. and if somehow, someday, sometime.. we should get back together.. then let it be god who'll put us back together.. just like the way he did it the first time, on my blog..
and how he broke us up too.. screwing up the phones and all..
so if it will be his will again.. then i'd rather leave it to him.. to do it..
but for now.. i'm gonna let it go..i hope u understand why..
i'm sorry..
but you know.. after the o's, i'm really looking forward to sorting things out with u.. clear things up. cuz right now.. it's real messy.. lets clean up the mess after our o's yea?
so.. please..alicia.. i hope u will get over me.. it's not that i've gotten over u.. to tell u the truth... i'm actually still holding on.. i'm still holding on to you.. in a small way.. but i'm letting u go.. most of u.. but i can't, let all of u go.. cuz i wanna believe that, there's something.. some hope... i dunno.. somehow.. or maybe it's just that i'm not ready to let all of u go.. but i'm letting most of u go..
and it's fine with me, if u wanna let go of me entirely. i'm not gonna do anything. i don wanna: do anything, stop u, restrict u.. cuz i never wanted to, i never will.
anyways..
good luck with your studies, and all that you do. take care and god bless. i hope you'll have a great time, with all of ur friends at the movies and outings. just don think of me, and i'm sure you'll have a good time. haha.. sighhh..
take care and god bless.
-nick.
i actually blogged at 6:26 PM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, May 29, 2005
sighh.. i missed you so much today..
you know something? u've got wonderful friends to comfort you and all.. most of my friends are just.. there.. not really people whom i can confide much in.. u were the only one that i would confide my problems in.. and now.. i can't.. and yeah.. was left with just one.. yeah.. thanks gillian..
anyways, i'm really sorry for having thind happen all soon.. i didn't want it now.. cuz first of all.. u had ur mt paper on monday. i din wanna clutter ur head with any extra stuff.. secondly, i really wanted to see u.. at least just one more time, before i talk to u about it again.. but..i guess god somehow.. did it this way..
screw up the phones in my house and get my mom to pick it up.. sighh..
i almost cried today too.. but i didn't.. cuz i was out.. for tuition, and bona and raphael came over today.. i'm glad they came.. it took my mind off u for a while.. fo a while.. but nothing can ever take my mind totally off of u..
almost cried upon reading ur entry just now.. but din.. cuz bona's still here.. he's downstairs..
i never wanted it to be this way.. cut it up with a rusty saw.. i would've rather done it with a samurai sword.. clean, smooth, and painless.. and then, easily mended back..
i'm sorry baby..
and, i'm not supposed to contact u or try to contact u either.. cuz ur mom said tt she'd be really pissed with me if she found out that i was contacting you and undoing what they're trying to do..(put us on hold)..
sighh.. and dear? my mom doesn't hate you.. she's angry with you cuz she read ur messages tt morning.. i knew u were toubled and clouded up.. my mom on the other hand, can't see that.. i know it's hard to think straight with all that was happening.. i don blame u for saying some things, that weren't too nice.. but it's ok. cuz i know ur not like that.. cuz the girl i loved, i love, isn't like that.
i'm gonna miss you too.. with every beat of my heart.. i'll miss you..n love u. but now.. baby.. there's one thing i wanna ask of u.. ask of us..
that, we'll try to get over this.. and pray tt we can concentrate fully on our work. cuz, afterall, work was the reason for all this happennings.. i really hope tt u will do well tml.
i love u
i actually blogged at 7:22 PM
pleaseshootme
i missed you so much this morning.. sighh.. how to last 6 months.. i never wanted a break up.. just wondered if it would be better to put it on hold.. but whats done.. is done.. sighh.. this heartache's killing me.. i don feel angry or anything.. i just feel real empty and lonely.. you were everything to me.. u still are.. and i lost everything.. sighh.. good luck tml for ur mt paper.. i hope u'll do well.. even though this has happened.. i still love u.. i can't help it.. i love u.. and i'm sorry for ruining everything.. i'm sorry for my mom, who's so wanting to put us on hold.. i din get time to think it through.. i'm so sorry..
this morning at church, there was the pri 2 kids having thier 1st holy communion, they had all thier names printed in big.. pasted on the walls.. then i saw one name.. alicia.. sighh.. made me really miss u even more, staring at that name all the while in church.. i was thinking of all the nice times i've had with u.. ur smile, ur jumpy happy character.. the way we'd stand together and sit together.. sighh.. i'm sorry i made us end tt..
i just, hope this 6 months passes by quick, and tt we'll do real well for our O's.. and i'll try to start things anew with u.. it may not be the way it used to be.. but really.. right now, all i really need.. is.. you..
but nvm.. i'll wait.. i promised u that i'll wait.. wait this year out for u.. i'm gonna keep that promise.. my first promise to you. and i'm not gonna break it. cuz i too, don make empty promises.. or at least i try not to..cuz i don want to..
take care baby. god bless. all the best tml for ur paper.
i actually blogged at 11:43 AM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, May 28, 2005
umm.. i'm sorry too.. when i read ur entry.. i was like..
oh.. so is THAT it?
yeah.. sorry.. but.. yeah.. i did kinda get upset when u said tt about me..
and i guess we're both kinda of in the same situation.. cuz i'm hearing things from my mom, ur mom, my aunty, my dad.. and omg.. FATHER PETER WEE(from novena).. -_-" haha. cuz he always comes over..
and yea.. dear.. i never saw it ending this way either.. but.. i just hope that i don loose u as a friend.. i already lost u as a girlfriend.. i don think i could bear another loss..
i really missed talking to u today. but. ok. nvm i want u to concentrate on ur studies right now k? other wise we'll be killing ourselves for nothing.. this whole ordeal was so tt we will do better in our studies.. so.. yeah..
just wanna let u noe, i'm ok already. as in.. like.. less troubled ok.. not entirely ok. but, feelin better.. u wanna know what really made me ok? knowing that u still wanted to talk to me.. knowing u still love me.. knowing i'm not alone.. i'm put at ease.. =) thank u dear. i love u too. gotta thank kelsey too... for relaying the messages. haha.
i actually blogged at 10:23 PM
pleaseshootme
ok. i did those things.. it's not that i did not think through what my mom has been telling me ok? it's because.. when i asked u if u wanted to put it on hold.. u were so reluctant.. and u told me tt ur mom now still is ok with everything.. and i just din noe what to do.
the truth is, part of me wanted to put it on hold, for the both of us.. part of me wondered id it were ever possible, we could still stay together and go throught the whole thing together.
ur not the only one who's loosing it ok?
and why do u put all the blame on me..? i don get it.. i try.. i try.. i try my best to always make u happy.. i tried asking u. i thought that maybe if i asked u over the phone, it'd portray to u that i'm more serious abt puttin it on hold, n that way i can get ur straight reaction to the thing. and yeah, u din wanna. so, since u din wanna, i followed u.
i was talking to you yesterday, and the cordless lost connection, i tried calling u back, i din noe u called and were already on the phone with my mom.
and to hear that ur mom said to my mom that i've been seeing u after school so many times, and that i'm a bad influence who's caused u to drop ur title of a straight a student. and that i'm the cause of all the prblems over there..i was devastated.
but can't argue, cuz i do not know anything. i took it. ok?
but i don get why she thinks i've been seeing u ever so often behind her back.
she says i'm not straight with my mom. i tell u, the only time i acually lied to my mom when i went out with u, was tt thursday. i told her everything else. (of course except us making out and all la)
and i didn't think that nothing was wrong ok? this morning.. i was all clouded with thoughts, memories and worries.. what do u want me to do? i'm not perfect ok?
i can't be thinking about it the whole time too.. it's really depressing.. cuz if anything, i'd rather be laughing with u. that morning, that afternoon, that night.. i wasn't thinking about it.. i didn't want to. cuz i know i've talked to u about it before.. and tt u weren't too keen on it.. i din want to do anything.. so ok, thats my mistake. i'm sorry.. maybe i should've just kept harping on the subject.. i should've just petsering u to put it on hold.. but u see.. i wanted to put it on hold.. for our o's. but i also wanted to forget about it, for ur happiness.. apperently.. i'm quite the idiot ok? i should've just forced it..
if it makes u feel any better this morning, i cried afterwards.. after talking to u on msn.. ok? i cried like a baby in my bed.. just thinking how i acted like nothing was wrong, when everything was wrong.. why do u think i wanted to send u tt message...
and later my mom came in(i've stopped crying), she took my phone and read my messages.. urs actually.. to tell u the truth(since u want it so much allt he time), she was really angry with u.. cuz she said, u twisted alot of stuff ur mom and her talked about last night..
i dunno ok? i'm lost.. i really am..
and it was difficult for me not to do it the way i did. u, of all people, should noe i've got a big problem with forcing ppl. u were so unwilling to put us on hold.. i din noe how to just keep harping on the subject. u were always, not wanting to talk about the o's and horrible grades..
i respected ur desicions.. i followed u..
i end up betraying u.. and hutring u..
i'm really sorry for doing that. i didn't mean to. sometimes, i really don noe what u really want.. so i dunno what to do, what to say.. i'm sorry for doing u wrong and saying the wrong things to u.
i really loved u too.. i'm sure i still do.. i'll always love u.. i just hope after this 6 months.. u can understand me more..
and can u please.. tell me.. if i have made any empty promises to u..
i actually blogged at 6:06 PM
pleaseshootme
i pretty much suck...
i feel like crap right now..
how to last 6 months..
i'm gonna die..
i just wanna sleep everything away...
sighh..
i'm really sorry..
but just to say.. i did not get my mom to tell u it ok.. if anything, i didn't want her to tell u anything. i had no idea she picked up the phone when u called. and the phones went hay-wire tt night, and the cordless loss connection..
i'm sorry.
i actually blogged at 1:00 PM
pleaseshootme
yeah. it was good while it lasted. i shan't elaborate about it.
i wont be bloggin here anymore. i'll be concentrating on my studies.
bye.
i actually blogged at 10:15 AM
pleaseshootme
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
okokok. i shall blog! haha. =P
ermm.. stupid la.. fell sick on sunday. fell terribly sick.. fever and all.. omg.. practically slep the whole of sunday away. but it really helped la, felt loads better on monday, and today, hehh.. i feel damn good alr.. but i managed to convince my mom to let me skip sch today. muahahahaha.
and aiya, today school also so long.. i go, later wait i fall even more sick. cuz in school cannot keep drinking water.. cuz i can't keep goin to the toilet.. haha. =P
heh, just now, was cleaning up my face.. then, i managed to push this.. THING, out of my face, somewhere ard my eyebrows.. wahaha, so fun! the thing was quite large! and the hole left was quite small.. heh.. i found it so cool that i pushed this thing out.. i think maybe it's called a black head.. haha.
and oh, the song? heh.. it was writtien, composed, arranged, played(sept for the drums, it's computerised drummin, but i still did that myself too.) by me, for, my darling. ;) and yea, the song cuts off half way, cuz.. the stupid digi cam can only record maximum 3 mins.. hmph..
sighh.. missing u baby.. sigh. i sure hope we can go out sometime after ur mt paper.. ilub *muacks*
i actually blogged at 11:06 AM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
it's been two.. nice months alr.. only 2.. but it sure felt longer than that.. haha.. prolly cuz most of the time.. was spent waiting to see my baby.. haha.. but every time..i did get to see her.. heh.. was just.. damn good.. what else could i say? *grins..
Happy 2 month anniversary dear! =) love ya loadss..*muacks* i hope this number'll keep getting bigger and bigger.. and then.. 'smaller'.. heh.. ;)
i really hope my parents let me out this sat. =)
and i got 19/25 for my ss essay writing! muahaha.. source base sucked.. 14/25.. over all.. is till failed humanities.. stupid geog pull me down.. hmph..
nvm, shall pull up my socks. cuz i really NEED to get my points to enter jc... i ain't going ANYWHERE.. with an L1R5 of 39 pts... hahaha. =P
i actually blogged at 6:50 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, May 09, 2005
haha. been damn long since i blogged.. hmm.. it's been a rather relaxing week during my exams! hahaha. =P.. i think i'm seriously retarded.. like.. ow can i be relaxed during my exams!? haha, don ask me.. i'm just made that way.. -_-" and yeah! i broke MY record too! staying up tl 5am.. haha. but it was only cuz.. i know how boring drawing can be, and it was to keep my baby company. =) and besides.. i even had some trouble getting to sleep after that! haha.. wasn't v tired tt night..
exams are ending soon.. ends on thursday! =) can't wait til the end of this week. =) high hopes for sunday. =)
i'd really like that apartment with a nice big flat screen teevee, rockin stereo, and a nce big comfy couch.. PLUS, air con.. haha. =P
all my luv to my lil unholy angelll..*grinss.. hahaha.. =P
i actually blogged at 6:29 PM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, April 30, 2005
oh man.. today is good! =) another wonderful saturday with my baby! *grinsss*
basically, we did work at BK, went for mass, got caught by her mom at the upperfloor of church, but we managed to run downstairs later. had a nice walk to the MRT, although a little paranoid bout her mom while walking.... hahaha
yeah.. thats about "it". WONDERFUL day..
i love bus 159, i love Bishan MRT. *grinss* =)
arghh...i miss u darling! but i've got like 1 week 3days more to go.. hmph! sighh. Study hard for mid years! =) we shall try to do well kk?? =)
~.I.Love.You. ~
~To.Bitss.~
i actually blogged at 8:53 PM
pleaseshootme
Friday, April 29, 2005
heeeeee.. i think my guitar playing has improveddd!!! hahaa.. =P was doing some nonsense today on the guitar.. then when i went back to play unholy confessions.. omG!! i played it the original wayyy.. and fasterr!! hehhehehoh shit.. dad's back.. gtg.. haha..
i actually blogged at 7:17 PM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, April 24, 2005
din get a chance to blog yesterdayy,.. hmph.
let 'today' = 'yesterday'
today is happy day! =) went to watch movie, go for mass, eat with her and her mom. hahaha. k. that was kinda funny. haha. =P
yeah.. shan't elaaborate. =P..
i love u dear!
i miss u..
i actually blogged at 8:11 AM
pleaseshootme
Monday, April 18, 2005
hmm.. nothing really special happened today.. so i'll just cut to the chase.
HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR! =)) if i could, i'd wanna let everyone noe how much i love u! but yea, like u said, only u can noe how much i love u. =))
and 'cuz nothing can compare in this world to u' -the song tts playing now. the lyrics just fit! =)
i actually blogged at 7:43 PM
pleaseshootme
Friday, April 15, 2005
argh. i miss you already!! hmph. today ended real quick la.. sighh..
yeah, i ended up throwing the rest of my mos burger sprite away.. wahaha. =P hmm.. the mass was.. wierd..they call it youth mass.. but there were like so many old ppl.. (i think the old ppl're trying to be young again..) and dinner at burger king.. hmph.. purposely move place so u can see me all blurr right! huh! huh? huh? hmpH fine.. *sticks tongue out. nyah! hahaha. hmph and i think i'm gonna eat that last nugget now.. haha.. hungry.. i think i get full damn fast.. but i also get hungry damn fast. haha. =P
haha, just ate it.. it's a lil cold cuz of my aircon. but it still tastes like chicken. hahaha. =P i should bring back fries and a burger next time.. wahaha. =P
aww mann.. mid years commin.. i'll wait till they're ending. =)
i actually blogged at 11:13 PM
pleaseshootme
i miss you! i'm so glad i can get to see u tonight. even if it means going to church without aircon. haha. =P
i love this song. =) i hope u do too. cuz i love u.
kk, gonna do my amath now! sian man.. haha.
i actually blogged at 4:29 PM
pleaseshootme
Monday, April 11, 2005
OMG OMG.. wahaha.. i dunno if this is a good thing.. but i think it is.. haha. i sent my drawing of that vampire in to the "IN" supplement newspaper, and this is wad the fella wrote back to me :
Hi, What level are you in? What's title of drawing? Did you draw it yourself? What did you use to draw it? What was the inspiration? Any other interesting info about it? Thanks.
it sounds like a good thing rite? haha. i mean like, he doesn't believe i drew it! which must mean like.. wooohooO!! hahaha. =P eh, did anybody see it in the newspapers today> i din get to go to school today.. stupid band competition, i was in the S.C.H since morning til night. i was out from 5 to 9.. omg..darn tired now, but quite happy! =) hahaha.. i hope the drawing's in the newspaperss.. haha. =P
i wanna see what the fella from the papers has to say back to me. hahaha. =P told him
i'm sec4, i drew it in chinese class, so u could say that boredem inspired me cuz chinese bores me nuts. i used a mechanical pencil, eraser, A4 paper and my index-finger to smudge the carbon ard the paper to draw the vampire. so u could say the drawing's called "Vamipre".
oh shit.. i forgot to add interesting info.. =( hmph.. darn it.. i could say that lester took it away from me right after i took photo of it. hmph. idiot. always taking my nice drawings. haha. =P
and omg, it's been like.. so long since i last met up with u. i really miss you too! *sighhss..
i actually blogged at 9:25 PM
pleaseshootme
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
hmm. well.. yeah.. i think me not being able to complete my amath homework yesterday night really irritated me.. haha.. figured i've never actually been doin any work this year.. and how i was kinda actually PROUD of it.. -_-" total idiot eh? hahaha. =P
yeah, went to school in the morning, dam sian la, feel like shit and all, cannot do work properly.. so, i decided to actually ATTEND the mass in the morning, yeah, it 's for the pope, but, it was the only mass available in school at that time. so.. yeah.. went and prayed for myself.. sorry god, i forgot about the pope this morning.. sighh..
yeah, at least my modd picked up through out the day. cuz i actually was able to pass my chinese compo!! wahaha. =P then i finished the chinese letter writing.. heh. got my sis to pick my up from school, cuz i had to rush home and go to my tuition teacher's place for amaths. sch finish at 330, tuition's at 4. omg. damn rush la.. yeah, was aLMOST falling asleep during tuition, but i really had to keep myself up la, laggin darn far behind everybody else. then after tuition, bought an icecream. and took the bus home.( i really missed my dear today, was looking at ur chocolate pic in the bus. haha. =P)
then i got home, turn on the com, to try and enter my vampire drawing into the "IN" newspaper in the straights times(it's in the life! section). haha, decided to do something with my art. haha. =P anyways, after doing that, i actually managed to NOT chat over msn with my friends. so i can go so my work. haha. yeah, did my math homework. was doing my amath homework after my emath one, then i got stuck at a question, so took a break, here. haha.
sigh, i still got my english homework, and geography. damn it, i want to do my geog now la. but stupid me, leave the book in school. ArgH.. -_-"
yeah, i've actually done a proper blog entry.. like after how long man.. haha. =P listening to five for fighting song's ont he com now.. the fella's voice is really soothing. =)
i actually blogged at 9:19 PM
pleaseshootme
Friday, April 01, 2005
ah, been long since i've blogged.
not much has happened, altho i DID get a new phone! wahaha. =P i love it man.. k700i. hahamy sis bought for me the phone, and i also got myself a new plan, 1000free sms. wahaha. shiok eh? haha
um.. today, i saw those two little ij girls at the bus stop again.. haha, so cute! =P i bet they'll grow up and look darn pretty la.. haha. it's quite obvious la, and their indian-eurasians somemore. cuz in the bus i saw the name tag.. 'sonia ananda'. cool name. and omg.. so youg already got leather wallet and handphone! wa lau eh.. haha.
hmm.. i pon band today again! haha. but i initially WANTED to go for band today u know.. but like.. 16 ppl were'nt going today.. so like.. why the fk should i go? haha. so yeah. i'm home early today!! =)) maybe i'll call u early todayy.. =) hahaha
i actually blogged at 4:13 PM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, March 27, 2005
haha, oh well.. i worry for nothing again.. hahahaha. sighh.. stupid head.. hahaha.. lalaallaa
HAPPY EASTER!! =))
i ate chocolates.. i think i'm growing fat all over again.. darn it.. hahaha.. needa go exercise man..
i actually blogged at 12:31 PM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, March 26, 2005
mental block.
i actually blogged at 8:55 AM
pleaseshootme
Friday, March 25, 2005
hmm.. i worry too much. hahaha. =)
called u just now, and i lost all my worries. haha. ur wonderful i tell u! =) i bet it's that laughter..haha=P i love u dear.
anyways.. i found out that morpheus cheated me! hmph.. it sed that this song was by senses fail! but.. i found out today it's by, SENSE FIELD.. haha.. oh wells.. i bet there a whole other bunch of ppl who've got it wrong like me! =P hahaha..
and bona came to my house just now.. omg.. he can sing darn high la! argh.. this ain't fair! i wan't to sing at all those notes! hmph..sighh..
then i sent bona off to the bus stop.. well, yeah, i thought maybe it'll be a good idea to use my bro's blades to send him off. then i can get home faster.. haha.. wad a fool i was.. haha, (cuz i havent bladed in like.. dunno how many donkey years la! the last time was was like.. pri school la! aiyo.. i was so unsure how to brake..) i was like.. holding bona to slow myself down.. ahaha. look damn stupid la.. then on the pavement.. sudden;y got one small steep slope.. alamak.. kalang kabo, almost fall sia.. ahha. so stupid.. ahahahah.. oh wells.. so i bladed home after sending him off.. omg.. the slope.. so long! damn scary.. haha. but.. i made it la.. but.. next time.. i'm not gonna use those THINGS to send ppl off.. i'd rather just take a long walk. haha.
and my teacher caught me for my fringe!! *bawls... i don wanna cut it!! dammit! fk.. i've been waiting for it to grow and grow.. now it's at my tip of my nose.. so shiok.. but darn.. sighh.. nvm la.. haha.
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pleaseshootme
well.. i got to go out with my dear girl yesterday! but sadly it was against my mom's will.. cuz my mom's like so holy.. don let me go out for ppls birthday jus because its holy thursday..sighh.. yeah, so i ended up telling my mom i had some talk in school until 5.30. so i managed to get out of school at 2.30, meet my dear at 3.15 at orchard mrt.(u were so blurr! =P)then ate at delifrance, and gave her, her birthday present.. hmm.. then we walked ard, then i had to rush back to school. sighh.. while walking.. i kept looking at her hand.. i wanted to hold it.. but my stupid hand won't budge! argh.. i wanna turn back time and get things right...but.. sighh.. yeah.. then when she sent me off at the train.. she came up so close.. i wanted to hug her good bye.. but.. my body agn so frikin retard.. never move.. ok.. i noe i'm such a dissapointment.. whack me if u wanna.. i deserve it. haha. and i was so distant yesterday! she could tell! omg.. i'm so sorry baby.. i was so caught up in ur hands.. and if my mom'll find out tt i lied.. sigh.. i make such a lousy bf.. but i still love you. =)
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
ok.. i'm a little mad... heh. =P cuz if u look at the time i'm blogging this.. it's really quite retarded.. hahahaha, but who cares? heh. you know wad day it is today??? =D haha, it's an angel's birthday! =)
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY MY LIL GUAI ANGEL! =)
haha, yeah, i woke up today at 5am to do this special entry, cuz i couldn't do it at 12am cuz my parents were at home and they were at the com area.. haha, i think YOUr still sleeping, you pretty thingg. =)) hahaha, don think u'd be awake anyways.. cuz u shouldn't be! but in 25 mins time you would be.. hahaha
anywayss, i hope YOU have a nice day in school today, with no headaches or tiredness or whatsoever. =) and i hope tml u also won have any sickness.. haha. whee! thursday's just a day away! how cool's that? =) haha
well, i guess i'm going back to sleep.. wahahaha.
ps. i love ya! =)
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
Ohh, maaaaaaannnnn.. darn it.. why must have tuition..?? argh.. haha, spoilerr.. fat lard's a spooIIIleerrrr. wahahaha. =P.. nah, shan't be mean today! cuz i'm still happy! and i was awake during mass today! =)
i like the red leave background thing! photoshop's just like the coolest picture-program-thing! hahaha. =P..
tuition's at 2.30.. sighh.. i better go eat my lunch noww.. i smell something nice.. haha, some chilli thing.. i think. haha. i hope my teacher doesn't catch me for my hair tml..haha.. i wanna keep my fringe as long as possible. wahaha, cant wait til it grows til my mouth or something.. haha, the coolest thing'll be that it'll be THAT long while i'm still in school. wahaha.. well.. thats IF i managed to keep it til that long without getting caught.. wahaha..
thursday's taking forever to come.. sighh.. hahaha. =P
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how much happier can i get...?? hahahaha, goodness me.. i feel like i'm floatinggg.. wheeee!! =) i must thank mark a gazillion times for sending that first message for me! and then i've to thank god for letting me take the risk of asking u the question, and thank god for letting u come into my life! =)) oh mann.. thursday's damn far away.. and i think i'm gonna continue smiling all the way til then! hahahaha, cuz u make me so happy! =))) what a bore my life would've been this year if it wasn't for you! =) oh man.. my mom's home.. can't let her see this.. hahahaha. =P
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
i love this song. =) i took 1 and a half hours trying to find a place to upload this song, and upload it here. so i hope ya'll like it too!
it's just a really nice song. =)
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Friday, March 18, 2005
haha, you know something?? i love this holiday. =) hahaha, so many darn cool things happened. like mark came to stay over, then we did so much shit and all.. hahaha.. yeah, thursday i went out for a movie with a few peeps too! i feel like skipping chem today too! hahaha
and i'll never forget 18th march 12:21:11am. =) made me smile all through the night! i think i 'm still smiling! although this may be a bad year, i'm more than willing to wait it out! =) hahaha.
i thank god for everything he's done for me. i feel i haven't thanked him enough for all the wonderful things he's added into my life, i should've realised it a long time ago.
haha, my heart's still pounding a little. you should've felt my heart last night! haha, beat beat beat so hard and fast! and i was just sitting down there at the funeral wake talking to mark.. and yOUU..=))
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
came back from camp yesterday!
uh, camp was shit. boring. if my friends and i din do all the stuff we did. hahaha yeah, the camp's schedule was so boring. haha. first day, mark and i went for stations. we left camp at 5.30, and came back at 12.30! wahahahaha. yeah, we did go to stations, but.. we also wandered ard for a really long time! haha.. then when at lights out, my group of friends and i went to make alot of noise at the npcc's camp site. haha, screaming( not the high pitched one, oh wait.. there was one, marc who screamed like the woman kena rape liddat.. hahahaha, cuz he's so small and voice ahven't break yet. haha), yeah anyways, we made alot of noise and all.. haha damn fun.. then we managed to get only 1hr of sleep tt day. haha.
second day.. boring la.. water games and stupid games the whole day, we just slacked la.. heck everything. haha.nothing much.sept for when we all fall in damn late, we were "punished".. by cleaning up the study area.. haha, like right... tts such a punishment.. haha, as long as gang's doing the punishment together, everything's fun! hahahaha. we ended up playing with water and splashing the buckets of water on the floor calling ourselves bangla workers. hahaha, then played with the mop and all. ahhaha
third day was sunday! haha, went for sunday mass from 9 to 4! hahaha. like as if mass's so long hor? hahaha.. so nothing much happened til the promotion exercise thing.. before that, our drum major broke his toenail cuz he was running then his toe rammed into the curb and yeah, alot of blood and all.. so yes, i admit, he's got endurance to march all the way to the promotion room with tt bloody toe(as in alot of blood, not scoldin his toe) and do all the standard millitary procedures to recieve his rank. but hey, wads with the " I want ALL of u to stand up and clap for wilsong when he comes in! he's making his way here EVEN with the injury!" well.. yeah, then wadda bout my friend sean who also broke his toenail on the same day and was standing there giving out the ranks to everybody.. he also broke his toenail cuz the metal plate in his shoe caught hold of the nail while he was running on it came off half way.. he wasn't complaining, nobody clapped for him while HE walked everywhere else with HIS injury.. ah, this band is stupid i tell u.. bunch of boot lickers..
and i also din get promoted cuz this year i came to abnd late many times.. but yeah, i came late but still wayy early to be ablt to play the drums and WAIT fot the band to finish setting up their instruments.. well.. ok, nvm, i'm late, so don promote me. it's ok, i'm totally alright, cuz it's my fault anyways.. but howcome the guy who always PON.. PON.. SKIP! band, get his stupid double promotion?? oh yeah,.. i forgot, cuz he sucks up to everybody.. and i always hang out with my friends in band and all..
mark also din get the section leader post cuz of his attitude problems.. but u see.. u compare him to the newly appointed SL, i tell u.. they totally screwed the appointing up.. the newly appointed SL, Jeffery.. can't even say hanger in english.. always speaking chinese. how the hell to teach malays and indians?? not to mention, chinese who can't really understand chinese.. and that guy, also skip band practice EVERY band practice. and just cuz he suddenly come back to band for a few practices after getting scolded, they say he's a role model of turning over a new leaf.. and they feel he's capable.. wad shit all.. he can't control his volume(playing his trumpet)..
ahh, we were all really pissed with how the band does things la.. and how they treat us like shit. and saying how we're not indispensable and we can be replaced anytime.. HAH.. lets see wad u say when we suddenly don turn up for SYF. i'll see ur gloomy faces when u don have anyone to play the snare, tambourine and trumpet solo for singapore raphsody and no ont he play the snare and bass drum for american riversongs. and also, no one to clean u the sound for the trumpets cuz mark's one of the better off players there. hahaha, dumb asses. you can kiss ur smelly gold medal goodbye and let it be a dream and nothing more.
ah.. ok, enough said bout band. haha, yesterday licia's friends were like.. all crazy.. hahahaha. =p
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
haha, finally updating again..
i think i'm jamming too many times.. hahaha, i jammed on monday, wed and today.. omg.. tts THREE times in a week! haha, but how not to?? it's soo darn fun! like, there's dunno how many thousandsongs to learn and jam! can never get bored i tell ya! haha.. only problem la.. no proper singer.. haha..
i GOT 11/12 for my ss test! wahahahaha. sigh.. i wish my parents's "encouragement" talks could be as long as the super short 'Good! i'm happy for u" phrases give me when i score.. like yeah.. they just blabber and blabber and nag and nag when i don't do well.sigh.. haha
hmm.. wad else happened..during the week..?
oh yeah, got a new guitarist for my band! haha. =D he's good man.. loads better than me! haha, damn fun to jam with him and wilson. haha, can't wait for my school's band competion, haha.. get to do my first gig. =D i'm a lil scared.. but heck. don care! haha.
aye.. my mom's so naggy.. fine.. i'll go shower now.. pfth. can't i just use this thing for a lil while more?? hahaha.
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
sighh.. i'm so bored.. i'm blogging.. haha
GOT TUITION IN A FEW MINS! ARGGh.. so sian..
wells.. let's see.. wednesday, we had a half day at school, cuz the previous year's sec four's did pretty well and the principal was damn happy abt it la. haha, so after school, i went jamming for TWO WHOLE HOURS! wahaha. shiok. yeah, then had to take 74 to the bowen bus stop. and of course take 854 home right?? wrong.. i saw the 854 bus arriving.. then i got up stand there wait for the bus to arrive, and it did! natuarlly of course.. but i din realise i boarded wrong bus! like how the hell did 55 get infront??? and i'm not THAT blur ok.. if was lookin up, i would've seen the bus wasn't 854.. but i was looking at my phone!
well, ok, maybe i'm a little blur to take like 3 stops to realise i was in the wrong bus.. wahahahaha. =p and i tell youuu.. the worst part's that my ezlink's value was minus 25cents and i din have enough money to take 55 back to the bowen bus top and then take 854.. so.... so had to walk lor! walk for one bloodie hour man. wah, that day my legs damn pain. haha. feet la, not legs, my feet were damn painFUL. -_-" my dad keeps telling me: "it's painFUL, painFUL, not pain! u can't go and say i'm very water.. u say i'm very wet.." haha. ok, nvm tt's besides the point. haha. and anyways.. that 2hrs of jamming really wasn't good for my ears.. my ears were ringing for the longest time! Ringing from jamming ALLL the way til i went to sleep.. omg.. haha.
K, then on Thursday, my mom din let me go join the RC music Ministry..yeah, i was pretty frustrated and all.. cuz they keep telling me how i can't mange my time, i can't do this and that, look at my room.. and all. but hEY! i was cleaning up my room yesterday!(wednesday), but cuz i had so much junk, i couldn't clean up ALL 3 years of junk in ONE night.. so obviously i haven't finished cleaning up la, yeah, but when i entered my room after school on thursday.. everything was different! sOMEbodiee went to rearrange all my stuff.. like wtf.. i spent the whole of last night arranging my stuff the way i wanted it then u go and rearrange everything the way YOU want it?? crap la, then u still don let me join the music thing.. wah lauu.. i was really damn frustrated la.. and u know who helped me vent my frustration?? hahaha, it's.. none other than.. MR.SOAP! haha, yeah, i found this bar of soap in my room..i just threw the fkn thing at the wall.. then the shape of the oval thing changed.. but it insulted my strength! haha.. din dent so much.. so i just went abt throwing that soap around my room with all my strength.. ahahah.. the shape's damn funny now! hahaha. yeah, it cooled me down..ALOT. i thank mr.soap, for being there for me.. hahahahaha. and he also made my guitar strings alot smoother! sexy bug's got smooth curves, and smooth strings! wahaha. =P
heh, okayy.. i better go for tuition noww.. sighh.. my ezlink's still minus 20cents. haha.
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Monday, February 21, 2005
wah, today was so pissed with band.. cuz they asked me to come, demonstrated for the sec1's, the drums and all.. and so came for band la, (being Section leader all, must take some responsibility la) so, yeah, go there, wait for like 1 1/2 hoursm then percussion section's turn to demo, guess wad, the bloodie teacher was the one demonstrating.. so i was like.. ah, ok la, like tt i can slack.. then afterwads, he says i don need to stay already.. so like.. why the hell do u need me to come for then?? bloodie friggin waste of my time.. so i just walked off take my bag, go bus stop. reall damn pissed la.. wasted 2 hrs of my time . like, i cancelled my optical appointement(i was supposed to go get my specs today), and i had to leave my friend's house early to attend band. wad shit all man...
yeah, but in the bus, there were these two ij pri girls.. haha, so cute, dunno wad playing all those silly pri sch games la.. hahaha. reall sia, damn cute (i'm not a pedophile), yeah, then i kinda wasn't so pissed..haha. wah but the stupid old lady in the bus damn shit la, don want to move her arm to hold the higher part of the bar, the poor girls was struggling to grab wads left of the lower bar.. stupid hag can still give the irritated look at the girl.. goodness, ...look wad shitholes singaporeans are... sigh.. i bet it's because of they way we're taught..i mean like... argh.. damn hag. haha. but anyways, yeah, the little girl was still smiling and laughing la, despite the shit blocking her..
ok, alicia, u have to update ur blog now. wahahaha. =p
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
OKOK! hahaha. i've learnt UNHOLY CONFESSIONS! WAHAHAHAHAHA!! haha. kay, i'm mad.. but really damn shiok.. n the second recording on this blog's unholy confessions.. the first recording's still 'please'. u can stop the second one to hear the first one.. or wadeva.. i trust ur smart enough . hahaha.
k bout this song tt i did the cover on.. i played it on a folk guitar(supposed to b electric, but my bro's guitar's string snapped) plugged into an amplifier, tts y the playing damn bad man.. the strings damn hard to press.. and i forgot the lyrics during the song too.. hahahaha.
(the band) ----------------------(the song) avenged sevenfold - unholy conffesions.
yeah, i din play the full song. cuz the file'll be too big then take damn long to download.
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
kay. don laff!! my singing's horrid.. haha.. but yeah.. heck la.. haha..
this is the first recording of my song with the computer generated drums adn my bro's electric guitar. ..uh, excuse the chorus.. it's really out of tune.. haha.. i can't reacht he note.. heh..sounds like it can break glass man.. and i kinda screwed the lyrics during the song.. kept forgeting.. so there're aome parts where i just went "dadadada, lamdalala" kinda thing.. hahaha..
-Please-
[Verse 1]
When whill you, stop telling me how to lead my life?
When will I be able to, make up my own mind?
Why isit when i speak my my mind, you are always there,
putting me down, shutting me up? i think i'm breaking down (kay so i screwed this part up totally. "put-TINg" like.. hahahahaha sounds so dumb)
[Verse 2]
Everyday's the same bloodie story, you can't think of anything else..
You throw your pain, your uncertainties, throw it in my face.
But how much of this oressure can i hold?
i think i'm breaking down..
[Chorus]
Please don't push me(x2) I odn't know how long i can stand (omg, i can feel the glass breaking!!)
Please don't push me(x2) i can feel i'm going to snap! (i really don noe how long i can stand..this part is horrid!!)
(first verse) (ok, so i'm lazy to write a 3rd verse)
(chorus) (recording ends here)
-guitar solo-( =D )
(chorus)
Sorry for any inconvenience caused to your listening ear during the chorus (prolly the whole song too)..and if the glass broke..not my problem.. who ask u on the speaker so loud..
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
this is the baboon lyrics.. hahahaha
A Baboon Broke My spoon -
I found a spoon, a plastic spoon,
on the floor, left to doom,
Picked it up, it's so bendable,
This is my favourite plastic spoon
It's so nice, and flexible,
i bend it everyday, and eat from it,
i don't know what i'll do,
if anything should happen to my plastic spoon..
-(chorus)-
I lent, my spoon, to a, big baboon!
it looked so funny with that stupid spoon,
til it pressed too hard...
til it broke my heart,
to see him break my plastic spoon
Oh~ That baboon broke my favourite spoon,
my plastic spoon, my lovely spoon!
The times we shared, the food it held..
That bloodie thing broke my plastic spoon!!
(chorus)
(bridge)
Why, did i let, that thing hold my spoon?
what a fool, no covered in drool..
a baboon (x {as many times as u wish})
A baboon broke my plastic spoon!!
(chorus)
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i'm going crazeeeeeeeeee. hahaha
cuz i think i like my song alot.. hahaha.. the tune like v nice.. hahaha..
wheee.. haha.. the type of lyrics's cuz.. like.. um.. haha.. um..alicia's conflict with her mom?? hahaha.. i dunno.. but.. like.. it was like.. uh.. i dunno how to say.. it jus flowed out alot easier writing about being sick and tired of something.. haha..rather than.. other stuff.. haha.. i dunno la.. haha.. but i like the tune.. got solo somemore. hehe.. ahaha. ah..
hahaha, the band concert got damn alot of prety girls man.. hahaha.. =p.. AND thats ALL.. don go thinking funny stuff again.. -_-" hahaha
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
sigh, it's 7.30 already.. i guess i ain't going for the rc idol thing.. grr.. damn body..haha.. sigh..
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Friday, January 14, 2005
Omg, shit. i'm soo sorry man.!!
HOWCOME I MUST GET THIS SICK NOW!? WHY NOW!?... ugh..
yeah, i'm sick, quite bad la, body ache, fever, cough all. deels like crap, but i wanna get healed by tml! then can go to the rc idol thing! agh, my mom just won allow la.. cuz i've been over stressing out my body these past few days..(bloodie band! end so late!).. yeah, so now i feel like shit... how!? how to go to the rc idol?
haha, alicia.. don kill me! hahaha.. spare me the 3inch platforms. hahaha. =p
and u noe wads worse?? i lost my fone.. like shiiit man! todya's gota be my most UNlucky day!.. gawd.. sobs.. i won be replying anybody till monday, or tuesday. ard there la. cuz i need to go n buy a new fone.. n i can't let me parents noe.. sigh.. i'd die if they found out i lost it.. sigh.. okok,... i needa go lie down agn.. my darn body's aching, like mad!.. specially my legs.. wah.. damn pain sia... *sobs*... haha.. pfth..
*prays*, please god, cure me by tml, n let my mom allow me to go out... PLEASE!!!.. thnks.
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
GAWD... i love that picture! =D hahaha.. can u believe it? i drew that!! hahaha.. damn tyco sia! damn shiok! i'd say he looks bloodie real man! gaahahaha.. i mean like, omg, llok at his eyes! the nose! the bloodie lips are so like. INproportion for the first time!! heh heh// hahaha.. and shit man, his hair's nice...i still like the eyes da best! hee.. hahaha..
and see? there's nothing wrong with black eyeliner and black lipstick! hahaha.. pfth... heh.. wah shiok.. the drawing's damn nice. hahaha. =p
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Sunday, January 09, 2005
hello! hahaha, yeah, been damn long since the last update eh.. um.. school started, and it sucks man.. but i love the wake up time! =) 8.30 go to school! hahaha, got time to play guitar all before going to school. haha, but when go band, school end damn late.. come home shit tired sia..
i think eve doesn't want me to play drums for church u noe.. haha.. cuz she says that rc don have a drum set. but i swear, i heard one the other day, n SAW on confi day. haha,, but heck la. i just think only la.. don wanna jump into onclusions. hahahaha..
and i some how love band. only for one reason. ; it gives me aot of time to jam at the studio at serengoon! hahahaha.. cuz after school, i n my fren got like a 1 n a half hours before band starts. haha. shiok sia.
yeah, yesterday went ou wid this girl..n like.. very hard to talk sia. haha, cannot think of anything good to say.. all stupid useless questions.. hahaha.. i think she felt the same too.. well, at tleast thats what she said la.. haha..only time she laghed was cuz i made fun of the baby next to us at macdonalds. hahaha.
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
BACK! from AUCKland not OAKland.. oakland's in california.. hahaha sorry, i spelt wrongly when telling ya'll.. hahaha.. so yeah.. went to auckland, newzealand.. nice weather..
aeroplane flight was damn shiok, mainly cuz firstclass. hee.. DON start cursing n swearing how rich i am.. cuz i'm NOT. the tickets were free.. their free til i'm 21. =D cuz i saved the boss from drowning once.. hahaha.. like rEAL.. haha, my dad's a pilot tts why. so in the flight i watched movies allt he way.. slept a lil in the first flight. watched all the way throught the second flight. shiok. watch so many movies.
wah i tell u, the hotel room is fantastic! got kitchen summore! like REAL kitchen, not those half dressing table, half dining table.. down there, dressing table is dressing table, kitchen table is kitchen table, like, kitchen sink, fridge, dishwasher, oven, microwave all.. haha
but we ate out. so not much use of the kitchen. heh
on the first day, i saw this sum 41 live in tokyo dvd.. i bought it. then left with like. so lil cash.. i jus had to see yellowcard's live concert dvd too.. damn pek chek, cannot afford.. haha..otherwise can buy, burn then give to alicia. haha.. sigh..
ok, so eventually bought some sovenirs(i still dunno how to spell tt friggin word), then on the last day i remembered why i felt something was missing.. i forgot to buy gillian n myself a souvenir! hahaaha.. so i went to some close by souviner shop n wa lAU ehhh.. the sales girl damn pretty.. hahaha.. korean or jap? i dunno. (newzealand had a real bunch of asian tourists n p.r's there).. but pretty, so i don care. haha.ya la. bought 2 stuff, n sadly, i had to be served by the stupid lau kuey bu. sian. the jap/kor girl was somewhere else in the shop. haha.
so then came back to singapore, n started smsing away again... hahaha. =p
sum 41 rocks. -
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Monday, December 20, 2004
hello...
after looking at all ya cards... i feel that mine's so inferior.. -_-" hahaha.. like, so plain.. like, black ink on paper.. but, i guess,.. cuz i like black n white? haha.. sorry, maybe next time i'll do a better one.. n yah, i haven't sent the cards yet.. i WILL tomorrow.. issit too late? i hope not man.. haha..=p
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
kay, i hafn't blogged in so long.. so i shall update . =)
i bought the sims 2 recently, haha, damn fun. =) so far the oni com game i haven't got sick of.. but i'm getting tired, cuz my stupid sim, she keeps wanting to haf "woohoo's" which in our terms mean sex... yeah.. n like.. she's been having it like dunno how many friggin times a day, with all tt wierd nonsense.. noe she bloodie wants to "woohoo" with 10.. TEN bloodie people..like.. u noe how difficult it is to get the sim to have TEN loves.. omg.. can die.. mus keep flirting and all that nonsense.. wa lau... damn sian.. stupid hooker, i raised a stupid hooker.. hahaha
hmm wad else... yeah, i finished the letters, but haven't posted.. ard when should i post ah?
i went to sweelee today, with 3 of my friends, haha, damn fun;
we initially went there to jus look look, waste time so can go home alittle later, but the rain la.. so had to stay there for quite sometime, then i picked up this really tiny guitar, so cute, haha, n my friend took a normal sized one la, so at first i was jus teaching him how to play 'dammit'( the song that's playing now on my blog), then the other two got bored, took a few tambourines, a stool n we started jamming 'dammit'.. haha, damn friggin fun i tell u, cuz we jam damn softly la.. then as usual, since we're not paying customers, the stupid uncle keep come n jee siao us, "boy arh, nnnOO jamming here pls", so we took the tambourines away, jammed softER... "u guys ah, this place caaaNOT jam u nOE..u want to test guitar can test, but nnOO jamming".. oh fine, we removed the stool as well, so we just sat there playing guitar til the rain ended.. HAR HAR, as if,.. damn uncle must come jee siao 2more times, "and please don sit on the amplifiers".. so we sit on the floor... then.. "please don't sit on the floor".. so like, where the fk, u want us to sit? u only got on bloodie stool.. yeah, we left the shop, .. u noe, he could have just told us to get out, instead of making us move ard like idiots.. haha.. i feel like buying the $55 tiny acoustic guitar from the other shop.. haha.
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
hahahaha, i did it! =) heh heh.. so cool rite? i did this midi by myself! so shiok.. can u hear the drums? i din play it.. but i wrote it.. so like.. it's a one man cover for dammit. hahaha.. n the trumpet's really nice i'd say! =) haha, i'm lazy to do the interlude la.. so jus end at the secong chorous. hee.. but nice rite? =) hahahaha.. i think it sounds like the acoustic christmas version. haha, the drums, i like the fills! i wonder if i can play wad i wrote.. haha..wah.. song man..
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*PANTS FURIOUSLY!!!!!!!* wahhh pianngg....
jus ran from the mama shop which i bought the stamps from ($2.30) all the way back to home! wah lau eh.. STUPID RAIN! can't god hold it jus a few minutes??? gosh, i ran through the damn rain n collapsed upon reaching shelter.. n boy was i exhasted, ok la, it shouldn't be THAT tiring but cuz i'm sick.. n i was wheezing while i ran.. wa lau.. feel like shit man.. at least my mp3 was dry! =) my cd player cloth's good man.
YEAH SO... u better like the letters! or at least appreciate the effort put into it.. hahahaha.. jkjk..u can hate it for all i care, i'm jus glad i'm on santa's "nice" list. =) hahaha.
k, i'm gonna paste the stamps i bought jus now.
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
wah, today so boring.. ok la.. so i watched a movie.. but still.. so boring.. sigh.. yeah i recieved alot of money alltogether for my birthday n all.. but.. i somehow wish i had company, more than money.. so lonely at home now.. have to eat pizza by myself.. sigh..my brother also go out for his carolling.. so now i'm like jus waiting for the pizza man to come while i listen to my goth music.
yeah, thanks gillian for the lovely card. =) hahaha, yesss, the angels were very nice, n the christmas tree too. haha.i hope u like the jake's i drew for ya. haha.
ok, so i found out it costs 22cents to send a letter. haha.
HMV DOESN'T HAVE GOTHIC CD'S ??? sigh.. yeah i went to check out HMV jus now.. n they're jus plain pop to metal.. where's the goth?? wa lau.. stupid shitt..
sigh.. so boring.. *through the darkness, breaks the light, through the light on ending pain, define the wretched ones, til the darkness comes....* -AFI : The Lost Souls
i's hearing tt.. haha.. it's not goth la afi, afi's punk.. i'm hearing a mixture of punk n goth now... n metal, i think.. breaking benjamin's ard metal..
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
haha, i got the vid of my drum solo. i wanna see.. come ask me. i can send over msn. hahaha but like shit...
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
Can u hear itt!? can u hear it!? That amazing rush, that wonderful sound, tt oh so very symphonic goth metal band, u gotta download it first! =) c'mon c'mon c'mon, say ittt, sayy it, it's gotta be damn nice rite! c'mon, if ur a girl, u can sing along! it's pretty hard for guys to sing along but heck! =)
Is it true what they say,
are we too blind to find a way?
Fear of the unknown clouds our hearts today.
Come into my world,
see trough my eyes.
Try to understand,
don't want to lose what we have.
We've been dreaming but who can deny,
it's the best way of living between the truth and the lies.
Chorus: See who I am,
break through the surface.
Reach for my hand,
let's show them that we can free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands,
this is not the end.
Fear is whithering the soul at the point of no return.
we must be the change we wish to see.
I'll come into your world,
see trough your eyes.
I'll try to understand,
before we lose what we have.
We just can't stop believing because we have to try.
We can rise above their truth and their lies.
Repeat chorus
I hear their silence preaching my blame.
Will our strength remain if their power reigns?
Repeat chorus
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
Hello hello! hello!
i'm so happy, cuz nowadays i'm not so free anymore!
i'm busy! hahahahaha, so shiok. sounds totally wierd but yes,
i'm happy cuz i'm busy! i'm happy cuz i cannot stay at home and do nothing,
i'm oh so very busy nowadays. Aren't ya'll oh so very happy for me?
don need to entertain me in msn so much nowadays. =)
and i can't wait fer tuesday, hahaha, band exchange comin...=)
oh kay.. so today wasn't all tt fun, had to sit in the sg indoor stadium for so many hours.. wah piang, so boring(no offence, god, but really, i couldn't help myself..), i kept dozing off when ever we could sit down. haha. yeah i went for the lourdes experience thing.. i skipped the procession tho. couldn't tahan. =), came back n ate chicken chop with my brother. he ate so much mroe than me, n he's still not full, while i'm stuffed! wahhh..
k, i predict tml i won't have anything to do. unless something comes my way n gives me something to do. i'll be damn happy then! =) haha.
ok, i jus realised i've gotta write my address on the back of the envelope n the reciepient's address on the front. haha, see i'm learining! =)
goth still rocks, ya'll should go listen to symphonic goth metal! or any goth band for tt matter. but i'll hafta warn u, death goth metal's really scary, as in, REALLY scary, the vocals.. are really really scary, as in, like, the singer sounds like a real ghost, something like that. but i find it damn cool still, cuz he's gotta be a damn good singer to be able to sing, talk, n "scream". =) all in all, goth still rocks.
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
Wah, today did sit ups.
hope tml i don hafta roll outta bed agn! >.< hahaha
Nat: i think the koyok-ness in ur link was the lingering space bar tt was infront rite? yeah, i took it away liao? happy? hahaha n eh, u've seen my blog b4? then last time y never tag!? haha, ah n yeah last time was black, not that i don lke black, i LOVE black, loads. but it's not a v gd colour for a background la. the white background's easier to read n it look cool too! =) heh
Wah, now adeline's asking me to draw a pic for her... first gillian, now adeline... wonder hu's next.? hahaha, actually, i really don mind, cuz then i'll haf something to do during my nites. =)
And Have i said this? Gothic rocks!
specially Symphonic goth Metal! tts a genre btw, not a band.
the band i dwnld jus now's 'within temptations' n they're bloodie good! the girl singer's voice i nicee! hahaha, their song's got this really nice Olden time(vampire like) background tune. hahaha. i gotta go buy their other albums. cuz i can't download the rest.. i oni managed to download one album.
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Wednesday, December 01, 2004
ok, watched idol, n dick lee's a dick.. sing like shit.. dunno how he compose song sia.. sounds like crap..
yah, i managed to download
AFI - Black Sails Into The Sunset (wah, damn shiok man!)
Breaking Benjamin - We're not alone here. (also DAMN shiok!)
don care! i'm gonna get my mudvayne!
haha it's 87% now..
wah, today's dec 1st! can start sms'ing agn, hahaha..
Thomas Lang is a bloodie drum god! and he's only of the bloodie age of 34! goodness me..
umm, wad else happened today.. nothing much la.
bye.
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I stand corrected, mamamia was quite a blast. hahaha, had some pretty good laughs at the show.. n it's a lil obscene.. (obscene gestures), but it was still great la, the show n all.
n today was a GOOD day, cuz i din get to blog! that means, i had something to do! =) =)
yeah, i woke up this morning n i couldn't really get up.. yesterday's sit up's gave me muscle ache.. so it was really pain full getting up the normal way.. so i had to roll out of bed, then stand up.. hahahaha..
ah...sian..now so sian.. i better go n sleep la.. i hear late nights make u heaty, and being heaty gives u pimples.. explains why i got this one pinple forming nest to my eye brow..-_-" n tml got band.. sigh. 9am.. so early.
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Monday, November 29, 2004
OK, today's wierd subject for math tuition is:
"there's a million sperms, but only ONe reaches n fertilizes the egg"
okayyyy~~?? like as if i dunno tt. n wads tt gotta do with maths!? wa piang, i tell u, tt fella really got sumthing wrong man! hahahaha
OH i'm so HAPPY i'm so GLAD , that today's the last day! last day of TUITION! for the yeAARRRR... wa .. phew*.. i'm so relieved. hahahaha, no i can like a have a total break man!
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sighhhhhhhhh
today got lard at 5 o'clock again.. so sian!! i hate math tuition man.. then tt smelly pig's not helping, he n his b.o... -_-" 2hrs! of inhaling tt.. argh... nvm .. sigh.. chirstmas is coming.. n my house looks nothing like it.. the decoration's like so boring..
BUT, i finished baby jesus's manger(shack, wadeva)! haha, wah took me so long to finish it man... i'm quite happy now.. hahaha.. must tie all the sticks here n there, put the musking tape, then got the strings .. wa lau..
sighh..so boring.. man.
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
Somebody, shoot me with the sleeping gun. wake me up when the day is fun. -nick
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My bordem made me resort to watching a movie with my parents! hahaha.. well, wasn't all that bad, at least i din haf to pay for it myself =)
hahaha, i developed this santa claus face for the cards/letters, cuz their not really cards, i'm lazy to go buy, so i grabbed some 'special' paper from my dad's cupboard, but, hey, at least rite? hahaha, i jus hope it ain't that bad... first time first time, so nvm. =)
haha, watching the polar express reminded me of gill the whole time man.. so wierd, actually not wierd at all, cuz she's like so SOOOO into Christmas.. hahaha.. guess tt's why la.. but it was still funny how when the two children were singing some christmas song at the train, tt was when it really reminded me of gill... hahahahaha..
jsu now i was making this shack, for the figurines, u noe, the chack tt baby jesus was in.. yah, my mom asked me to make the shack... wa lau, so difficult, after tiying like 9 sticks together, i got damn sian, n gave up, so now the half-done shack's still lying on the table. hahaha.
alamak.. i'm suposed to bring down the table n light the advent candles.. waahhh, i'm damn lazy now la.. -_-" *grumbles...
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Saturday, November 27, 2004
ok.
today i went to play lan gaming, haha, see how bored i am? i actually was so desperete to go out, i so willingly treat this guy to play with us.. haha, sigh.. well, can't say the time i had at the center was boring, it was quite fun actually, n irritating, cuz i kept loosing to bona over counter-strike, but i still won him in warcraft! =D, considering i hardly even play tt stupid game.. wah, damn shiok.
And, umm.. can sumbody, help me out,... :how long does it roughly take for a snail mail to reach it's destination? (oH kAyee...So, i have never sent cards to any one in my entire lifetime through the post man), so what? don mean i can't start doin it rite!?. =) so yah, enlighten me abit... anyone.. haha
N this template rocks rite! so neat! =) i'm so pleased. hahaha -sum 41! sum 41! sum 41! *gives the sum41 hand sign* woooo!! *bleeeaaaarrrgghhhhh!!! \m/!!..... kay, i'm really outta ideas, so i'll just shut up. n today's still jelly's birthday! =) *pooorhh pooorhh!*< the stupid thing the blow in children's parties tt make tt sound.. u noe? hahahaha, nvm nvm.
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OH, hahaha, umm..right now there's nothing much to do.. but yeah.. so....
guess wad day it is?
it's saturday la dumb! ..
haha, jk, it's more than saturday la.....
*ahem*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELLY!~~15 yrs!
haha, okok, now tts done, maybe all hu read this can go sign her gbk or sumthing.. hahaha, have no idea why, but it makes her happy? n jumps ard..? hahaha..
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Friday, November 26, 2004
WAH! the last 15 minutes of my tuition seemed sooo bloodie friggin long man!
altough i was sleeping for like, most od the time.. yeah it still was VERY LONG! haha, could die man.. n yah, jus as i had expected, he n his smelly B.O came today.. sigh.. why doesn't he bother using deodarent.. like, wa lau eh.. so smelly, the least he could do is to use deo. right? well, it's over now.. i really hope tml's gonna be fun. today wasn't so bad, cuz i got to go out in the morning, meet the smelly arm pit man, had a nice chat/argument, with jelly n kelsey, n met the smelly B.O man.. yeah so, not so bad. =) haha,
one thing i hate abt fridays tho.....NO MEAT! wa lau. i wanna eat meat! crap.. ( not meaning i wanna eat crap ah! it's jus n exclamation.)
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HA HA,
today finally got enuf money to buy TWO pairs of sticks, so next time, if it breaks agn, i don need to go all the way to bras basah.
AHHHH! it's 3.48, stupid smelly pork lard's comming at 5... sian man..
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Brrrrrrrrrr... it's 9.17 in the really cold mornin.
wah this mornin like damn cold man! i woke up, then while brusing my teeth, my legs are freezing man!, now i'm still shivering... so wierd rite? i think cuz my air con was damn cold. haha. wa piang, i can't even yawn properly la.
YES! today i'm FINALLY going out, hahahahahha, but later got tuition.. must face tt smelly bum again.. sigh.. i can't stand his B.O man.. wa lao ehhh.. pee yeww!. hahaha, wadeva, i better get goin now.. gotta b at city hall mrt by 10.30am.
yeah, i'm prolly gonna get some dumsticks, n guitar picks too.. i keep loosing the pick.. like i put it down for 2 seconds.. then i forgot where i put it.. spend 5 minutes finding the bloodie pick.. hahaha.. i wonder if every bodie has the same problem. hahaha.
Gillian named my drawing yesterday...? tt was wierd.. haha, she named the guy, jake. cuz she found him cute. hahaha, so wierd. (it's the first pic in the "drawings" section)hahahaha.. well, 'least she gave me 'few things to do yesterday.--i hope u feel happy! =). hahaha
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
Today is Officially the MOST boring DAY of my whole life.
well maybe not life, but it is definitely one of the top few in my boring day's list. like kao! SO BORING LA!.. at least yesterday night was quite fun. haha. today was so boring. wa lau, so boring man, play guitar also no mood, well ok, drums, the funk lifted me up for a while, a WHILE only. it died the minute i stopped. -_-". i really hope there's gonna b sumthing exciting to do tml man. so shit boring today. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!&*!%*&^$#*!&*^%&$%&! .... feels like shats..
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OH HOH! my fingers are healed now, i'll go n play guitar till they start to rot again. hahahaha, i'm pretty much crazy. haha.
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Hahaha
Yes, Thank you Gillian for the birthday wishes! in advance. hahahaha.=) hope u feel some sense of mentioned-ness. hahahahaha.. see? i even put it in bold.
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WAH.
thinking bout yest, i can't belive i've actually sat my friggin ass on that damn chair for 6 staright hours, chatting on msn, changing blog skin, talking on the tag board. like. kao. tts damn long. AND SHIT! i missed my Arts central ANIME>.... fk. fk. fk.
argghh!! it's not the first time man. dammit!dammit!dammit!dammit!dammit!dammit!dammit!
the word dammit, ... reminds me of the risen christ rc idol thing.. adeline asked me to join..? so funny, i tot it was for singer's only, turns our form band also can ah. hmm..=D play drums, haha.
sigh.. when do i get to have some fun man. i need to go out, so badly. BUT y got nobody free.. like heLOOO, it's the bloodie friggin holidays, why on earth shud u be NOT free???? sheesh. darn. i'm gonna go back to my old job really soon, i've tried so hard to send the boss the letter of resignation, but seems, the stupid tv n the bag of chips is really damn persuasive man. i need to go out quick! i sun wanna b a couch patato! man!geez.am already so fat.
i also got no one to scold now.. wa lau. dun lemme go out, dun gimme anyone to scold, wat am i to do man! sit here for 12 hours ah... kao. go n die la. i dun even noe hu i'm asking to die...hahahaha
SIGGHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRING!!!!!
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
UGH. UGh. Ugh. ugh. sheesh kelsey, u make the word 'sight seeing' sound like some bloodie god noes wad, sin.!? like was it THAT gross tt u'd haf't fill up one whole blog entry with the word "eww" spelled in many different variations n lengths? goodness. 'tis not like.. argh, nvm, the more i say, the more ya'll will think astray! so... soo.. soooo... wad noe. hahaha. see la, alicia, u n ur bordem.! hahaha, sigh, is there no one right now to talk to. stupid msn, work when there's no one interesting online, spoil when every one's online. gerrghh..
jus remembered, playing bass is fun! sorta turned my bro's guitar into a bass guitar(fiddled ard with all the knobs n all), n played "blind man" with charlse, wilson played the drums, n the reptile was playing u noe wad? compuTERR.. kao..
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was filled of nonsense, haha
jammed with the whole band today, but there were two extra ppl ard, but nvm, i think the only song we managed to accomplish was dammit.. how pathetic huh.. but besides all tt noise we made, when the rest of them went to use my com, i was jammin church songs with one of the extra peeps! it was SUPER fun! i played the drums n he on the guitar n vocals, the singing wasn't fantastic la, but i tell u, church songs are so fun. =) the best part of the day i tell, u, cuz prolly i'm so much better at the drums than i am at the guitar.(cuz prolly drums = 3years, guitar = 1 1/2 months)
don quit guitar! don quit any instrument u take up, cuz, if u don't u can umm.. ah, it's damn cool when u noe how to play an instrument. i swear. k.! so don't! haha, it's not a good attitude anyways.=) -don stop never give up, blah blah blah blah reach the top.. dunno wad la la da da da, la la la la la la la. k, i hate tt song, but the meaning's sumwhere there. haha,
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healed, healed.
my com's healed! msn cured, fingers harder! shiok! hard fingers easy to play guitar. haha.n my bro finally got his 'lectric guitar stringed up. n i tuned it. =) wad an accomplishment, cuz i'm not supposed to, but when he tested it after i tuned it, he din say anything, hHAHA, kena jack, i bet he would've loved to tell me, "it's still outta tune la dey, see la, my bridge all screwed).. oh ya.. shit the bridge was screwed, but it's cuz HE raised it in the first place, din wanna let me tune .. sigh, his stubborness has been in him since born, i tell u. kindergarten noe!kindergarted, al ready so sacarstic..
this is the story my dad related to us, we couldn't stop laghing man.:
in K2 the teacher took a yellow toy aeroplane, n showed it to marc(my bro), asked him, "maaarc, whaat ees thiis?" then my bro gave tt 'u think i stupid ah? of course aeroplane la, ask me stupid question' kinda look, n he said "BA-NA-NA!" , she would then say, "AE-RO-PLANE", n he'd say, "no! BA-NA-NA".. this kept going till the teacher got fed up with him. n din wanna ask him anymore. he also stood out side class for half a year, cuz he din like the teacher, n when the end of year came, the teacher told my parents, marc hasn't been attending class for half a year, then my mother was so shocked because she was the one sending us to kindergarten everyday. haha..hiyo, tt fella, so stubborn. can't believe he's older than me..
yeah so anyways, i really hope today's jammin'll b fun man.really lookin forward to it. =)
n when are the auditions for the music industry thing ..
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Monday, November 22, 2004
crap.
ugh, shit la, shudn't haf left so early yesterday, din get to take any fotos. =( stupid shit. bah, so regretful. haha. n now it's back to normal routines.. doing jus about nothing.. all my band mates so not free la,i wanna jam, but nobody to jam with, so boring sia... crap.
i luved my confi tie. haha. =)
thnx to Elizabeth for the bd-present! =D though i'm not sure wads in it, but it's got a mug shap thing, so i guess it's a mug, but i'm not opening it till my bday. haha, she told me not to. n does anyone noe if she uses the com? or msn to b more specific..
sighh.. so boring.......... it's 11.35 in the morning. n i've got nothing to do. i'm thinking of goin out to buy strings for the guitar(the strings burst again) , n prolly more pairs of drumsticks this time(cuz i broke my remaining pairs).. but there's nobody to go wid me...!! so sian, dun wanna go town alone sia..sigh, some holidays I'm having.
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
today's confi day! =)
happy coni to hu ever getin confirmed to day n reading thuis.. haha, n i changed the skin again, it's more pleasant now at least, n i still like the sum 41 theme. =D
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
And the mystery girl is.....
Alicia
-Chey.. i tot wad sia.. hahaha... like i looked pass ya so manytimes la.. nvr give any wink or something.. indicate.. geez.. left in suspense til 3pm.. haha. i don play com games la, so wad, i'm not a guy arh..?
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hahahahaha.
oh great, i've enrolled myself in the auditions for the music industry thing already.. hahaha..guess wad, they're actually desperete for a drummer. =) hahaha, so lucky.. now got me. haha. well, lucky both ways la.. n ya, i still dunno hu ';)' is.. never come tell me hu u are ah. wa lau, say u'll see me today, then never.. pfth. sigh.. like i was looking ard, for wad i also dunno, i dun even noe wad to look out for.. an ya la, i wanted to go buy a new pair of drumticks, cuz like, i broke my remaining two pairs.. my whole floor is filled with wood chips. haha, then my fren cannot follow me go buy, so i jus went home la. n started to blog this thing.. -_-"
now, tml u betta tell me hu u are ah.. otherwise...haha, i dunno wad to do..
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Friday, November 19, 2004
tag board = new messenger?
haha, twas so funny man, i tot hu tagged the board as ';)' then when i replied her, she replied bak, then we kept replying til she had ta go la. never say hu she was. not fair, haha. yeah, now i'm like wondrin hu the hell's tt person from st.john's grp...haha, i still think it was damn funny la.. wierd, funny, not really funny, funny...ah wat the hell, later i got tuition, gotta face tt smelly bum, i tell u, i cant't stand his b.o. ... so gross.
i'm still wondrin hu she was, n howcome she noes hu i am.. was she from my class? there are oni a few girls from my class.. argh.. wadeva..haha. =)
yah, n issit compulsory to wear all white for confirmation?
i pray i pass my amths retest...(prays)
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
haha, did some recordings of our songs, cool. but most of them suck.. cuz i basically SUCK. haha, yeah, but i think my untitled song's pretty cool. with the drums and all. well actually, jus the drums n guitar. i wanted to put it up on the blog.. but i dunno how.. =p.. n i did some crap acoustic recording of tt song i wrote down there.. and jeezz.. does my voice suck.. ugh, i hope the other guitarist can sing better than me.. then u ask, if he's our guitarist, howcome i dunno if he can sing it betta den me.. wel, cuz he's grounded, poor thing huh.. i think cuz he kena demoted go normal, even more poorthing. unless wilson bluff me la, sigh.i'm still living in bordem, i wanna go out, get a new pair of sticks(cuz mine's broken), i wanna noe how to draw ppls necks, so wierd, i can draw faces, but not the necks. well, the rest of the body also cannot draw.. sigh. i wanna get the guitar above, i wanna get the remote control for my zen touch, i wanna PASS, PASS, PASS, my A Maths rE-test( and i wonder, does everyone always feel like taking a crap during their a-math test? cuz like, every time i take my test, without fail i needa use the toilet la..-_-"), like a retest shud b easier right.. WELL, appAREnTLiE, it's like HARDER.. my dang teacher la, so irritating man. hate her for tt one reason only, other that the fact tt her papers are always so tough to understand.. she's a really nice teacher. well, yeah so hu cares anyways.. sigh. pls pls pls pls pls, god, lemme jus get 40 for my amths test, cuz like if i fail.. i've spent my whole '04 year taking taking taking, up all of my time time time, doing so much work work work, jus to fail n leave it be next year? i'd say MY FOOT!, so pls lemme pass, i don care how much i get, jus 40 will do. =).. and i needa go out...i'm home-sick, as in literally
Sick-Of- Home... geez.. i actually still wonfer hu reads these stuff, i'm like wasting time.. writing this.. but it's alot better than wasting time doing nothing, so i guess it ain't so bad la..=)
>right click n then click 'save as' to download, if you're bothered to listen to crap. haha.
they take forever to download, so unless ya really wanna hear it, u can click it at the cost of ur time, i strongly suggest u click it when u got nothing better to do on the com than to listen to crap. :)
Wah, today did sit ups.
hope tml i don hafta roll outta bed agn! >.< hahaha
Nat: i think the koyok-ness in ur link was the lingering space bar tt was infront rite? yeah, i took it away liao? happy? hahaha n eh, u've seen my blog b4? then last time y never tag!? haha, ah n yeah last time was black, not that i don lke black, i LOVE black, loads. but it's not a v gd colour for a background la. the white background's easier to read n it look cool too! =) heh
Wah, now adeline's asking me to draw a pic for her... first gillian, now adeline... wonder hu's next.? hahaha, actually, i really don mind, cuz then i'll haf something to do during my nites. =)
And Have i said this? Gothic rocks!
specially Symphonic goth Metal! tts a genre btw, not a band.
the band i dwnld jus now's 'within temptations' n they're bloodie good! the girl singer's voice i nicee! hahaha, their song's got this really nice Olden time(vampire like) background tune. hahaha. i gotta go buy their other albums. cuz i can't download the rest.. i oni managed to download one album.
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Wah, today did sit ups again.
i hope tml i don have to roll out of bed agn. >.< hahahaha.
nat: ok fine, i think it's the extra space bar lingering there tt makes it koyok. i removed it. happy? hahaha =p and u've seen my blog before? y never tag last time!? hahaha. yeah last time it was black.. black for like dunno how many months.( not that i don like black, i LOVE black. but it's not a very good colour for a background la, this white's more pleasant. =) n cool too.)
alamak, i forgot to put up the "my drawings" link.. waste my time doing up tt site sia.. haha, now it's up already. =) haha, now adeline's asking me to draw a pic for her. first gillian.. ten adeline.. hahaha.. wonder who's next.. well, i seriously don mind. cuz then i'll haf sumthing to do during the nights.!
And umm.. the letter hor.. i write the reciepients address infront of the envelope rite? then do i have to rite my add anywhere?
i downloaded a goth band. AND they ROCK! wahahahaha, it's got this really cool gothic(old) background tune.. thing.. wah, it's damn nice, then the girl singer's damn good!
-Within Temptation. i gotta go buy their album's now. heh heh
i actually blogged at 4:45 AM
pleaseshootme
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Stoning away on my bed,
doesn't solve anything but watse my time away,
thinking of what i've done,makes me wanna kill myself, cuz.
i need you (won't you find me right now)
i need you (cuz i really miss you so much)
so take me away, take my life away
so take me away, take my life away(cuz all i wanna be, is with you)
nothing matters anymore
when everything i have is gone
nothing matters anymorecuz everything is gone! And~
i need you (won't you find me right now)
i need you (cuz i really miss you so much)
so take me away, take my life away
so take me away, take my life away(cuz all i wanna be, is with you)
everything has changed
when u left me, i've gone insane
life is now like shitcuz everything is gone!!(my life is empty now!!!)
i need you (won't you find me right now)
i need you (cuz i really miss you so much)
so take me away, take my life away
so take me away, take my life away(cuz all i wanna be, is with you)
i need you (won't you find me right now)
i need you (cuz i really miss you so much)
so take me away, take my life away
so take me away, take my life away(cuz all i wanna be, is with you)
so take my life away! (take it all away from me)
There is no point to life! ( take it all)
Jus take my f***ing life! (take it all away!)
i need you (won't you find me right now)
i need you (cuz i really miss you so much)
so take me away, take my life away
cuz everything i had is gone...
-written by moi, wilson n funnily enough basil..
we jammed this song at my house today, i had to sit on the floor n play the guitar cuz the microphone stand so short, u can imagine how short it was now huh.. n oh how i love the screaming part of tt song.. hee ;).. everytime after the "(my life is empty now!)" part, every body had a little grinn on their face, including me! haha :).. cuz it felt damn good, especially cuz got the drums going "bom chak bom chak bom chang!" haha.. nnm, i dun think anyone understands the slightest bit of what i'm trying to convey. :p haha. n oh, did i tell u how cute my cuzins are??!! hahaa, u shud see their fotos! =D soo cuute.. ahhaaha
haha, 'twas really fun .. tho i still don think many ppl'll read this damn thing.. but yeah , it' was really fun, tho we oni played two songs in the jamin studio(cuz i like learnt guitar like last sat.. n we jammed on mon) so yeah, was really cool la.. um.. the name. New World Rising.. not really sure wad tt means, but wilson came up wid it, it actually was the initials of the members names.. yes, N for Nicholas(me, guitar), W for Wilson(drummer), R for Raphael(guitar). =) so yeah. so fun. but wads NOT fun, is being sick.. ohh my, wadda sickaroo i am. well, i'm sick yes i AM sick, so i din go sch 2day, i stayed home, obviously n practise guitar, quite furiously, my finger tips look pretty much rotten.. haha.
sheesh, um. i still have to idea how to make this blog userfrenly. it's like sux la. n uh. my cuzins are so cute.. haha.. they're here till nov 2nd. can play play play wid them all day.. haha.. but nowtt i'm sick ar.. so sian.. better stay away for a while.. -_-"
i actually blogged at 9:26 PM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
sigh.. i got back my marks dis week. here they are.
A.math 18/40 (dang)
e.math 29/50 eng 15/25 chinese i'm not too sure, but i'm pretty sure i failed it really bad like 4/50 kinda mark comb. science 64/100 principals of accounts 39/40 (wooohooo!!! tts a bloodie friggin 97%!! bwarahaha.!)
comb. humanities 32/100 (sigh. i'll nvr pass diss)
i'm oni please for poa. hahahahaha!!! yeah. other den tt. i'm so bored again. hmm.. i betta work on humans.. if i wanna go poly sia.. hu am i talking to? i dunno..
prolly oni one person. cuz i don bother tellin ppl my blog.. like wads é use?
sigh. boaring!..
i actually blogged at 7:18 PM
pleaseshootme
Thursday, September 09, 2004
ALICE COOPER - POISON
Your cruel deep eyes
your blood, like ice
One look, could kill
My pain, your thrill...
I wanna love you but I better not touch (don’t touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You’re poison, running through my veins
You're poison I don’t wanna break these chains
Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I’m caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace, on sweat....
I hear you calling and it’s needles and pins (and pins)
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don’t wanna touch you but you’re under my skin (deep in)
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You’re poison, running through my veins
You're poison I don’t wanna break these chains Poison...
(guitar solo)
One look, could kill
My pain, your thrill...
I wanna love you but I better not touch (don’t touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much (to much)
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You’re poison, running through my veins
You're poison I don’t wanna break these chains
Poison (Poi-son....)
I wanna love you but I better not touch (don’t touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison Yeah....
Well I don’t wanna break these chains
Poison Runnin deep inside my veins
Burnin deep inside my brain
Poison and I don’t wanna break these chains
AND YES I AM VERY VERY BORED... so.. sigh. i've wasted my day.. like i've always..i don believe wad i'm saying but i cannot wait to go back to school...-_-"
i actually blogged at 10:59 PM
pleaseshootme
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Parfthftplfth!!!!!! BoooAAARRRIIINNNGGG!!! i'm so bored. not tt any other day is different. but today i had to wake up early! earlier than previous days.. to go a.math tuition. wad a way to start my day... kick some math into it.. n ur day will seem unbelievabally boring. so yeah. to day was boring.. but i had a fun time screaming my head off when my fren was whacking my drumset.. haha so i lost my voice for a while! it was really cool! i should try loosin ur voice for a while! it's really funn!!! then when u whisper, it's louder than when u shout.. so totally opposite! so fun!! n like.. i was think back.. like damn funny! cuz last year during my test.. i think i finished early.. so i slept. i had some stupid dream tt i fell from sumwhere... then suddenly i woke up. from my mouth emerged a soft but very audible "ahh~" n my hands went like straight up in the air.. can u imagine?? haha... so my fren behind was like laffing his ass off... sigh.. wad else to type......hmm..
*boink* *tootoootooooo...chick chik chooka chup choop* *cherkapoottooooooooooooooo**tehhhh* i got nothing...-_-"
i actually blogged at 7:16 PM
pleaseshootme
Sunday, September 05, 2004
argh... stupid exams! we're supposed to have n exchange wid st margrets like on the 18th of sept. now cuz of the friggin exams.. it's postponed alllllllll tthhee wwaaayyyy to dec. shiits.. now is like so boring.. study study study. today is a sunday. i woke up late! =) so nice. i like sleepin through my mornings. then watched even stevens. damn funny shoow. then i climbed over my wall into my nieghbours house to get my basket ball. n found out the hieght was like twice then i expected. n nearly sprained my ankle.. so friggin high!!! yeah. my ankle hurts now. n now i'm doin this blog for god noes hu'll read it. i'm waiting for my dad to wake up. so i can play my drums. cuz it's getting really boring.. probably why i even decided to go n jump down tt stupid wall n hurt myself. haha..
i actually blogged at 12:41 PM
pleaseshootme
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Like i wonder hu the hell'll read this stupid thing.. but .. anyways.. i'm jus too bored.. so.. hu cares? today is saturday, i;m bored, like everyother day.. i dunno wad this blog is for.. i dunno alot of things.. lemma see wad i noe.. i noe i dunno alot of things.. ok. i'm so lame.. far from funny.. full of shit.. today is such a boring day. cuz i noe i'm gonna fail my a.math test.. cuz i totally dunno wad the f*** i was writing.. n i needed to shit. wad cld possibly be worse? i had to piss too.. oh wells.. it's not the first time i'm gonna fail my a.maths.. won be the last either.. i;m so dumb rite? yeah.. today is so boring.. which is precisely why i am "updating this blog".. sigh.. my life is so full of downs.. my 'ups' fall so quickly.. the minute i reach the top of the hill, i fall all the way down all over again, jus to climb the very same hill..and fall again.. when will god fill the top of my hill with some land for me to walk on, instead of jus climbing up and fallin cuz there's no land up there.. hmm.. maybe writing this thing isn't so boring after all.. makes me think.. kindof a miracle, cuz i hardly think, waayy to lazy me.. i need sumthing exciting to happen to me.. i think i'm juz made from shit tts y i'm always so bored.. i;m stuck in montfort, where the principal wants us to wear our pants at our belly. fill our bags till they're twice our size. and comb our heads with stupid hair styles. montfort = ah beng sch ..no longer, now montfort = nerd land.. fuck u simon lourds.. stupid fat fuck.. tt felt grt.. haha.. FUCK U SIMON LOURDS! FUCKING FAT SHIT!.. ok.. tt felt rEa;;y good.. i wish there's a way i can hack into the schools P.A system, then shout those words for all to hear and mock tt buggar during morning assembly when he's bragging over his stupid lil stories. sigh.. i'm bored again..
i actually blogged at 11:11 AM
pleaseshootme
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
??? yeah.. wad the hell man.. blog? i nvr tot i'd create one.. but wat the hey.. no harm.. yeah.. wan ling forced me.. sorta.. to make a blog.. yesh.. this blog suck.. jus like the creator.. n if i say u suck.. wahahaha.. tt means.. ur really bad.. cuz if a sucker calls u a sucker.. nvm.. this is so dumb.. wat the hell am i writing.. wad ya supposed to put in these things anyway.. diary???
i actually blogged at 7:00 PM
pleaseshootme
nick
1989
singapuurah
temasekpolytechnic
i wanna play hellgate london u motherPUSS
but it's only comming in the US(like firggin america) on halloween '07
you're the most beautiful girl i've ever seen,
and i'm the most handsome-mest guy u will ever see,
and u can find that word in the dictionary,
written by me.
eeeee, i look horrible!!!
i nid a light at the end of the tunnel.
